Showing posts with label Past. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Past. Show all posts

Thursday, May 25, 2017

Dance Judge: (Unedited): 25 May 2017:

In the physical dance of life. You are your only judge as you dance, don't dance or dance the wrong dance. It is your future self which judges you in the past. This is the your past and it is also your present your time in which you have the power to change your future.
C.J.MacKechnie
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The point of this writing is to cause you to logically change your actions or non actions of today into a pro-action which will genuinely benefit you in all of your tomorrows. We each must live in this world but do not have to become of the world. It is not my desire for any of you to become a part of the world.
The judgments of your life up to this point can only be judged by you. But, they can also be judged by God as well and it matters not your belief system. God has judged the living with conviction. Remember Noah, Sodom and Gomorrah, the future coming of the Lord. God has even Judged those whom he has chosen such as Adam and Eve, Lots wife and Moses. So do not become one of the judged like the Pharaoh of Egypt whose mind and heart were hardened. Thus, being prevented from any kind of righteous change. 
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Sometimes when there are dull and boring times in your life. It is not supposed to be opportunities to enjoy more entertainment and fun times. This may be a time when you are supposed to reflect on things so far in your life. This may be the time to gain new skills or even trades. This may be the time to become re-focused on those things which represent righteousness. Maybe it is all of it. No matter what it shall be. No actions should be taken until much deep prayer's and meditations have taken place.
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To avert all of the coming bad and sad prophecies. We each must decide to do the following everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.
To Love one another.
To live in peace with everyone.  
To exist in harmony with all.  
To Cherish all life.  
To be obedient to the Laws of God.  
To become righteous and holy by the accepting eyes of God only.  
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Tuesday, December 13, 2016

Empowered Escape: (Unedited): 13 Dec 2016:

Self empowerment is an escape out of helplessness and dependency. 
C.J.MacKechnie
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I was inspired to write this from viewing a 41 second video.
Source: https://youtu.be/JRFNmrc3z7w
Thank You very much for inspiring me to write.
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I've been thinking on empowerment for a while now. Trying to be a good father and trying to figure out how to teach self empowerment to my children.
This is the way and belief of the modern society. Where ancient wisdom's are either of no value or are only for entertaining value.
The words used "Helplessness" and "Dependency" are meant to mean depressive states of being where non-doing is the way of doing.
It does matter and yet it doesn't matter. Where ever or however your origins have been made to manifest in this here and now. In this Country it doesn't really matter if your ancestors were slaves or survivors of genocide. If your ancestors lost wars or were the ones who one the wars in a very ugly and dishonorable manor. It doesn't matter if you have survived severe neglect, abuse or even torture in your youth. I even write this knowing for many my words will seem cold. They are also applied to me as I'm one of those who were abused and tortured. Adoptive mother even tried to kill me at least three times. Enduring Foster Care abuses. My own ancestors were enslaved by the Vikings for about 500+/- years. My own ancestors even survived the ugly clan wars of Scotland. There is a lot of ugliness in the history of Scotland. I really do not know any more about my own family history.
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Personal Note: When I write something that tends to be harsh. I become a mirror to those words. Or at least do my best. So if you see redundant personal information. It is for those who do not know of my past.
Also, You need to know. I'm a very rare bird. Failed adoption and problems in foster care in two different states. They're are not a statistic which applies to me. Adoptions are important and foster care is important. Both saves lives and can be paths for those of becoming productive members of society. For me it just did not work. ...
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Past Remains Present: (Unedited): 13 Dec 2016: 
Decide for yourself to cease being the victim of the past. The past cannot hold you unless it remains a part of your chosen present. 
C.J.MacKechnie
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Trucker wisdom:
What you do as a self empowered individual is all about what you do with your right foot. Are you gonna hold the brake pedal like a panicky Pete or are you gonna mash the gas and get yourself down the road?
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Note: the word use of "Gas" is meant for the rookie, as an experienced trucker would question what flavor of diesel 1 or 2? Then argue with you until your brain goes numb.
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Thursday, December 8, 2016

