I really hate when people say to those who are suffering from past
trauma. To stop living in the past. When the result of everyday life is
directly related to your past. You may not be able to do anything about
your past but you can do something about your today and your tomorrow.
By doing things that are positive and constructive in your life. Can you
then begin the healing process. The healing process will truly begin
when you begin to live clean. When you begin to live your life in
accordance to old religious values. Just don't give up.
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I'm a social misfit. I guess it is because I spent most of my childhood
heavily medicated. Did not go to school much. I wasn't taught anything.
Beside why should they. I had a tested IQ of 70. Then there was the
closet. The belt. Other weapons of discipline. Being knocked out by
various means. Mom proclaiming that we should not have adopted you. As a
child of around 10. I have slept in a tree, under a railroad bridge.
Inside of the big pier 60 on Clearwater beach, FL.
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with no one she quietly enters. Love so pure within her softly beating
heart. Dark sparks of invisible misfire emanates from her very real
mind. She dutifully sits at a table and silently waits for her love to
bring her a popeyes fried chicken meal. She never takes her eyes off of
him. The crowd dissipates. Confusion and loss sets in as she pushes up
her rectangle rimmed glasses. She hand combs her auburn hand cut hair.
Without a sound she walks up to the popeyes counter and asks where the
man went who was just standing here a minute ago. The popeyes woman
reinforcing her realty of delusion. Says he left. She quickly leaves
alone and into her pretty blue car rushes off. C.J.MacKechnie
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Aug 2, 2010
This really happened. Yesterday. Sawyer, MI. I-94, exit 12. T/A Truck stop.
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I've discovered in life. That there are usually 3 choices to make on
most problems or decisions to be made. Even in movies this is often
true until the evile villain gives you only two choices and the hero
saves the day or planet with the third option. I'm not big on horror
movies. Probably because my chilhood was a continuous horror show. The
current vampire/ werewolf/human movie. Is very similar with three
choices in life that a young girl must make. I'm gonna call them the
three important decisions in life that we all can make or have made and
can still make. I think i'm running out of cell phone space so I will
continue this in the comments. Forget about all of that girlie love and
passion stuff in that sissy story lines. My observation is also lacking
any testosterone manly manliness. So. Just open up your mind to the
possibilities of the 4th choice. Forget the hormones. I heard you girls
make those noises in the dark theater. Go to comments. Just breathe and
cool down first.
1st. Choice. The human choice. Which is very boring and your stuck in a
week body that is always getting sick. Then you die. Very negative.
2nd. Choice. The werewolf option. The emotionally primal and physically
powerful werewolf is always the fun choice. That we can all choose to
become. when we choose to de-evolve from our current human state.
3rd. Choice. The ultra cool and mysteriously dark vampires is always the
sensible and chic/civilized/modern choice. That we can all choose to
become when we deny our humanity and our ties to what it means to be
human.
The 4th. Choice. We can all choose to evolve and become the possible
next step. Energetic light beings or enlightenment. This may also seem
as boring as the basic human decision. There shouldn't be any drama and
trauma as always associated with the werewolf and vampire decisions.
Besides, when the vampires, werewolves and anything dark comes into your
presence. They will become like fading smoke and Ashe. The end.
C.J.MacKechnie
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When your a slave to anyone, any group or any political thought. You
will never have to concern yourself with anything that is important or
complicated as defined by your master owner. Being a slave, you will
never have to worry your pretty little head about thinking or planning,
success or failure, profit or loss, efficiencies or waste, ideas or
improvements. As a slave you will never become anxious about housing,
education, food, water and health care. All of these things will be
provided. So as long as you are of use and worth to your master owner.
If you are not a slave to the master owner. Then you will not be allowed
access to anything. Until you choose to become a slave and receive your
mark. C.J.MacKechnie
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Eye of the Storm:
You have been warned by those who are in the know. You set your sails
and turned your rudder into the oddly beautiful sunset. For a short time
the gentle breeze was fun. Then the winds became thrilling. The
lightning and the waves as exciting as you have ever known. A new dawn
approaches with it daylight you will not see. Your rudder damaged. Your
mast is snapped and your boat is taking on water. The thrill and
excitement you felt some time ago is now turned into a desperate
weariness to helplessly stay alive. You call for help but all you get is
unwanted verbal static. Suddenly like a blessing from GOD your
underneath a beautiful sun and clear sky. Except all around you is dark foreboding clouds. You scream and cry for help. No response on your
radio. All is hopeless in your cries for help. The ocean is unforgiving
and it seems you will become one of the nameless many who have gone to
the bottom. Not yet, for you. Your still alive this day. You can still
be alive tomorrow if you you just continue to struggle.
