Time Memories: (Unedited): 01 Dec 2016:

Jehovah is the alpha and the omega, the beginning, ending and everlasting. 

We as human beings ceased to exist less than a second ago and may exist in less than a second from now. All of our past only remains in the memories of those who were present. While all of our hopes and aspirations have yet to begin in every next moment in time to come. 

C.J.MacKechnie

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This may be very obvious to most everyone.
We all exist in this current moment in time and it has already gone. Just like the old movie strips is how we live our life. Which is only when the light of life shines through each of us. Just as what has passed has become dark and the future is yet dark and uncertain still. This is how we experience life. All of our natural senses only work when the light shines through the film of our life for that brief moment. Then all of what has already been lived. Only resides in our memories. Then what is about to be cast into the light is one of three things, Prophetic, probable, possible. Some may even add the forth word which is planned. No matter how much you plan. The film sequence of your life can be altered without any approval from you. Accidents can and do happen. Even those accidents only last for a singular moment in time. Then you are forced to move on. Unless you decide to remain within the confines of your memories. In which I have in order to understand the why's of my youth.
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Remaining in the memories of your own bad and sad. Can and will only perpetuate your overall sadness. Unless you have the strong will to analyze what has happened to you from a position of logic and reason. Even still from the position of logic and reason. You can realize the fact that once I was unloved, un-cared for and unwanted. That once I was deemed unworthy of education. That I was once thought of as dumb, stupid and retarded. Even from that self decided space in your brain of logic and reason. How can you still not be sad, unhappy as well as all of those other negative words??
Really, think about that for a moment. If you were to disassociate yourself from your emotions. Then you suddenly become less than human. Is that really the goal. To become less than or to evolve than what you were a single moment ago. Because, as of right now. The only light which shines upon the old film of your life is that which is only from your memory. The truth of what has happened to you is now gone. Even as the years go by all of those who have done bad and sad things to you. Most likely do not even think of you or the pain they have brought to you. In which you have decided to continue to live through.
I can attest to you. That I have gone through all of the logic. I have spent much time in prayer and tears. I have come to realize two things. It is not the fault of God and bad people do bad things.
Then you have to not expect any kind of apology from bad people. Because, bad people don't really care about anything outside of their own bodies. So don't hold your breath and don't put your life on hold for them either. Because, a good loving relationship with your parents and family. May never ever happen. Just do your best to get yourself into that mental and spiritual place to forgive them in silence and march forward. Begin to build your new family. In which you can become the wise old matriarch or patriarch. That would be the ideal goal? right? To have a family in which they all desire to have a daily personal relationship with one another. A good family with honor, integrity, honesty and morals as some of the foundation stones to your new family.
Even if you do come from a family of ugliness, abuse and torture. From those fires of great torments. Can you become a saved remnant of them which shall all pass away into nothingness. Not even to be worthy of anyone's memories or history. Purpose and meaning is a sign of a bright future. Where as those without purpose or meaning in life will only find nothingness. To merely exist or survive in life is not thriving in life.
So no matter how bad and sad your life has been. Find your hope and hold onto that courage you had which made you to survive. Even if it was only barely survived. Then decide this day. To do more than survive as the victim. Stop being the victim. The victim that you were is now in the past. There is nothing really to understand why? You were only just the body present and if it was not you. Then it would have been someone else, Even a pet. So all of that which you had suffered. It was never ever about you. It was all about them or him or her.
Just know that you were stronger than all of those who did mistreat and abuse you. You were and are victorious. Even if you do not feel like it. Just ask anyone who has ever been in a hard fight and was deemed victorious. How they feel? They feel like they have been in a fight. Sometimes, even when the fight is over. New ones begin. Ask or watch any wounded soldier/warrior. Find your new found strength in them. Even those wounded warriors are just like you. Even if you had not fought a defined enemy in some far away land. Still you had to fight daily to survive as they had to.

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Thankful Hope: Memories Hope: Dark Absence: (Unedited): 20 Nov 2015:

All of the hope you will ever need in life, Is deep within the core of your being.

The hope you do have is more than sufficient for any dream you may have.

A good way to see, to discover the hope that is within you. Is to be thankful for what you do have. 

