Showing posts with label Beginning. Show all posts
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Thursday, December 8, 2016

Time Memories: (Unedited): 01 Dec 2016:

Jehovah is the alpha and the omega, the beginning, ending and everlasting. 
We as human beings ceased to exist less than a second ago and may exist in less than a second from now. All of our past only remains in the memories of those who were present. While all of our hopes and aspirations have yet to begin in every next moment in time to come. 
C.J.MacKechnie
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This may be very obvious to most everyone.
We all exist in this current moment in time and it has already gone. Just like the old movie strips is how we lived our life. Which is only when the light of life shines through each of us. Just as what has passed has become dark and the future is yet dark and uncertain still. This is how we experience life. All of our natural senses only work when the light shines through the film of our life for that brief moment. Then all of what has already been lived. Only resides in our memories. Then what is about to be cast into the light is one of three things, prophetic, probable, possible. Some may even add the forth word which is planned. No matter how much you plan. The film sequence of your life can be altered without any approval from you. Accidents can and do happen. Even those accidents only last for a singular moment in time. Then you are forced to move on. Unless you decide to remain within the confines of your memories. In which I have in order to understand the why's of my youth.
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Remaining in the memories of your own bad and sad life. Can and will only perpetuate your overall sadness and suffering. Unless you have the strong will to analyze what has happened to you from a position of logic and reason. Even still from the position of logic and reason. You can realize the fact that once I was unloved, un-cared for and unwanted. That once I was deemed unworthy of education. That I was once thought of as dumb, stupid and retarded. Even from that self decided space in your brain of logic and reason. How can you still not be sad, unhappy as well as all of those other negative words??
Really, think about that for a moment. If you were to disassociate yourself from your emotions. Then you suddenly become less than human. Is that really the goal. To become less than or to evolve more than what you were a single moment ago. Because, as of right now. The only light which shines upon the old film of your life is that which is only from your memory. The truth of what has happened to you is now gone. Even as the years roll by all of those who have done bad and sad things to you. Most likely do not even think of you or the pain they have brought to you. In which you have decided to continue to live through.
I can attest to you. That I have gone through all of the logic. I have spent much time in prayer and tears. I have come to realize two things. It is not the fault of God and bad people do bad things.
Then you have to not expect any kind of apology from bad people. Because, bad people don't really care about anything outside of their own bodies. So don't hold your breath and don't put your life on hold for them either. Because, a good loving relationship with your parents and family. May never ever happen. Just do your best to get yourself into that positive mental and good spiritual place to forgive them in silence and march forward. Begin to build your new family. In which you can become the wise old matriarch or patriarch. That would be the ideal goal? right? To have a family in which they all desire to have a daily personal relationship with one another. A good family with honor, integrity, honesty and morals as some of the foundational stones to your new family.
Even if you do come from a family of ugliness, abuse and torture. From those fires of great torments. Can you become a saved remnant of them which shall all pass away into nothingness. Not even to be worthy of anyone's memories or history. Purpose and meaning is a sign of a bright future. Where as those without purpose or meaning in life will only find nothingness. To merely exist or survive in life is not thriving in life.
So no matter how bad and sad your life has been. Find your hope and hold onto that courage you had which made you to survive. Even if it was only you who barely survived. Then decide this day. To do more than survive as the victim. Stop being the victim. The victim that you were is now in the past. There is nothing really to understand why? You were only just the body present and if it was not you. Then it would have been someone else, Even a pet. So all of that which you had suffered. It was never ever about you. It was all about them or him or her.
Just know that you were stronger than all of those who did mistreat and abuse you. You were and are victorious. Even if you do not feel like it. Just ask anyone who has ever been in a hard fight and was deemed victorious. How did they feel? They feel like they have been in a fight. In fights sometimes no one really feels like they won. Sometimes, even when the fight is over. New ones begin. Ask or watch any wounded soldier/warrior. Find your new found strength in them. Even those wounded warriors are just like you. Even if you had not fought a defined enemy in some far away land. Still you had to fight daily to survive as they had to. Sometimes, Yours and my childhoods have been completely taken away. That which was is the end of it all. Especially, after you get to watch your loved ones die and then suddenly become the one who must be responsible for everything for their burial or cremation. It doesn't seem to matter if there is or isn't an ongoing relationship. They all may think of you as the bad person. Maybe, I was at one time. Now I'm just the holder of memories as everyone who has ever abused or tortured me has died. I continue on as well as my own children. 
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To avert all of the coming bad and sad prophecies. We each must decide to do the following everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.
To Love one another.

To live in peace with everyone.

To exist in harmony with all.

