I was outside surrounded by storms. Darkness all around. Silent lightning flashing on the horizon and I knew them to be just lightning. But, it all evolved into a PTSD moment. When I knew the enemy is upon us in full force. There were bombs, bullets and missiles at every horizon and I only knew the sounds. The sudden flashes of silent light in the distance. The thunder in the clouds became warfare in my here and now. But, it was not a here and now it is a then to come. Just as the lightning precedes the thunder. I understand this as a time in the future. War is coming, but when. But, what kind of war and with whom? Is this going to be the American civil war. Where the Rainbow tsunami takes full control over the military and goes after the disobedient and defenseless Christian civilian population who still upholds God, family and the Constitution of the USA.
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How far is the horizon? How does that translate into time and distance? Is this a marker for an actual when in years? Does seconds mean years or does the distance mean years to wars come?
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Thunder in relation to lightning is all about time. Lightning must strike first and then the thunder comes when you begin to count the time. Then with the time you know the approximate distance. Get it.
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Here is a problem. I have not been in actual war or in actual battles. So how can I have a PTSD moment? It is simple but not really. In my twenties and thirties I had those two decades of PTSD issues directly related to my very bad childhood. My poor wife and children endured with me and often times not even knowing. No I do not drink, smoke anything legal or not. Nor to I take medications legal or not. So, I endured the full onset of these PTSD visions. This is what this vision was like a PTSD fully involved vision. Which did spark my memories of all of those old PTSD moments. They can be very powerful.
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