Dangerous Fear: Decided Decision: Every Success: (Unedited): 02 Sept 2015:

There was a time in my life when I feared my dangerous adoptive mother and yet I desperately needed her love. I also had fear for everything and of everyone else. If I was hurt in any way. I would always respond in anger, violence and misdeeds against those persons. Then one day as I was being beaten. I decided to stop screaming and to stop my panic. This started my adoptive mother. She knew in that moment that I will never fear her again. I could never ever verbally explain it better than this. This is from Will Smith in After Earth.
My adoptive mother was the greatest monster in my life. Then after she died when I was 13 and in Foster Care. I became my own monster in my life. I guess I was just so conditioned. That I needed all of that violence, turmoil, panic, desperation, unnecessary risk, drama and all of those other things which just go along with all of that. It was all I knew. It was all I had. Then to give up all of that bad and sad. just left me in the quiet alone. Which just seemed more awful then the physical pains and traumas. I know I'm being vague. Do I really need to be specific here. If you were abused. Then you just know or have a very good idea. This is supposed to be about you as I have already conquered the bad and sad in my life. There was no one there even though I always expected someone to save me and then when a good person did come around. I bit their heads off (Symbolically). Really. That was smart of me (NOT). There is much hope for you. You are stronger than most as you have survived the worst that life can bring to you. Yes, you deeply feel those who you once knew. Who did not survive. Move forward and choose a better more gooder life. In their memory as well. All the way until you forget their names.
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Short version. 1:18. https://youtu.be/jgjibFrh0CE
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How many times did she try to kill me? How many times did she knock me out? I am who I am today because of her. She forced me to either become strong or die. She forced me to choose between giving up or to never ever quit. Harsh? yes. Fair? no. Evil? Absolutely. The essence of all of the abuses and tortures is as I stand here alive or really sitting in a broken pink flowery girlie chair. Contemplating all of this. Not reminiscing in any of those terrible dark memories or reliving any of those depressing and hopeless emotions.  To me all of those memories have become just cold historical evidences of my former life. I am no longer who I was back then. In time you can say the same thing about yourself. Once you make that deep decision. Which changes everything that you are now.
I did make that decision. Even though I could not articulate very much back then and still not able to verbally speak those profound words any better than Will Smith in character.
From that very same action within my own mind. That place so deep where words just become inefficient.
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Decided Decision: (Unedited): 02 Sept 2015:

"I decided and from that very decision changed my base mental programming forever."

C.J.MacKechnie

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From that one decision. Led to others. No more mind altering anything. No alcohol. No drugs. Just No. All of that brutality, negativity, hate, anger, rejection I grew up with ends with me. Period.
I began searching for more lies and deceptions. Then I reject them all. In the same way I decided not to fear my adoptive mother any more.  I found the openly secret truth of racism and reject it.
I have never hit my children or my wife. This doesn't mean I wont lay several knots of understanding across your forehead if you act stupid in front of me. Please don't. I'm getting to old for that. Oh yea love and peace.
This is for you, The abused people. Find your own victory deep within your core being. Become your own hero and save yourself. Stop being the emotional and helpless victim. Become your own hero and save yourself. Hard words which are harsh. But, somehow and by someway your reading  my words. Nothing is working right and all of the answers are just to impossible for you. Of course they are impossible. That is because you have not acknowledged yourself. Your right to live. Your right to exist. Your right for all that you may want to BE possible. All I ever wanted was a family. Those unspoken words in which I shed many tears into the Gulf of Mexico on Clearwater Beach and Dunedin causeway. I knew I was worthless. I just knew it. I knew I was unwanted by everyone. I knew I had no hope. I knew everything was impossible for me. I knew I was dumb, stupid and retarded. I just knew it. I had no chance and zero opportunities. I knew i would be dead by the time I was 24. I just knew it. So why plan for anything.
Then I saw a poster of Mohamed Ali "I'M Possible". That sat in my mind for a long time. Before I could ever put it into action. I had to first Become my own hero and save myself and so should you. Can you see the difference? From impossible to I'm Possible.
So, what are you going to do now? You have been abused, maybe tortured. You may have been forgotten, rejected in every way. Your family members may have even tried to kill you. Maybe, your abuses that you had to endure were far greater than anything I ever had to endure and yet here you are.
I tell you the truth. You are far more powerful than anyone will ever give you credit for. You endured and survived. Make that decision to no longer be the forever helpless victim. Look into the future of your life and start taking those forward moving steps towards that finish line of your own design.
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Every Success: (Unedited): 02 Sept 2015:

Every success you achieve. Every single one.