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For many people and many young people. They seem to know that they have no hope, never had any hope and never will have hope. If there is to be any hope then it will come from soon to be seen leader. Then when that leader is gone. Hopelessness returns. This is a false belief system. No one can take away your hope or even give you hope. All of the hope you have ever experienced no matter how small. Was all based in your own decision to have hope for that little moment in time.
All of the hope you will ever have is solely conditional upon your own mental decision and emotional desire to have hope. Your hope doesn't have to be focused but it is ok if it is for a time. upon one teacher, one leader, one famous person or even on one family member. It is OK to be excited and hopeful with other people as the hope being around other people seems to become magnified.
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2015 Thanksgiving approaches and as it does occur every year here in the USA. Thanksgiving does not have to be an only American holiday. Thanksgiving should be a holiday for the whole world and celebrated everyday. Being Thankful is a very good reminder of those things which began with hope.

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Memories Hope: (Unedited): 23 Nov 2015: 

The hopes of old become manifest in our memories of gratitude.

C.J.MacKechnie

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 Search your memories for anything good. For some people this can be very tough. Like for me and my childhood. But, there can be some good ones. No matter how fleeting they may be. Playing baseball was good for me. Sleeping in the cradle of my Camphor tree in Clearwater, Fl. The hope of playing a game and of the hope of sleeping peacefully in a tree. Looking forward to a thing is basic hope. No matter how difficult life can be in your life right now. You can allow yourself to have hope. You can plan for yourself to create new and good memories. These are all in your hope. Then when you do create a good memory amongst so many bad memories. They shall always stand out in your own mind as good. The good thoughts/memories which shall begin to overpower the bad thoughts/memories in time.
I am thankful to my "former best friends family" (See Note) for allowing me to sleep over often and feeding me often. i am thankful for my Black Webco Motocross bike which game me freedom to escape.
I am thankful for the short time I played baseball. I am thankful for the few times I slept in the Camphor tree as a child. I am thankful for the few times I slept under the big pier 60 on Clearwater Beach. I am thankful for sleeping inside of Hwy 19 train track bridge. I am thankful for the pizza I ate out of the trash can for Shakey's pizza (Hwy60). I am thankful for the thrown out burgers from burger king in the green pickle bucket. I am thankful for the popcorn at the Clearwater 4 movie theaters.
Even in these awful memories which caused me to go to other places. I was thankful.
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Something happened when I was alone in the dark with myself and being completely distraught and crying into the Gulf of Mexico. All I want is a family. To be not alone any more. To be wanted. To be loved. Is that to much for any one person to have. No matter how worthless they are. No matter how dumb, stupid and retarded they are. No matter how less than they are to everyone else.  These were not words just deep emotions of personal truths of knowing. Even if they were my own lies and deceptions. Pushed into me by the world and of my adoptive family.
From there at this point in be young adult life. That from this point on this darkened lonely beach in Clearwater. I found hope. Even though I had no idea what hope was or was even able to recognize hope as something good. Hope was there. In that time of my life when I was darker than a secluded beach with no moon or stars. The glimmer of hopes light was ever present.
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Note: "Former Best friend" A person such as myself became so bad. That he and his family had to end the relationship with me. It was all my fault. I had become that bad. I had become dangerous. In any of my writings where I include some personal history. Do not assume that it was someones else fault. I was and had become that bad. When there is an absence of goodness in your life. I guess you become a part of that darkness. I had done that.
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Dark Absence: 23 Nov 2015:

Where there is an absence of goodness. You can become a part of that darkness.

C.J.MacKechnie

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The longer a person remains in the darkness the more they lose themselves to the darkness. Until, the life they had of their own is lost forever. Becoming filled with  worthless apathy of lonely meaningless absence. Becoming a darkened shell of nothing important within, with no control, no power, no hope. but, wait. Did you read above?
That is the one thing that I remember most in reflecting. How I started to become so bad that anyone who was good began to absolutely reject me. Shouldn't that be the opposite in life. When a child is in such a dark place that the light of goodness becomes like that life saving beacon of a light house?
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Crab Shack Memories: (Unedited): 12 April 2015:

From the calm peace which can be experienced at the Port Richey Crab Shack on Sunday. You can feel the whispers of good weekend memories and of last weeks complaints. As well as watching those who are wishing to be on every out going boat.

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A little humor is it seems everyone wants to go out on a boat. Just not wanting to come back in and do all of the required work on boats. This is why good boaters come back in at around 3 P.M.ish. Because, the next few hours is in inspecting and cleaning.
Always remember the two best days of owning a boat is when you buy one and when you sell one.
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Dark Shroud: (Unedited): Unknown Date:

The righteous knows of the darkness which surrounds. 

From the hell below. 

To the sky gods up above. 

From the left side lies of all kinds.

From the right side deceptions of every sort. 

In the front is all manor of negativity, wishful thinking and doubts.

From the rear all manor of failed memories and what could have been's remembered.