To Cherish all life.

To be obedient to the Laws of God.

To become righteous and holy by the accepting eyes of God only.
All without any pride, ego, arrogance, supremacy and entitlements.
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Sunday, March 1, 2015

Spirit Lifting Souls: (Unedited): 28 Feb 2015:

The disharmony of many tortured souls coming together. Can create their own spirit lifting joyful song of celebration. 
C.J.MacKechnie
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There will always be a time when the abuses and tortures end forever. When that time comes celebrate your freedom. Celebrate this new beginning of your life. Celebrate with others who have had similar experiences as you had.
Do not relive those awful things but understand that you were the stronger one. That you endured it all. That is was never about you. You were just the body present and if it weren't you it would have been someone else.
So celebrate your victory. Make new life goals and achieve them. Then make more goals and achieve those. Then repeat.
Then write that book and publish it. Even if your only readers is to be your own family and friends. Tell that story of yours. It is that important. Just as you have always been that important. Even in those very dark, ugly and lonely times of your life. Document everything.
Celebrate life. Forgive them. Move on into joy.
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Monday, December 29, 2014

Complete Absolute: Old Beginning: (Unedited): 29 Dec 2014:

A person must have complete closure before they have a new absolute openness.
C.J.MacKechnie
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The end of the old must precede the beginning of the new.
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This is for anyone and everyone. Experiencing closure in your life by your own outward choice. Is very healthy for you to do. Closure of those things in your life must precede those things you desire to begin a new for you. This is how fair opportunities occur in life. It doesn't matter if it is personal or professional. If you do not have clean and open closure in those old things in life. Those new things will not have a good healthy beginning. So while you are in the middle of family problems, legal problems, Business problems. It is never a good time to begin those new things. Those old things even if they are very good things should be seen to each their completions. This isn't all about bad things. It is also about good things.
For those of you who seem to be helpless to close those old things in your life. God will interfere and cause those old things, those old wounds to finally close and heal. When those things happen to you which is beyond your control or even approval. Those old things shall end. When those things do end. It doesn't necessarily mean that those on going things will end as well.
For God will do what God will. It is not for anyone to declare God's will in the moment.
These happenings are your signs from God. It means that those things which will conclude. Must happen before those new things that God wants you to do to begin. If you are already involved within a mission from God. Those things which you see closure in. Does not mean that your missions will end. It may mean that your mission will begin to ramp up to newer awareness in people. God has freed you from bondage. Technically again or for guys like me repeatedly.
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If you desire a new beginning of anything. Find closure in all of those old things first. Even if those old family members abused and tortured you in many horrible ways. Forgive and move forward without looking back into the hell you survived and departed from.
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 These quotes are not to be used by you to abandon your family, children or the old wife. For you to do so causes harm to those young innocent ones.
The word interfere used is the wrong word. 
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This was inspired by Jonathan Kleck. This is unknown to JK and he is most likely unaware of this.
http://www.be4thefire.com/
http://www.uvlog.com/channel/view/be4the-fire-5504
https://www.youtube.com/user/TheJonathankleck
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Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Supernatural Normalcy: (Unedited): 25 June 2014:

Those who continually dwell within the supernatural on a daily basis, only know the normalcy of their intimate interactions. 
C.J.MacKechnie
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The word intimate is not and has nothing to do with any kind of physical intimacy.
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This quote was inspired from listening to Jonathan Kleck show.
http://www.blogtalkradio.com/thisisit4321
25 June 2014
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It is physically and mentally overwhelming for any human being to experience anything supernatural. Including all things spiritual as defined by the current understanding of a common spiritualist. To remain awake or to become awakened can be difficult especially when your natural spiritual state is that of spiritual slumber.
Becoming awakened can be exhilarating or frightening. The how your spirit becomes awakened is very important.
So it is important to show much compassion for those who are asleep or who become awakened and fall back asleep. To force a spirit to remain awake may not be very healthy or wise. Not even Jesus in the garden forced his friends, brothers, apostles to remain awake. When the spirit falls back to sleep. It is probably an indication from the spirit to the mind and body. That the physical being is not yet ready for any more of the super natural. The physical being must go through an adaptation to anything which is super natural. It can take time for the person to become accustomed to the one thing which is super natural.
Many people or the majority of people cannot handle the super natural on a daily basis. But, like a new baby who can only eat from the breast. Takes in just enough to ease the pain of an empty stomach and when the new baby eats to much becomes sleepy. So, to is the beginning level of the super natural. The eyes becoming accustomed to unexplainable daily coincidences, which seemed to not be seen before and yet now are daily experiences. Once the awakened person becomes accustomed to these baby coincidences and chooses to fight off the sleep. The next advancement of baby steps shall begin and this will often times be directed by the spirit within and geared directly to the individual experience. All for the individuals development and evolution.
Be warned. Those who are righteous and those who care not for things which are righteous. Will experience two different approaches to the super natural. One path may be slow in growth, which may focus on love, peace, harmony, life, wisdom, knowledge and understanding. While the other path may be quick in the selfish desires for acquiring powers, rites, rituals and authorities.
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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rite
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Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Daily Reward: (Unedited): 01 Oct 2013:

Starting your day right is the beginning of ending your day well. Begin your day with prayer and meditation. Plan your day with good intentions. Work your day with pleasant attitudes. Then restful sleep shall be your reward. C.J.MacKechnie
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Saturday, September 7, 2013

Lifestyle Curses: (Unedited): 07 July 2013:


In all things that you do and do not do. Those things may become your curses from others for a period of time. 
Ending those curses may require a genuine apology as well as your lifestyle change. 
C.J.MacKechnie
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Beginning to end the curses within your life is being proactive in the preventative measures taken by you.
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How to prevent the beginning of curses.
This is easy to answer. Be honest. Be a person of Honor and Integrity. Work hard and smart. Show your heart with an outward expression of empathy, mercy and compassion. A high standard of morality and ethics will benefit you in the long term of your life.
Do not accept anything which may have a questionable source. Meaning lost or stolen. Losers weepers does not mean finders keepers.  Do not make deals which hide any possible evil outcome. 

For instance. Some people will only help those who are stranded for an expected monetary reward.
Some people will capture a lost pet and wait for the flyers on  a light pole offering a reward. Then come in as heroes. 

This is about changing attitudes within a culture. This is about curing your own diseased heart filled with the poison called apathy. 

The curse of addictions such as drugs, cigarettes and alcohol are all chemicals which enslave a population to the will of the government or authority in charge. The illegal drugs will curse you with prison, disease and maybe death. The cigarettes will cause you to no longer care to the degree that you should care. The alcohol will cause you to make immoral decisions and exercise risky behaviors. Tie them all together and you become less than human. A very real curse which affects your own humanity.

 

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How to end the curses in your life.
Some curses may only end in your death. These curses of diseases are supposed to be a reminder to everyone on how not to act unwisely. The prolonged use of mind altering drugs may cause you to contract diseases such as HIV/AIDS. The lifestyle of illegal drug use may cause you to contract other life style related diseases. Which will only end in your death. 
You may already live in a prison cell in which you will only become free of when your body ceases. This curse may not end for your body. But for your heart, mind and spirit. You can become free of the imprisoned curse. 
The curse of being an Ex-convict may always shadow you and your children. 
Over time, you may win a victory over some curses and this will only come with a genuine change with your heart, mind and spirit. You must no longer live with a criminal or gang member mindset. You must free yourself from cultural lies and deceptions. Such as racism and the acceptance of immoralities. 
You must freely reject which is evil as defined by the old ways and live by your own free choice the good ways to a good life. Only this way will a good life will be your just reward. Then your children who witness your actions in life. Will also know the profound unshakable truth in which you live by. A choice of truth. If your professional life and your personal life matches what your own children see in you. Then they should decide to live a good life as you have done. Good parents shall they become and a good parent shall be seen in you by the evidence of your own children's lives they lead. 

If you have curses in your life right now. Seek out all of those things which have a questionable past and rid yourself of them all. Even if it means you have nothing after you rid yourself of all of the illegal stuff.  
Rid yourself of all bad friends. Those who drink and drug. Those who steal, rob and conduct all other criminal activities. Those who deal wrongly and unfairly. Yes, this includes all business affiliations of any kind. You may end up alone for a time. This empty space in your being will awaken your heart and your own heart will begin to burn away all of the poisonous apathy that is within. You will feel the urge to go back to your old bad buddies. keep them in your dirty and dusty past. Just like watching your rear view mirror as you speed away. Staying away and keeping away from your old evil deeds may be in itself a trial and tribulation. This will be necessary for you to endure as your own sincerity is what is being tested. Are you lying to yourself or do you really want to have a good life becoming a good human being? There will be other tests for you to pass and they will not stop until your own personal end of days. 
The fixing of a flat tire with only a gratitude as a reward. The new ramp for a disabled person in which you get to supply the wood and her choice of paint and out of your pocket cash. With only gratitude as your only reward. What ever your gift and skills are in that is where your expression of true compassion and mercy shall be. 
This is how you only begin to end the curses in which you have created for yourself.
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Wednesday, March 20, 2013

True Truth: (UNedited): 02 July 2010:

The truth will always be true. Even if you want to believe something else. When you believe in something else. Your new found believed truth will still be false. 
C.J.MacKechnie
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It matters not the origin or the beginning of any lie or deception. It still is a lie and a deception. Even if the lie or deception began many thousands of years ago. All things must be questioned and researched. Even if a thing has always been believed as a truth. 
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To avert all of the coming bad and sad prophecies. We each must decide to do the following everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.

