Thankful Hope: Memories Hope: Dark Absence: (Unedited): 20 Nov 2015:

All of the hope you will ever need in life, Is deep within the core of your being.

The hope you do have is more than sufficient for any dream you may have.

A good way to see, to discover the hope that is within you. Is to be thankful for what you do have. 

C.J.MacKechnie

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For many people and many young people. They seem to know that they have no hope, never had any hope and never will have hope. If there is to be any hope then it will come from soon to be seen leader. Then when that leader is gone. Hopelessness returns. This is a false belief system. No one can take away your hope or even give you hope. All of the hope you have ever experienced no matter how small. Was all based in your own decision to have hope for that little moment in time.
All of the hope you will ever have is solely conditional upon your own mental decision and emotional desire to have hope. Your hope doesn't have to be focused but it is ok if it is for a time. upon one teacher, one leader, one famous person or even on one family member. It is OK to be excited and hopeful with other people as the hope being around other people seems to become magnified.
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2015 Thanksgiving approaches and as it does occur every year here in the USA. Thanksgiving does not have to be an only American holiday. Thanksgiving should be a holiday for the whole world and celebrated everyday. Being Thankful is a very good reminder of those things which began with hope.

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Memories Hope: (Unedited): 23 Nov 2015: 

The hopes of old become manifest in our memories of gratitude.

C.J.MacKechnie

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 Search your memories for anything good. For some people this can be very tough. Like for me and my childhood. But, there can be some good ones. No matter how fleeting they may be. Playing baseball was good for me. Sleeping in the cradle of my Camphor tree in Clearwater, Fl. The hope of playing a game and of the hope of sleeping peacefully in a tree. Looking forward to a thing is basic hope. No matter how difficult life can be in your life right now. You can allow yourself to have hope. You can plan for yourself to create new and good memories. These are all in your hope. Then when you do create a good memory amongst so many bad memories. They shall always stand out in your own mind as good. The good thoughts/memories which shall begin to overpower the bad thoughts/memories in time.
I am thankful to my "former best friends family" (See Note) for allowing me to sleep over often and feeding me often. i am thankful for my Black Webco Motocross bike which game me freedom to escape.
I am thankful for the short time I played baseball. I am thankful for the few times I slept in the Camphor tree as a child. I am thankful for the few times I slept under the big pier 60 on Clearwater Beach. I am thankful for sleeping inside of Hwy 19 train track bridge. I am thankful for the pizza I ate out of the trash can for Shakey's pizza (Hwy60). I am thankful for the thrown out burgers from burger king in the green pickle bucket. I am thankful for the popcorn at the Clearwater 4 movie theaters.
Even in these awful memories which caused me to go to other places. I was thankful.
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Something happened when I was alone in the dark with myself and being completely distraught and crying into the Gulf of Mexico. All I want is a family. To be not alone any more. To be wanted. To be loved. Is that to much for any one person to have. No matter how worthless they are. No matter how dumb, stupid and retarded they are. No matter how less than they are to everyone else.  These were not words just deep emotions of personal truths of knowing. Even if they were my own lies and deceptions. Pushed into me by the world and of my adoptive family.
From there at this point in be young adult life. That from this point on this darkened lonely beach in Clearwater. I found hope. Even though I had no idea what hope was or was even able to recognize hope as something good. Hope was there. In that time of my life when I was darker than a secluded beach with no moon or stars. The glimmer of hopes light was ever present.
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Note: "Former Best friend" A person such as myself became so bad. That he and his family had to end the relationship with me. It was all my fault. I had become that bad. I had become dangerous. In any of my writings where I include some personal history. Do not assume that it was someones else fault. I was and had become that bad. When there is an absence of goodness in your life. I guess you become a part of that darkness. I had done that.
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Dark Absence: 23 Nov 2015:

Where there is an absence of goodness. You can become a part of that darkness.

C.J.MacKechnie

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The longer a person remains in the darkness the more they lose themselves to the darkness. Until, the life they had of their own is lost forever. Becoming filled with  worthless apathy of lonely meaningless absence. Becoming a darkened shell of nothing important within, with no control, no power, no hope. but, wait. Did you read above?
That is the one thing that I remember most in reflecting. How I started to become so bad that anyone who was good began to absolutely reject me. Shouldn't that be the opposite in life. When a child is in such a dark place that the light of goodness becomes like that life saving beacon of a light house?
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Thankful Present: (Unedited): 28 Nov 2013:

Being thankful for what is present now. Is more important than the bad and sad memories of the past you survived. 