The dark shroud surrounds the righteous always. Exactly the same as with any other human person except they know not and believe not.

C.J.MacKechnie

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The light of the righteous one illuminates the path they walk by faith upon.
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To avert all of the coming bad and sad prophecies. We each must decide to do the following everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.

To Love one another.

To live in peace with everyone.  

To exist in harmony with all.  

To Cherish all life.  

To be obedient to the Laws of God.  

To become righteous and holy by the accepting eyes of God only.  

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Free Memories: (Unedited): 25 Aug 2014:

The excitement of knowing the retail value of your families heirlooms is exactly what your willing to sell those memories for. Even if you just give them all away. 

C.J.MacKechnie

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We have been watching antiques roadshow.  It is interesting how to watch people get really excited about the values of their own families heirlooms and the notion that a limited financial wealth an come from such things. I guess for me I see this as incredibly really insulting. To sell the memories of your own family for temporary wealth. Those ancient things give real tangible/physical meaning to your own families history especially when teaching the importance of what the ancestors had done in their own lives, long, long ago. Even if some of those memories are bad, sad and ugly. They still should be remembered in order to teach those important lessons to the new generations of your family. 
The wonderful successes in your family which have garnered substantial worldly wealth. Are more valuable remaining in the families possession and the stories of enduring hardships in order to achieve them. Is crucial for the young generation to know that achievement is more than possible. So as long as you continue to endure without cessation. After all it was achieved by your family members before you. So, you can to. Except now you can learn from the stories of their successes and failures. In order for you to more easily to achieve your own dreams as you define them.
Without any tangible memories within a families history. The young ones have no guide lines no ancient wisdom to work their own lives. Wisdom taught is often more essential than only knowledge learned. Wisdom brings with it an understanding gleaned. Thus, you have a compete circle for successes potential. That potential is tied directly to the intentions of your resolve and the desires of your heart. 
What does it mean "Even if you just give them away"? It seems like a lot of episodes of Antiques Roadshow. There is always that person who bought this or that from Goodwill or some other non profit thrift store. Some family gave away their family secrets either by willful choice after their family member had passed on. Or they knew not the stories behind those objects of importance. Which makes me sad.
Why? I'm one of those people who was born to a family and then was adopted. Growing up belonging to neither and not sharing or creating any useful memories for long term positive growth in adulthood. Memories are very important to young ones. Even if that distant uncle was captain of some unknown Naval ship. Yea, I saw that US Navy Award box with the absent guns in the display. Apparently the guns were of more importance than the official US Navy awards to those surviving family members. Those memories of achievement will probably never be known or taught to the next generation of that family. Important memories and achievements lost forever to that family. That box sat in a Goodwill Stores office for months. They were trying to figure out how to honorably and respectfully handle it properly.
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Thankful Present: (Unedited): 28 Nov 2013:

Being thankful for what is present now. Is more important than the bad and sad memories of the past you survived. 

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 My childhood story may sound bad and sad. But, there are a large number of children who have survived more abuses and tortures than I have. Then there are those children who died at the hands of their evil parents and relatives.
If you are reading this now. You have survived your awful past and stand victorious. Be thankful. Yes, thankful for your past. Because, your enduring strength is proven. Even though you may feel like the damaged victim. You survived it all and hopefully you are now in a safe place.

I am today, very thankful for what I have endured. I am very thankful for my wife and children. I am thankful for the life I have and had. I have experienced much and evolved from all of those negative experiences. This is important. So is the life you have had and will have. I hope you can find the positive in your whole life. Even if it does seem like that golden needle in a sea of golden hay. Your search for the positives in your life is well worth it.All of the abuse and tortures you have had to endure. Was never about you. It was always them, those who did those terrible things to you. You were just the body present.

Everyday is a Thanksgiving. I hope everyone can live everyday of their lives in a joyful celebration.
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Spirit-ologies: (Unedited): 18 June 2013:

Humanity has it's technologies. Just as the spiritual beings may have their own spiritologies. C.J.MacKechnie

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 The ability to move spirits from one body to another. The ability to pro-create spirit beings. The ability to create physical containment structures which to hold a spirit being. Such as the human form.
Humanity may mimic the spiritual creations within the Spiritual dimension. So, some of the ideas, devices and structures in our physical world may exist in the spiritual world. Humanities creations and inventions may be an attempt to recreate the spiritual world from repressed or withheld spiritual memories. 
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Life Expected: (Unedited): 29 May 2013:

The majority of what comes in life can be expected and predicted. C.J.MacKechnie

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Doing good things today and tomorrow. Creating the good memories of the past. What can any person expect and predict in their lives? If they do only good.
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The 55 year old medical doctor who has saved many lives only did so by excelling and suffering through school.
The school teacher who inspired many every single year only did so because they were actively present and intentionally trying to inspire and motivate.
The life of a police officer or the firefighter.
The lowly construction worker, plumber or any other person of service. Your life in which you actively engage in has a direct affect upon the people you encounter daily. You each get to experience daily a job well done. Those seeds will become the sweet fruits to be enjoyed later.
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You spend your time working hard and working smart. Your life in 10, 20  or even 50 years can be easily expected and predicted. Until, You fall victim to crime or an immoral decision. Even then your life will still be predictably expected.  Every emotional choice will have it's own corresponding logical reaction. Even if the logical reaction is hate, anger and violence. Which leads to loss of freedom, Loneliness, death, loss of wealth and a broken family. Which again leads to extinction.
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If all you do is try and figure out how to secretly fracture and escape from the law. You will eventually be imprisoned or die.
If you become successful in crime and the law just cannot touch you. Your number 2 or 3 or 500 man may want it all one day. Why should he get a crumb when he can have the whole? It is just good business planning.
The honest drug dealer gets robbed and shot by the good customer who wants what you got. Plus, he gets a deep discount on the products he uses. Until he can't pay his secret distributor. Then dies. 

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Even if you have lived badly and have made only selfish decisions. You can today alter your expected and predicted life's logical outcome.  Just by simply doing good things, thinking good things and believing in good things. Yes, even if you are already in jail or prison forever. Those dice you have already rolled. Your fate is already tied up in the games you have already played. So, just stop playing. Sure, Your bad friends will be angry and they will speak poorly about you. This is why they are bad and you are bad. Stop being bad and walk away. Even if the cost of successfully walking away is of spirit. You still become free and your memory will be of one for inspiration. The bad man who walked away a good man in spirit.
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Loves Light: (Unedited): 03 June 2010:

The intensity of love is what fades the misery and sadness from your memories pain. C.J.MacKechnie 

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Remembering the love you have had. Remaining in the love you have now. All leads to the love which will continue on for you. So, no matter the misery or suffering you have known. Seek out genuine love which is beyond the physical. Becoming the outpouring of love which the world is ever thirsty for. Become the brother or daughter of the one called the Christ. Become the disciple of him who was nailed upon a cross. Become the son or daughter of GOD. With a humble heart which becomes filled with Christs love. You will be able to do all of the miracles that Jesus had done and more.
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Loves are lost by a variety of means. A lost love is by no indication that love has ended. A dear friend of mine has just recently passed over. He is not dead. Who he is remains on. Just like who he was before he was even born into that now deceased body. He is and he was, which is just as he is now. A free spirit. With his own unique identity and purpose.
My friend Glen had a beautiful death. He was surrounded by his family and he did not pass over alone. Glen's Sickness was short and quick. Which was a blessing in itself.
Glen was survived by his wife and adult children. As I understand it. There was a reunification of certain family ties. Hearts were softened and tears were shed. All physical deaths should be as beautiful as his was. I shall miss him and hope to find him one day amongst the rocks. Hopefully he and his Indian brothers won't mind me running on their mountain peaks with a Kilt on and a claymore in my hands.  The Highland Way.
Maybe now my physical brother and friend can be my spiritual brother and friend.
My prayers are with you Diane. Hold onto your love for Glen. It's OK.
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Begin by Praying, meditating and contemplating to GOD. This is a beginning action to first hand knowledge of GOD. This will be your beginning of miracles becoming an everyday ordinary occurrence.
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Memory Holder: (Unedited): 12 Jan 2013:

It is the duty and responsibility of the leader to be the blame and holder of the unfortunate memories. 
C.J.MacKechnie

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 In the times of trials and tribulations. In the times of conflicts and wars. In the times of unfortunate accidents and  survival of lost souls. The leader who may not be anymore is still responsible for the easing and uplifting of those who followed him/her into and through the valley of the shadow and death. By accepting all blame for the ordering of necessary orders. By acknowledging the greatest of the tormented soul who followed those orders and easing their minds and spirits. Then ordering them to go forth and living the life they now rightfully deserve to live. The bad and sad memories of all of the orders given. Belong solely to the leader. The leader who takes on and keeps all of those dire and drastic events. Honors those who have followed and who have fallen.
The leader who willingly enslaves himself with those memories frees his men/women who followed him/her into hells fire and torment.
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