To Love one another.

To live in peace with everyone.

To exist in harmony with all.

To Cherish all life.

To be obedient to the Laws of God.

To become righteous and holy by the accepting eyes of God only.
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Friday, November 30, 2012

Cliff Consolidation: (Unedited): 30 Nov 2012:

The cliff resolution will be the beginning of political consolidation. 
 C.J.MacKechnie
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The Republican party will become merged with or become a controlled arm of those who control the democratic party. The end of the two party system will end.  The super minorities now have ungodly authority over the political powers of the USA. Their interest is not to have or to maintain a whole USA. The world's elites will benefit greatly as has been for over 20 years with the movement of the manufacturing capability of the USA abroad.
The unspoken availability of the foreign nationals who can now legally vote in our national elections. Will bring forth socialist and communistic views which will become an American mainstay until the official demise of the USA. Coupled with foreign ownership in commercial and residential  real estate. The foreign national power base will become solidified. The political leaders at all levels must obey the wishes of the foreign nationals. They are the ones who has the wealth and not the Christian American. As with this past 2008 American elections. A politician will not be able to win with the Christian vote or support. The Republican candidates no longer have to pretend they are one of the Christian Conservative. After all, that is all they have been doing is pretending to be Christian. Watch what happens in the 2014 elections. The focus of the republican party will become more socialist/communist and more directed to the foreign nationals. 
Like in wrestling entertainment, The victor is known before hand. The wrestling moves or dance routines are practiced before the live event. Your votes no longer matter. The take over nearly complete. All without a single shot fired in anger of warfare.

I said your individual vote no longer matters. In 2014,  Devout Life long Christian leaders must run for every political office at every level. Christians must show up in mass and vote Christian. Christian churches must separate themselves from religious tax temptations. To regain their freedom of speech rights. Then maybe in 2016 and again in 2018. The USA can be restored and renewed.
If the Christian resurgence begins. Then maybe the end of the USA can be delayed or expedited. Delayed as in the form of Divine protection from GOD or expedited in the form of violent liquidation of all USA assets. Either way every Christian needs to first become holy and righteous. Every Christian must eliminate all debts and usage of any credit options. Every Christian must prepare themselves for any eventuality. Every Christian must not participate in any American Military Branch. No matter if voluntary service becomes mandatory. Until such a time that the USA is restored. If it can be restored.
Christians need to also begin martial arts training on their own and organized through the churches.
Christians need to develop their own skills in marksmanship and the use of various weapons.
Christians need to develop layered security measures for their churches.
Christians need to form militarized units. This must involve aspects of emergency services. Similar to the red cross and the Salvation army.
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http://www.redcross.org/
http://www.salvationarmyusa.org/usn/www_usn_2.nsf
http://www.goodwill.org/
http://www.fema.gov/
http://www.gocivilairpatrol.com/
http://www.scouting.org/
http://www.girlscouts.org/
http://www.arrl.org/
http://awana.org/on/demandware.store/Sites-Awana-Site/default/Default-Start
http://csbministries.org/
http://www.pathfinder-ed.org/community/index.php
http://www.wmu.com/index.php?q=children/royal-ambassadors/welcome-ras
http://royalrangers.com/
http://www.calvinistcadets.org/
http://www.ahgonline.org/
http://www.kravmaga.com/
http://www.aikido.com/
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brazilian_Jiu-Jitsu

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:Christian Warning:
:All Religion Warning:
If you cannot separate yourself from the lies and deceptions of the separation and division of the races. Then you, your family and your entire church will/may not be one of the elect, protected, saved or raptured. You must begin to know and believe that we are a single race of beings called humans. We are all brother and sister to one another.  

The DNA fingerprinting was established in 1984. Read it well. Believe the truth and reject the lies you have only known as truth. 