C.J.MacKechnie

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 My childhood story may sound bad and sad. But, there are a large number of children who have survived more abuses and tortures than I have. Then there are those children who died at the hands of their evil parents and relatives.
If you are reading this now. You have survived your awful past and stand victorious. Be thankful. Yes, thankful for your past. Because, your enduring strength is proven. Even though you may feel like the damaged victim. You survived it all and hopefully you are now in a safe place.

I am today, very thankful for what I have endured. I am very thankful for my wife and children. I am thankful for the life I have and had. I have experienced much and evolved from all of those negative experiences. This is important. So is the life you have had and will have. I hope you can find the positive in your whole life. Even if it does seem like that golden needle in a sea of golden hay. Your search for the positives in your life is well worth it.All of the abuse and tortures you have had to endure. Was never about you. It was always them, those who did those terrible things to you. You were just the body present.

Everyday is a Thanksgiving. I hope everyone can live everyday of their lives in a joyful celebration.
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No quitters: (Unedited): 24 March 2008:

The strength, courage and determination that has brought you to this exact point in your life today. Will see you into tomorrow only if you continue to take the first steps and never give up.
C.J. MacKechnie

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For some of you who have endured abuses and tortures in your life. Find solace and be thankful in your survival. Pray and cry for those who have not.  It is OK. But, now is the time for you to transition from survival mode and into living a good life as defined by your own dreams. Dedicate yourself in the establishment of creating the foundation necessary to build the life of your desires. Its OK and your OK and your safe. Go forth and forward in your life. Your most deserving to see the sweet fruits of today's and tomorrows efforts.The creation of your new foundation is no where as difficult or trying as that which you have had to endure. the creation of this new foundation may be very alien to you. It is OK. Do not fear it or flee from it. Confront and conquer. Adapt and overcome with the same determination of your past.

Leaders Mark: (Unedited): 18 July 2004:

The mark of a great leader is when those that follow do so of their own free choosing and without any promises of riches gained. C.J.MacKechnie

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The great leaders silently goes forth and begins their missions. Those who witness and deem value to the mission. Will begin to follow if that person who first began has a known history of right actions. Without words of encouragement. Without words of selfish promises. Without words conquests glory. The great leaders steps forth first and returns last. The great leaders endures all in its entirety. The great leaders primary thought and actions is to the mission and then to the people who have chosen to follow.  The great leaders are not leaders with pride, rank or self importance. The great leaders are in truth great servants. Great servant to the mission and to the followers. Because the great leaders instinctively know and act from a position of humbled love for all. The great leader eats whats left, sleep on what is available and cares more for others then themselves. As it should be. As it must be.
The great leaders may not be pretty, may not be well spoken, may not have been born to an acceptable family, may not be wealthy and may not be male. 
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Following Warning

 Do not allow your mind and spirit become corrupt from a charismatic voice of lies and deceit. A charismatic self proclaimed leader must look superior and look better to all others. A Charismatic leader must proclaim their plan is the best while convincing all of you to follow. In which you will become paid followers with promises of great wealth, responsibility and ranks of importance. You the deceived follower are the power for the self proclaimed leader. Who will only use you for their own selfish needs and selfish wants. This self appointed leader will be the one who profits the most. When you the duped follower has given your all and your very life. The false leader may be concerned for the briefest of moments so as to merely appear to be concerned and thankful for your sacrifice.
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A false leader uses certain tools to garner his supporters and his power base. These tools may include RACISM. Racism is a lie and a deception. There is only one race and it is a human one. This was proven by the completion of the Human Genome Project more than 11 years ago. It proves that all of our human DNA is 99.9% identical. All of our skin essentially has identical functions as a single organ of the whole human body. Where as only a small part of our human skin has a function to create a color tone. That is all. For you to follow any proclaimed leader who uses race as a call for you to follower. Is proof that you have chosen to follow a lie. It matters not if you believe the leaders lies and deception are gospel truth. It matters not if you believe that man is a holy man. A lie is a lie. Racism used in any way is a lie and a deception. Anyone who asks you your race is perpetuating lies and deceptions. Even if the lie is unknown to them.  

Survival Thanks (unedited) 15 March 2012

The deer who frees themselves from the clutches of the terrible predator of death. Becomes very thankful in that moment of survival and does not consider re-confronting the predator of death. To inquire why me? 

C.J.MacKechnie
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