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Standing Strength:
There is always those that we encounter in our daily lives whom we
admire for their strength and courage. Especially when they have been
tested and purified by fire. We see them as heroes set above us common
people. While us common people seem to always be less than or lacking in
some way in comparison to these admired heroes. The truth will always
be seen when you dirt bag of a common low life human bug discover. That
these heroes in life are no different than you are. The only real
difference is not so real. The hero decided to step up and stood alone
in the face of the monster and conquered it. That single decision based
purely in emotion is the only real difference between you and the hero.
When the hero completes his heroic deed. He/she is still the same dirt
bag low life human bug. With the same problems as you. Maybe even more
problems. Decide to stand and be a hero that only can be defined by you.
Face and confront the monster before you and inspire people that they
to can do the same as you and better
I remember a story about a WW2 medal of honor winner. He was the loser
among losers. Then one day something happened. He saved his brothers
lives by rushing a German fortified pill box. A time passed and a
general arrived with the media and no one could find him. He was peeling
potatoes. He didn't even have a proper uniform. Your regular Forest Gump or Gomer Pyle i suppose. The point of my unedited write. Is to
cause each of you to believe in yourselves. That you to can be that hero
and at least save your own selves from the whatever monster that
afflicts and torments you. You the unknown and forgotten are equal to or
better than any known and famous hero. All you have to do is decide not
to give up and quit ever. Period... An emotional decisions. That is the
only difference between you and a claimed hero. A fireman will always
find those he cannot save. A cop will always recover the body of an
unsaved victim. Their failure they will always remember.
the average man who witnessed evil and did all he could. He had his
list and cried that he could have saved more after the fact. Schindler.
He stood alone in the face of the monster. He is no different then you
are.
The simple and humble volunteer. Who does and does and does. Just a
little bit everyday. The blood donors who have gallons of giving. The
auto mechanic who fixed a car for a desperate woman. Etc. We all can be a
hero to someone.
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Expectations:
We as children often become exactly what our parents and society expect
us to become. I figure that is why so many of my foster brothers and
sisters end up in jail, homeless, mentally ill or a combination of all
three. What happens when you realize that you are better, stronger,
smarter? Than what your parents and all of society expected of you. What
do you do now? Do you remain a turkey after tasting daily that your
truly an eagle? But, always returning to the comfortable familiar life
of being a turkey. Being a turkey is like being just average. You don't
have to do anything very hard. Maybe society has expected you to be a
farm animal. Everything is provided for the farm animal. Food, water,
medical care, housing and the education needed to remain a farm animal.
Just remember turkeys and farm animals always become food product for
the farmer who is in complete control of your life. C.J.MacKechnie
What will you do or me for that matter? Will yo go back to sleep or
remain awake? If you remain awake? Will you remain a farm animal slave? A
free man is always responsible for the contents inside of their own
brains. A free man always decides for themselves how and what they will
think. Then take decisive action with their own conclusions.
We all must decide for ourselves. If we each decide to freely soar as
eagles. The life and ways of the farm animal will become alien to you
and me. If we each decide to stay and remain as farm animals. Then the
wild savage beasts like eagle and big cats will be something to be
feared always. Farm animals are taught to fear the beasts of the wild
brutal and barbaric lands. Their is safety and security when your within
the cage. Safely and securely Locked from the outside by the farmer.
How will one within the cage pray? As prey or as free beings?
Torment, insanity, misery, suffering, sadness, loneliness, confusion,
abandonment, torture, disease and sickness. You die a thousand times
everyday and yet you continue to believe that GOD ALMIGHTY has forsaken
you. Deep within the valley of death all you know is the cold steel
blade that pierces deep into your soul and burns you from the inside
out. Your wails and cries hauntingly echoes from the canyon walls
causing you to become more paranoid and more fearfull. You look into the
shimmering shadows of the canyon walls only to discover. There not
walls of rock. They are walls made up of a billion billion souls. All
singing their same insane song of miserys lament. Your life, your
energy, your hope, your love, your compassion, your kindness, your
light, your heart is all being drained out of you. Soon very soon even
your very identity will be gone from you as you become a part of the
valley of death. The end is at hand and yet it is still your choice.
Which song will you sing? C.J.MacKechnie
yes. There is a positive message in this one. Really? U have 2 thunk it
thru. This is written for those of you who seem to continually suffer.
GOD IS always with you. Remember it is not you who is lost to GOD. It is
you who lost GOD. All you have to do is reach out for GOD and he will
do the rest.
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