Shall become your abusers badges of ultimate failures.

For their goal was to destroy you wholly.

Your light they could not extinguish.

They tried and failed.

You're already victorious.

C.J.MacKechnie

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Impact Empath: (Unedited): 04 March 2015:

If you have a genetic or even a personal relationship with an empath. Always know that all of your negative thoughts and emotions will have an instantaneous impact upon the empath. No matter the distance.

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Here is the truth. All or most human beings are empathic. It doesn't matter if you believe in your empathic nature or not. To reject your empathic abilities. Can be seen as inhuman. Study empathy for yourself. How do you feel when you watch your favorite sports team score or even win a game? How do you feel when you see abused animals cruelly mistreated. How do you feel when a child is mistreated? How do you feel when the love of your life or a family member or a friend is mistreated?
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Most human beings are empathic. Those who are not are most likely in jail. Because, they did not care or value the people they have harmed in some way. Those who refuse to care are apathetic and is a non-emotional as to why they have done what they have done. Maybe, some or many will one day care again. Maybe, someday many will love those strangers as their brothers and sisters. No matter their skin coloring. No matter The shape of their eyes or nose. No matter how tall they are or how fat. We are all of one genetic family of humanity. This is proven scientifically as well as in the ancient story of origins.
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We all have a instantaneous spiritual and emotional impact on everyone else. The neighbor whom you do not know has marital strife? It affects you directly and instantaneously. The armed robbery down the street affects you directly and instantaneously. The new employee who shows up to work on their first day is obviously high and begins consuming alcoholic beverages. This has an instantaneous impact on you. So all that we all do, think and feel in this life of the here and now. Has a direct and instantaneous impact on everyone. But,it goes a step further. All of that negative emotional stuff can be transmitted to another person. Until such a point in time when someone from the other side of this planet becomes enraged and acts out. They may not even know why. But the waves of negative emotions and thoughts have self generated a powerful tidal effect as it moves about.
I see this as random wave mechanics. Where millions of waves in the deep ocean of humanities thoughts and emotions. Suddenly and seemingly random creates that super wave of negative emotions and thoughts. For the basic human animal who knows not the how or why. Must find a way to get rid of all of this negative energy and that is usually through acting out all of that instantaneously built up negative energies. Through rage, hate and anger. Some sense of the lack of some ill defined social justice.
So battles and attacks begins. War has begun. Because, someone did a thing and offended another group of people.
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This is a reason why the ancient religious laws are so very important to living a life with purpose and meaning. If you honor the ancient religious laws because you freely choose to do so. Then the impacts upon this Earth will be like a huge cancelling wave. Easing all of the negative waves into smoother waters for all of humanity to discover a stress free environment for the whole of humanity.
The old teachings of GOD commanded these ancient laws are true. But, God is also a God of natural consequences. If you break a commandment of Gods laws within your own mind. God is most likely not going to immediately strike you down. If God did those kinds of things. Humanity would have already been extinct and I would not be writing. As I would be fleeing from every thunderstorm that comes around this coastal city of port Richey, Florida. Yes, you can laugh. I am a deeply flawed human being. I admit it.

The point is this. ***What you do? What you don't do?  What you think? and what you feel?*** Has a direct instantaneous impact upon everyone else on this planet and maybe even to a degree in the universe.
So, do you want peace? Then be at peace. Do you want love? Then love. Do you want harmony? Then be harmonious. Do you want life? Then cherish all life.
Then the illusive understanding of the purpose and meaning of life will come from within you. How about them apples? 

***(There are many more what you do's and what you don't do's. There is also what you refuse and what you ignore) *** If I were to list them all. I would lose my meager paying job and take away your ability to think for yourself.

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Quitting Thing: Power Reach: Superior Extinction: Puppet Pawns: (Unedited): 21 Oct 2014:

Quitting a thing isn't as important as beginning the thing. Although quitting does make you a quitter.  