Time Memories: (Unedited): 01 Dec 2016:

Jehovah is the alpha and the omega, the beginning, ending and everlasting. 
We as human beings ceased to exist less than a second ago and may exist in less than a second from now. All of our past only remains in the memories of those who were present. While all of our hopes and aspirations have yet to begin in every next moment in time to come. 
C.J.MacKechnie
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This may be very obvious to most everyone.
We all exist in this current moment in time and it has already gone. Just like the old movie strips is how we live our life. Which is only when the light of life shines through each of us. Just as what has passed has become dark and the future is yet dark and uncertain still. This is how we experience life. All of our natural senses only work when the light shines through the film of our life for that brief moment. Then all of what has already been lived. Only resides in our memories. Then what is about to be cast into the light is one of three things, Prophetic, probable, possible. Some may even add the forth word which is planned. No matter how much you plan. The film sequence of your life can be altered without any approval from you. Accidents can and do happen. Even those accidents only last for a singular moment in time. Then you are forced to move on. Unless you decide to remain within the confines of your memories. In which I have in order to understand the why's of my youth.
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Remaining in the memories of your own bad and sad. Can and will only perpetuate your overall sadness. Unless you have the strong will to analyze what has happened to you from a position of logic and reason. Even still from the position of logic and reason. You can realize the fact that once I was unloved, un-cared for and unwanted. That once I was deemed unworthy of education. That I was once thought of as dumb, stupid and retarded. Even from that self decided space in your brain of logic and reason. How can you still not be sad, unhappy as well as all of those other negative words??
Really, think about that for a moment. If you were to disassociate yourself from your emotions. Then you suddenly become less than human. Is that really the goal. To become less than or to evolve than what you were a single moment ago. Because, as of right now. The only light which shines upon the old film of your life is that which is only from your memory. The truth of what has happened to you is now gone. Even as the years go by all of those who have done bad and sad things to you. Most likely do not even think of you or the pain they have brought to you. In which you have decided to continue to live through.
I can attest to you. That I have gone through all of the logic. I have spent much time in prayer and tears. I have come to realize two things. It is not the fault of God and bad people do bad things.
Then you have to not expect any kind of apology from bad people. Because, bad people don't really care about anything outside of their own bodies. So don't hold your breath and don't put your life on hold for them either. Because, a good loving relationship with your parents and family. May never ever happen. Just do your best to get yourself into that mental and spiritual place to forgive them in silence and march forward. Begin to build your new family. In which you can become the wise old matriarch or patriarch. That would be the ideal goal? right? To have a family in which they all desire to have a daily personal relationship with one another. A good family with honor, integrity, honesty and morals as some of the foundation stones to your new family.
Even if you do come from a family of ugliness, abuse and torture. From those fires of great torments. Can you become a saved remnant of them which shall all pass away into nothingness. Not even to be worthy of anyone's memories or history. Purpose and meaning is a sign of a bright future. Where as those without purpose or meaning in life will only find nothingness. To merely exist or survive in life is not thriving in life.
So no matter how bad and sad your life has been. Find your hope and hold onto that courage you had which made you to survive. Even if it was only barely survived. Then decide this day. To do more than survive as the victim. Stop being the victim. The victim that you were is now in the past. There is nothing really to understand why? You were only just the body present and if it was not you. Then it would have been someone else, Even a pet. So all of that which you had suffered. It was never ever about you. It was all about them or him or her.
Just know that you were stronger than all of those who did mistreat and abuse you. You were and are victorious. Even if you do not feel like it. Just ask anyone who has ever been in a hard fight and was deemed victorious. How they feel? They feel like they have been in a fight. Sometimes, even when the fight is over. New ones begin. Ask or watch any wounded soldier/warrior. Find your new found strength in them. Even those wounded warriors are just like you. Even if you had not fought a defined enemy in some far away land. Still you had to fight daily to survive as they had to.
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Friday, October 30, 2015