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/DNA_profiling
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Race_%28human_classification%29
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Race
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Human_Genome_Project
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The history of humanity told by many different traditions. 
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Noah
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Adam_and_Eve
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From about 8 minutes and 50 seconds to the introduction of the European leader. Listen good. This was in 26 June 2000. 
http://youtu.be/Y_8XRkb-wbY
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Research for yourself the Human skin. learn how it is the largest organ of the human body. Learn about all of the primary functions of the human skin. Then learn about the minor function of the coloring of the skin. Learn how if you lose a primary function of the skin. You can die. Where as if you lose your skin coloring. You will just be uncomfortable, but still living with possible social ridicule. Now, after you have learned all about your human skin. Ask yourself this. Why do we not compare other organs of the body with other people such as the liver, kidneys, gall bladder and etc. How come there isn't racial stereo types for those who can drink much alcohol and those who cannot drink? Why? Race or the coloring of the skin is illogical and without actual fact.
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Saturday, September 15, 2012

Holy Fire: (Unedited): 15 May 2010:

Truthfully embracing Holiness and righteousness will violently burn away all of the impurities and contamination's of your entire being.
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 Fleeing from sin and dirty minded thinking is always a beginning to your new beginning. Putting away all of those nasty addictions which introduce impurities and contamination's into your whole being is a first step in your healing process.
 Fleeing must precede healing. Healing precedes health. Can you continue this thought process all the way thru?
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Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Continued Evidence: (Unedited): 15 May 2010:

After every darkness there will be light. The life cycle of all of creation is evidence of the perpetual continuance of all. 
C.J.MacKechnie
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The darkness of death can be very disheartening. You the survivor may even feel much despair and have thoughts that somehow you could have or should have done more. Please know. That how everything is in your here and now is as it must be. You are who you are because of all of the things which happened in your life's history. Take nothing away and remain who you are now. Become who you should be through your decisions and actions today.
From the pains of death is similar to the pains of birth. After of which is continuation. There is always continuation even in after death. Which is the beginning of the after life. There is always continuation. Can you find solace in this? Probably not right now. Maybe eventually?
I can only tell you and relay to you what I know to be true. From the darkness of death there is always a transition into the light of renewed life. The darkness should not be feared. Especially when you are already clothed in light.
Think about this.
Even though your loved one has gone from this linear time line. You can still be the one to welcome them into the heavens. How? This is the science of time. In the Heavens. All that is-is beginning, is on going and has already ended. So, when you pass from this life. You can then go to any time of this worlds life. So, this means that you can be there when your loved ones passes from this life or when they were born into it. Why and how? Because you are already there. Just as you were already there before you were born and will be there again after your bodies death.
Just know they are OK. You are OK and its always going to be OK.
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Saturday, June 9, 2012

Negative Fail (unedited). 16 March 2012

To question: How much is to much are your doubts. Those doubts of negative logic always leads to doubts into negative emotions. Which then leads to a fail in the heat of any battle. C.J.MacKechnie
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Learning how to control your every thought and emotion is very possible. Even though some psychologists and psychiatrists claim otherwise. In which some have to claim the falsehood of being able to to learn the skills to control your own thoughts and emotions. These are evil people and only want you to remain helpless to their pharmacology prescriptions forever. How else can these kinds of evil people make a growing and continuing income if they enable and empower you to heal your own self. Which is possible for you. Through positive belief systems. 
Meditation is the very beginning to learning how to control your thoughts and emotions. Meditation only works when you can control your thoughts and emotions. As the length of time evolves in your meditations duration so to the over all effect upon your life in a positive way. Just don't stop. Just don't give up. Fight the negativity with absolute rejection of any negative word usage. Stop thinking any negative word or thought, right now. Every success you have will also end the corresponding negative emotion. Unless of course your an Empath. Then you may be receiving emotions from other people. Then that presents other problems. 
I'm a believer in GOD. So, to me prayer is you talking to GOD and meditation is you listening to GOD. This is followed by contemplating what GOD has revealed to you. 
So, you say you have never prayed or meditated before. I declare upon you this. Yes, You have both prayed and meditated before. 
Have you expressed communication in any outgoing format?
 yes, you have. This is an over simplified definition of prayer. You speaking to others in your way is prayer. 
Have you ever taken in any kind of communication into any of your senses?
 Yes, you have.  You listening and reading is an over simplified definition of meditation.
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If you have a provable brain defect or brain damage. Then absolutely follow your doctors orders everyday with out any argument, complaint or excuse. This does not include the diagnosis of ADHD or Bipolar disorders in which there is no conclusive medical test today,which proves the existence of either. If you have been on the medications which controls behaviors associated with false observations. You are now severely addicted to these powerful mind altering medications. You may even now have chemical brain damage as any other person who has taken illegal drugs for some time. You must ask for treatment as any other addicted person would. Then learn the thinking skills necessary to live a normal life as defined by your own being. This process can take decades. Yes, It is possible.  
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