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If you never begin anything you desire to do. You will never have an opportunity to grow, develop or to evolve. Fear, intimidation, a false sense of how things will end up. Which is basically all fear based. Overcoming fear and all of those other negative emotions which is holding you back. You may think it is to hard and impossible. But, those are just illusory excuses which are only real inside of your own mind. Overcoming all of those illusory excuses is a simple logical decision away from you.
By switching to the other side of your brain for dominant action. You switch away from being controlled by your emotions to logically controlling your emotions. This is how it is supposed to be. You have a very real logical thought and then you have an emotional response. This is the correct way of thinking. Having and obeying your emotional side of your brain and then creating a logical response is just backwards. On the spiritual side. Thinking emotionally first and then logically second opens you up to easy demonic attacks. It is easy to control how any human feels.
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The fear of failure without any logical fact is illogical as to why you should never begin a thing.
By doing, by learning, by developing skills, by growing wisdom, by gaining understanding all of it proves your fears wrong. Even a failure proves your fears wrong. Because out of your failure(s). If you just sit and analyze (contemplate) your mistakes. You will still gain more knowledge, wisdom and understanding then if you had accidentally succeeded in the first place.
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Power Reach: (Unedited): 21 Oct 2014:

Reach out beyond the negativity of your own mind and in doing so you will discover the real power of you. 

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The fallen angels were not happy with our creation. We were made to be above them. Which means they had to and will have to destroy us before we can evolve higher than they. So the fallen angels know the power of emotions as they themselves had very little control over their own emotions. Falling in lust with human women. Which I think is worse than incest with a child. This is what makes the fallen angels so evil. Beings so superior than any human being in every way. Yet, they fall victim to their own pride and sin.
I think their easy destruction by methods which is still beyond human understanding is how those falling ones are trying to destroy all of humanity. By psychically influencing the emotions of all of humanity is their key to the logical control of any human beings logical mind.
The fallen angels are really close in influencing the world leaders into self destruction and extinction. Those human leaders will know not what they have done until afterwards. Where political thought and manipulated human reasoning becomes superior to divine and holy wisdom.
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Superior Extinction: (Unedited): 21 Oct 2014:

Humanities extinction comes when political thought and manipulated human reasoning becomes superior to divine and holy wisdom. 

C.J.MacKechnie

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Maybe, there are rules involved to anyone's involvement with the development of any new species. Rules that we know not of. Probably because just knowledge of those rules would contaminate humanities development. From non-physical contact is the only way those demonic souls can influence humanity. The most powerful of demonic souls will have their place in close proximity to those world leaders, religious leaders, cultural leaders, the wealthy and the prideful elite. The most powerful of all of the fallen angels are not going to waste what time they have on the simple common person. They do not have any power in the power struggles in any world decision or event. Your total deception is complete.

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Puppet Pawns: (Unedited): 21 Oct 2014:

Common people are just pawns and the human kings are just puppets. 

C.J.MacKechnie

Think about that. It is true.

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You world leaders go back to the divinity of wisdom and understanding. Which is love, peace, harmony and life. Base all of your decisions on these things and you will instantly cut all of the demonic strings which control your life and actions without you even being aware of it.
 Is the puppet ever aware of their strings or the one(s) who controls them?  Nah.
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Zombie Day: (Unedited): 30 Aug 2014:

The day you allow apathy to infect your mind, is the day you become a zombie. 

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The original version of this may be better.

The day you allow apathy to infect your mind, is the day you cease being a human being. 

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The very day you throw your hands up and proclaim that you don't care anymore. Is the day you stop being a human being. Because, caring is an essential emotion for being a human. If you begin to limit yourself or deny yourself your very own emotions. You begin to become a simple machine or you begin to DE-evolve into something lower than the pets we keep. Even the pets we keep show a lot of emotions. So denying your own emotions cause you to become less than your own pets.
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Even though you may work with people who are apathetic does not mean you have to also be apathetic. It is exactly like saying since they reject being fully human so will I. Not very logical or mature. This is what many of us do. Why should I care if no one else cares about me? So denying your own humanity because no humans were around to care about you. Same thing. Just because a person looks like a human being does not mean they are being human.

in all that you do. You must continually show that you are fully human. Regardless if you work with people who do not care about doing the job correctly or completely. Just make sure you do the job correctly and completely every time.  Yes, your apathetic coworkers will take advantage of you and your supervisors won't show any compassion for you either. Just understand you work with zombies and it is against the law to kill the already dead(Humor). Don't harm anyone. Yes, you will become angry. Yes, it is not fair. For you to relent means you become less than who you are now. You will cease growing, Developing and evolving. Is it worth it for you to allow yourself to become apathetically infected? You better say, NO. For you to say yes means you will have a zombie birthday.
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I decided to use the title "Zombie Day" because the retail stores are gearing up for Halloween. Which means zombies and other rather ugly and horrible shows and media content. Having permission to do mean things to one another. How is this right? Christians silently go off on Halloween night to celebrate. Christian Parents allow their children to celebrate Halloween with costumes. Churches sell pumpkins. Why? So that Christians can cut ghoulish faces upon them?