Past Deep: (Unedited): 30 Oct 2015:

Truthful and deep, intangible wisdom, knowledge and understanding come to those souls who have gone past their own mentality and physicality to truly know what is not there. 
C.J.MacKechnie
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Wisdom and understanding can easily come from watching those around you. What to do and what not to do. Especially, the what not to do. You know watch some of those YouTube videos of people doing stupid things. Watching those whom you consider to be successful and then copying their actions. So that you can have similar gains. You can also learn much more from your own failures than you can from success. Think about that one for a moment. Who was that inventor that invented the everlasting candle after more than a thousand failures. Now we have LED light Bulbs.
These kinds of wisdom, knowledge and understand is only the tip of the ice berg. To what is really underneath the water. That point of division between the ice, the water and the air. One you cannot see but can feel if something wrong happens to the air.
To go really deep in your own journey to find new wisdom, knowledge and understanding. You must become blind, deaf, helpless, breathless, without senses and unfeeling. All of your fears, anxieties and psychological boxes must be released, opened or disappeared. Almost to the point that even your own physical body no longer matters any more.
Then after you free yourself from all of physicality. You can then begin a new journey into those deeply profound intangible things. 
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Notes:
-As I'm writing this. It always seemed to me that the wisest of the wise always seemed to be weakly thin. I wonder if that is some kind of clue. But, then you have that fat Buddha. The reader needs to know. I'm 5-10 inches and weigh 230 pounds. I'm not comparing myself to the wisdom of Buddha, only our common rotundness.
- I am not implying anywhere that you must die, to seek physical death or to continually flirt with death by any possibility. Nor am I implying that you must harm yourself in any way. I also, do not agree in anyway the use of any mind altering substances of any kind. No matter their legality or how they are prescribed for medical uses. 
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Go and sin no more.
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To avert all of the coming bad and sad prophecies. We each must decide to do the following everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.
To Love one another.

To live in peace with everyone.

To exist in harmony with all.

To Cherish all life.

To be obedient to the Laws of God.

To become righteous and holy by the accepting eyes of God only.
All without any pride, ego, arrogance, supremacy and entitlements.
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Thursday, November 28, 2013

Thankful Present: (Unedited): 28 Nov 2013:

Being thankful for what is present now. Is more important than the bad and sad memories of the past you survived. 
C.J.MacKechnie
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 My childhood story may sound bad and sad. But, there are a large number of children who have survived more abuses and tortures than I have. Then there are those children who died at the hands of their evil parents and relatives.
If you are reading this now. You have survived your awful past and stand victorious. Be thankful. Yes, thankful for your past. Because, your enduring strength is proven. Even though you may feel like the damaged victim. You survived it all and hopefully you are now in a safe place.

I am today, very thankful for what I have endured. I am very thankful for my wife and children. I am thankful for the life I have and had. I have experienced much and evolved from all of those negative experiences. This is important. So is the life you have had and will have. I hope you can find the positive in your whole life. Even if it does seem like that golden needle in a sea of golden hay. Your search for the positives in your life is well worth it.All of the abuse and tortures you have had to endure. Was never about you. It was always them, those who did those terrible things to you. You were just the body present.

Everyday is a Thanksgiving. I hope everyone can live everyday of their lives in a joyful celebration.
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Friday, July 5, 2013

Factual Concerns: (Unedited): 05 July 2013:

Not being concerned with your present will translate into your future. Your future state of being will be the factual result of what you truly cared about in the past. 
C.J.MacKechnie
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That which you think about in the here and now is that which is important to you right now.  So in your irresponsibility you desire to spend all of your time playing games instead of growing your intellect or evolving your soul. You will have neither and a profound sense of critical stagnation in your life. A stagnation so profound that achieving victories in new games or using new more powerful machines can not even quench.
If you do not begin to spend time in developing your intellect and physical skills. You will find yourself unable to even play the games you really want to play. Your gaming friends will migrate away from you as they migrate away from the old and obsolete. Your real life friends will begin to disappear as they go off to college and develop new friendships which will go along with them in their journeys. Then other friends who do not go off to college will begin their working careers out of trade schools. Thus, a third tier of friends which will leave you. You need to realize that it was you who became stagnant by choice in a universe that is constantly moving. So, just by doing doing which will benefit your life is the fundamental choice which ended all of your friendships. It is not your friends fault. They could not and would not remain stagnant just for you. Doing so would jeopardize the quality of life in their future.
For you it is not to late. Get focused back into your studies. Create a plan. Work the plan until it is completed. No quitting. Quitting is not an option to even be thought of. Accept no excuses. Start over if you have to. Begin at the bottom. End the stagnation in your life by you moving forward under your own power. Even if you have to go get that GED. Then do so. Then go to a trade school and get a trade. Then don't stop there. Keep going. Go to college and get that Associates then Bachelors, maybe 2 or 3. Go for that Masters or 2. Follow up with A PHD. Your limitations in this life is created by you or those which you have agreed with.
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Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Loose Thread: (Unedited): 06 July 2010:

Tugging on or playing with any thread within the fabric of time and space is usually not a good thing unless your the seamstress.
 C.J.MacKechnie
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Our histories are woven into today's reality. So if your one of those unfortunate souls who had to endure a history full of traumatic bad and sad. You may want to change your past as much as I do. You must know to change or alter your past in any way, will fundamentally change who you are now. One thing is for certain. You will not be the strong and determined person you are now. Those who are survivors of intense bad and sad events, are fundamentally different souls then those who had a life with much fluff. All of those bad and sad memories of your past is very similar to the memories of warriors who return home.
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It doesn't matter if you were born into an awful family or like me adopted into one. I've resolved myself into thinking this. Better for me to have been adopted by them, then for someone else. If this gives you any comfort, then use it. Because, you survived as I have. Your abuse and torture may have been much worse than mine. You survived it all. many of those who are like us do not survive. So, be thankful with your heart of compassion.
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Monday, March 11, 2013

Personal Comments: (UNedited): Various Dates:

Jun 12, 2010
I really hate when people say to those who are suffering from past trauma. To stop living in the past. When the result of everyday life is directly related to your past. You may not be able to do anything about your past but you can do something about your today and your tomorrow. By doing things that are positive and constructive in your life. Can you then begin the healing process. The healing process will truly begin when you begin to live clean. When you begin to live your life in accordance to old religious values. Just don't give up.
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Jun 15, 2010
I'm a social misfit. I guess it is because I spent most of my childhood heavily medicated. Did not go to school much. I wasn't taught anything. Beside why should they. I had a tested IQ of 70. Then there was the closet. The belt. Other weapons of discipline. Being knocked out by various means. Mom proclaiming that we should not have adopted you. As a child of around 10. I have slept in a tree, under a railroad bridge. Inside of the big pier 60 on Clearwater beach, FL.
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Jun 28, 2010
with no one she quietly enters. Love so pure within her softly beating heart. Dark sparks of invisible misfire emanates from her very real mind. She dutifully sits at a table and silently waits for her love to bring her a popeyes fried chicken meal. She never takes her eyes off of him. The crowd dissipates. Confusion and loss sets in as she pushes up her rectangle rimmed glasses. She hand combs her auburn hand cut hair. Without a sound she walks up to the popeyes counter and asks where the man went who was just standing here a minute ago. The popeyes woman reinforcing her realty of delusion. Says he left. She quickly leaves alone and into her pretty blue car rushes off. C.J.MacKechnie
This really happened. Yesterday. Sawyer, MI. I-94, exit 12. T/A Truck stop. 
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Jul 4, 2010
I've discovered in life. That there are usually 3 choices to make on most problems or decisions to be made. Even in movies this is often true until the evile villain gives you only two choices and the hero saves the day or planet with the third option. I'm not big on horror movies. Probably because my chilhood was a continuous horror show. The current vampire/ werewolf/human movie. Is very similar with three choices in life that a young girl must make. I'm gonna call them the three important decisions in life that we all can make or have made and can still make. I think i'm running out of cell phone space so I will continue this in the comments. Forget about all of that girlie love and passion stuff in that sissy story lines. My observation is also lacking any testosterone manly manliness. So. Just open up your mind to the possibilities of the 4th choice. Forget the hormones. I heard you girls make those noises in the dark theater. Go to comments. Just breathe and cool down first. 
1st. Choice. The human choice. Which is very boring and your stuck in a week body that is always getting sick. Then you die. Very negative.  
2nd. Choice. The werewolf option. The emotionally primal and physically powerful werewolf is always the fun choice. That we can all choose to become. when we choose to de-evolve from our current human state.
3rd. Choice. The ultra cool and mysteriously dark vampires is always the sensible and chic/civilized/modern choice. That we can all choose to become when we deny our humanity and our ties to what it means to be human.  
The 4th. Choice. We can all choose to evolve and become the possible next step. Energetic light beings or enlightenment. This may also seem as boring as the basic human decision. There shouldn't be any drama and trauma as always associated with the werewolf and vampire decisions. Besides, when the vampires, werewolves and anything dark comes into your presence. They will become like fading smoke and Ashe. The end. C.J.MacKechnie 
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Jul 9, 2010
When your a slave to anyone, any group or any political thought. You will never have to concern yourself with anything that is important or complicated as defined by your master owner. Being a slave, you will never have to worry your pretty little head about thinking or planning, success or failure, profit or loss, efficiencies or waste, ideas or improvements. As a slave you will never become anxious about housing, education, food, water and health care. All of these things will be provided. So as long as you are of use and worth to your master owner. If you are not a slave to the master owner. Then you will not be allowed access to anything. Until you choose to become a slave and receive your mark. C.J.MacKechnie 
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Eye of the Storm:
Jul 12, 2010
You have been warned by those who are in the know. You set your sails and turned your rudder into the oddly beautiful sunset. For a short time the gentle breeze was fun. Then the winds became thrilling. The lightning and the waves as exciting as you have ever known. A new dawn approaches with it daylight you will not see. Your rudder damaged. Your mast is snapped and your boat is taking on water. The thrill and excitement you felt some time ago is now turned into a desperate weariness to helplessly stay alive. You call for help but all you get is unwanted verbal static. Suddenly like a blessing from GOD your underneath a beautiful sun and clear sky. Except all around you is dark foreboding clouds. You scream and cry for help. No response on your radio. All is hopeless in your cries for help. The ocean is unforgiving and it seems you will become one of the nameless many who have gone to the bottom. Not yet, for you. Your still alive this day. You can still be alive tomorrow if you you just continue to struggle. 
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Standing Strength:
Jul 13, 2010
There is always those that we encounter in our daily lives whom we admire for their strength and courage. Especially when they have been tested and purified by fire. We see them as heroes set above us common people. While us common people seem to always be less than or lacking in some way in comparison to these admired heroes. The truth will always be seen when you dirt bag of a common low life human bug discover. That these heroes in life are no different than you are. The only real difference is not so real. The hero decided to step up and stood alone in the face of the monster and conquered it. That single decision based purely in emotion is the only real difference between you and the hero. When the hero completes his heroic deed. He/she is still the same dirt bag low life human bug. With the same problems as you. Maybe even more problems. Decide to stand and be a hero that only can be defined by you. Face and confront the monster before you and inspire people that they to can do the same as you and better

Jul 13, 2010
I remember a story about a WW2 medal of honor winner. He was the loser among losers. Then one day something happened. He saved his brothers lives by rushing a German fortified pill box. A time passed and a general arrived with the media and no one could find him. He was peeling potatoes. He didn't even have a proper uniform. Your regular Forest Gump or Gomer Pyle i suppose. The point of my unedited write. Is to cause each of you to believe in yourselves. That you to can be that hero and at least save your own selves from the whatever monster that afflicts and torments you. You the unknown and forgotten are equal to or better than any known and famous hero. All you have to do is decide not to give up and quit ever. Period... An emotional decisions. That is the only difference between you and a claimed hero. A fireman will always find those he cannot save. A cop will always recover the body of an unsaved victim. Their failure they will always remember.