How do we teach apathy to children. It is easy. Make Halloween fun and entertaining. I've already witnessed one child become frightened by an automated half green person. Young children seem to instinctively know who they should be scared of. This child began to cry from fear and his parents laughed. Really. The parents were entertained by their sons cry from fear. This is what we do to our children. To let them know being scared is OK and getting scared is fun. That is until someone breaks the law. Then it is not fun. I'm already confused by this. So how is a 12 month old supposed to react? The 12 month old must completely depend on and totally trust in his parents for everything. The child knows if he cries the parents will save him. But, in this case they laugh at me like it's funny that I'm scared. really. What happens to trust? It starts to fade away.
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Life As It Is: (Unedited): 02 June 2014

Your life is as it is, because of what it was. 

Your life will be, what it will be, because of how you are now.

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Change is difficult for everyone. It is just there are those who seem to be able to willing to endure change. While others do not. Even if a person is in a never ending undesirable situation in life. They for some reason want to maintain it. For a variety of fears as defined by that individual.

To sum this one up. What you have done or the lack of what you should have done in your life. Is the logical result of the life you have now. The life you will have is also the same logical result of what you will do or have not done right now.

In life there is always change in regards to aging, social networks and friendships. In your lifestyle there may be change in living in one place or another. Your employment may also change as well. Change is always coming at you in the face. You can have some level of control in your life. Sometimes you may have to lower your living standards in order to gain a little more through the gaining of education or skill sets. The gaining of education is currently the best hope any person can have to upgrade their life.

Going from no education to more educated can be very tiring. Especially, if you have no real family or family wealth and support.
For instance and this is for instance in order to explain a process. The nursing profession has literally dozens of steps for advancement. This may require you to go through a continuous educational process for a long period of time. Do the research on all of the medical certifications. To start at the lowest level and then work your way up. Working your way up may also mean more income and benefits. More income also may mean an improved living arrangement. Be warned upgrading your living arrangement to fast can also be like living inside of a mouse trap.
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Thank You INFJ Cacofony.
By over coming your past. No matter how hellish it has ever been. Become your own hero. Rise up out of the fiery quagmire. Step forward and keep moving. No matter what. Become the sole force of wour own will power which moves you into the realm of your own defined personal greatness. Rid yourself of negative mindsets, behaviors and emotions this day. Because the day you rid yourself of all negativity's. Begins your future full of absolute positivity.
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Darkened World: (Unedited): 31 Jan 2014:

Assigning a negative emotion to joyous bird song, darkens your perceptions of the world. 

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Most of us know who live rurally. That the birds sing their joyous song very early in the morning. This may not be so convenient to those who desire to sleep. The young one or anyone who begins to become upset and angered at the joyous song of happy birds. Misses out on their feeling of happiness and by becoming angered also darkens their own perceptions of the world in which they exist in.
Your world of darkness and misery is all equated of all of the negative emotions you have created in your life to this point.
When the rains and snows,
When the heat and cold,
When the beach is to salty and sandy,
When the mountains are to tall and rocky,
 When any snow is to much.
When any desert is to desolate,

There will be nothing pleasant to experience. The beauty in all things will be forever lost to you. Simply because you have decided at one time the experience was a negative emotional value.
Memorable outings with family and friends become a constant flow of complaints before, during and after.
So how is it that you will ever have peace and happiness when everything is a problem to be expected.
Even shouts of happiness in which you were not a part of causes you to rush in and inquire what is wrong.
 

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Change Thinking: (Unedited): 29 Jan 2014:

Thinking about things in a positive light. Changes your perceptions and emotions of those things. C.J.MacKechnie

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More Apathetic: (Unedited): 09 July 2013:

Apathy tells you it is to risky to love, show compassion or care for others.  While apathy does not tell you is that the more you become apathetic the more you are alone, separated and isolated.  

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The apathetic thoughts and emotions you begin to allow a recognition of importance. Seems to be self protecting and self beneficial. But, as time goes on. That self protectionism cases you to become more and more alone over time. Separating you from friends and family. Then from the rest of the world. To the point that even to be among other people causes you to much stress and anxiety. You become a home body. Enjoying the anonymous privacy of the computer and Internet. Reality T.V. becomes more important than news, Religion, politics or even the loss of those things which are very important. Like your life even though you still exist.
Eventually you may become so home bound that you die alone. That is extreme. But very probable.
To care. To Love. to show compassion is apart of your humanity. To deny those aspects of you for self protectionism only De-evolves your whole being. You actually become less than what you were.
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You can return to what you once were a fully intact human being. Quit your smoking, drinking and any mind altering drugs. You may have to ween yourself off of them. That is a beginning. Go outside and find something to care about. Like the family you have forgotten. Assuming that is possible. Call them and ask for help.

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Basic Mammal: (Unedited): 03 June 2013:

 A man who is reduced to his most basic function, becomes only a human mammal equal to all other basic life forms. C.J.MacKechnie

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When a man is stripped of all of his purpose, Intellect, spirit and emotional content. What is left? Only a simple animal. Given the same rights of existence as a worm or an insect.
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Mocking Bird: (Unedited): 27 May 2013:

The mocking bird who becomes everyone all of the time, forgets it's own identity.
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The person who has been labeled bi-polar with zero factual proof for the existence of any brain damage or brain defects, may in fact be an empath. Just think about what an empath is and what the capabilities of being an empath to varying degrees. An empath should be very compassionate and passionate. An empath should be a very caring and considerate person. Most good people like to focus on those feel good and nice fuzzy wuzzy descriptive words to illicit smiles of comfort. But, being a true empath also means all of the feelings on the opposite end of nicety niceness. Those other bad and sad feelings you feel can also trigger those psychologically selfish and self protective feelings. Such as hate and anger which can cause a person to decide for themselves to take the wrong actions in life.
A person who does not know they are empathic can actually lose themselves in other peoples feelings and thoughts. An empath is a human emotional vacuum cleaner. sucking up everyone's emotional content and even thought fragments. Just step back and think about that for a moment. You are a person having your own thoughts and emotions involving cute fuzzy wuzzy kitty kittens, then suddenly hate and anger fills you. Could you be feeling your neighbors secret feelings about working with an undesirable person. As your neighbor is zooming off to work. How can you know? Walking in the mall you always seem to be just a little happier. But, for some strange reason you feel brief bouts of hurt, then loves lust and then the sadness associated with abuse, and then I won't get ripped off by them again, and happy happy  and excited and then exhausted and tired. Your probably an empath. But, then again your unaware of any such thing as an empath. You only know there is something wrong with you. Again, you are not even aware that in our society we all are conditioned to find what is wrong and never ever even consider what is right.
Without ever even considering that what is right with you. You go to the psycho doctors who profit from those very powerful and very addictive mind altering medications. You tell them what is wrong with you and from your own incorrect self evaluations. They diagnose you from your own false assumption and telling of stories how you love to bake everything but sometimes you just start crying. You could have that person whom you love deeply and they have been keeping a secret of continuing/on going hurt. But, you have no idea. All you know is you love to bake goodies.

The on going emotional conflicts that seem to curse the unaware empath causes them to seek help from the wrong sources. Thus, begins their journey down the medicated road of a bi-polar diagnosis. When the medications do not work and the patient commits suicide. The doctors and pharmaceutical companies are never ever to blame. When the medications do not work the psycho doctors prescribe electro-shock treatments. Turning you more into a permanent feelingless zombie.  What was once a gift has now made you a drug addicted and brain damaged person with zero hopes for any normalcy in life.
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The empath is the mocking bird. The mocking bird never forgets to fly and think itself to be a car horn or a video game it mimics. The mocking bird never crawls and scampers around as if it is a cat or squirrel. The mocking bird has it's own feelings as it chases a squirrel around a tree or screams angrily at the crow who gets to close. The mocking bird may even risk everything to stand on the steering wheel of a rough looking truck driver. The curiosity and wonder of the both of them over the other. You looking at me? Happened to me.
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My empathic friends. Find that which is right with you. Discover the best methodology to train up your God given gift.  If you have zero factual proof from all of today's modern medical test equipment. If you have zero history of brain trauma, brain defects and brain damage. Then work with a doctor who can ween you off of those powerfully addictive mind altering substances. Ween yourself even from alcohol, cigarettes and any other mind altering substance which is probably illegal. Get the help and support you need to get this done. Once you accomplish this. Then you can truly embrace your inner mocking bird and re-discover your true identity.
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If you have a belief system which has a focus on the power animals. Research for yourself if those power animals get drunk or get high or get zombified?
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Words become real when you ink them into your own dictionary. really?