Jul 13, 2010
the average man who witnessed evil and did all he could. He had his list and cried that he could have saved more after the fact. Schindler. He stood alone in the face of the monster. He is no different then you are.

Jul 13, 2010
The simple and humble volunteer. Who does and does and does. Just a little bit everyday. The blood donors who have gallons of giving. The auto mechanic who fixed a car for a desperate woman. Etc. We all can be a hero to someone. 
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Expectations:
Jul 18, 2010
We as children often become exactly what our parents and society expect us to become. I figure that is why so many of my foster brothers and sisters end up in jail, homeless, mentally ill or a combination of all three. What happens when you realize that you are better, stronger, smarter? Than what your parents and all of society expected of you. What do you do now? Do you remain a turkey after tasting daily that your truly an eagle? But, always returning to the comfortable familiar life of being a turkey. Being a turkey is like being just average. You don't have to do anything very hard. Maybe society has expected you to be a farm animal. Everything is provided for the farm animal. Food, water, medical care, housing and the education needed to remain a farm animal. Just remember turkeys and farm animals always become food product for the farmer who is in complete control of your life. C.J.MacKechnie

Jul 18, 2010
the farm animal will always become upset when they learn something that they were not given permission to learn. The farm animal will always become upset when they are forced to think for themselves and in a way that is not common to the rest of the herd way of thinking.

Jul 18, 2010
you can substitute the word animal with slave. The mind sets and thinking process are similar. The end result somewhat the same. When the farm animal or slave is no longer of use. the farmer kils them.

Jul 18, 2010
What will you do or me for that matter? Will yo go back to sleep or remain awake? If you remain awake? Will you remain a farm animal slave? A free man is always responsible for the contents inside of their own brains. A free man always decides for themselves how and what they will think. Then take decisive action with their own conclusions.

Jul 18, 2010
We all must decide for ourselves. If we each decide to freely soar as eagles. The life and ways of the farm animal will become alien to you and me. If we each decide to stay and remain as farm animals. Then the wild savage beasts like eagle and big cats will be something to be feared always. Farm animals are taught to fear the beasts of the wild brutal and barbaric lands. Their is safety and security when your within the cage. Safely and securely Locked from the outside by the farmer. How will one within the cage pray? As prey or as free beings?
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 Aug 2, 2010
Torment, insanity, misery, suffering, sadness, loneliness, confusion, abandonment, torture, disease and sickness. You die a thousand times everyday and yet you continue to believe that GOD ALMIGHTY has forsaken you. Deep within the valley of death all you know is the cold steel blade that pierces deep into your soul and burns you from the inside out. Your wails and cries hauntingly echoes from the canyon walls causing you to become more paranoid and more fearfull. You look into the shimmering shadows of the canyon walls only to discover. There not walls of rock. They are walls made up of a billion billion souls. All singing their same insane song of miserys lament. Your life, your energy, your hope, your love, your compassion, your kindness, your light, your heart is all being drained out of you. Soon very soon even your very identity will be gone from you as you become a part of the valley of death. The end is at hand and yet it is still your choice. Which song will you sing? C.J.MacKechnie

Aug 2, 2010
yes. There is a positive message in this one. Really? U have 2 thunk it thru. This is written for those of you who seem to continually suffer. GOD IS always with you. Remember it is not you who is lost to GOD. It is you who lost GOD. All you have to do is reach out for GOD and he will do the rest. 
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