Wuzzy, Feelingless and zombified can now be words in your dictionary.
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To avert all of the coming bad and sad prophecies. We each must decide to do the following everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.

To Love one another.

To live in peace with everyone.

To exist in harmony with all.

To Cherish all life.

To be obedient to the Laws of God.

To become righteous and holy by the accepting eyes of God only.

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Negative Fruits: (Unedited): 04 May 2013:

The growth of negativity within ones own mind bears the fruits of self doubts and low self esteem. C.J.MacKechnie

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Negativity can be a shared thought and emotional process. A person who is negative and happens to be a parent or other person of respect. Can teach their negative thinking and emotional process with anyone who believes in their authority. The negative way of thinking can be passed down to the younger generation. Almost until organization is dissolved. This includes the organization of family, clan or tribe, national unity and world unity.
If you are a gifted person, it matters not if you are aware or believe of/in your gifts or not. You the negative elder can and possible will have a greater impact of transmitting your inherent negativity into anyone whom you have the briefest of contact with. You are unknowingly causing harm to anyone whom you come into contact with. It is of the greatest of importance for you to realize your inherent negative thinking and emotions. Then understand that negative thinking and emotional expression is not healthy, good or right. You can be that sole source which is disrupting your own family and you are unknowingly teaching the younger generation to further disrupt the rest of your family. The younger generation will then teach their siblings and friends. Thus causing further harm to the family and into the rest of the tribe/clan. The spread of negative thinking and emotional outburst must end as it has begun with you.
You must realize that the negative thinking and negative emotions which you have unknowingly taught to your own family. May be something which each individual will have to unlearn. This new positive way of thinking and feeling can be difficult, especially if the younger ones have already attained the age of self decision.
Your individual change from a negative thinking process into a positive thinking process. Can literally change the world. At least the world which surrounds you. Then as those individuals who have been taught to think positively as you now do go out into the world. They will becomes those perpetual lights in the foggy darkness as opposed to the further spread of more shadows deep into the foreboding darkness.

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Drowning Music: (unedited): 23 April 2013:

Drowning out, the natural gifts you know not of with loud music, only deafens your ears.  
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 There isn't anything wrong with you. There is only what is right with you. You have been blessed with great gifts from GOD. You must learn how to recognize them, use them and develop skill with them. It takes time, effort and energy. Your very first steps is learning how to pray, meditate and contemplate. Turn down all of the noises, musics, games, Televisions. Turn your attention and intention inward. Find GOD, Find Allah, Find your Heavenly Father, Find the Source of all, Find the Creator inside the quiet of you. This is the first step amongst many. The total number of steps you will be required to take is up to you and the God of your understanding. No matter how many steps you take. It will be absolutely OK for you to take only that many steps. It is OK and your OK.
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It is understandable to listen to loud music when you do not know why you have so many different thoughts, ideas and emotions. Having no control over something unknown and alien to you can be very distressing. Your repeated thoughts of something is wrong with me. You may even scream it continuously "What is wrong with me?!?!?"... In which if you do nothing more a helpless hopelessness may develop within you. You begin to seek out help from professionals and become diagnosed with ADHD or Bi-Polar. With zero physical evidence to prove any real physical defect you believe them anyway and take their powerful mind altering medications. Your roller coaster ride begins. Taking the medications only work for a while, then they don't. So, the doctor changes them and then the drugs work again, until they don't. You choose to help the legal drugs with cigarettes and alcohol. That helps for a while. But, not really. Because now, your body is not only adapting to and over coming the medications. Your body has also become addicted to all of the foreign chemical substances. The doctors begin to tell you that Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) will help. It does in the short term and the medium term and the long term. You will never be the same. If you are one of those human beings that has been gifted with great abilities from GOD. Then the Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) will need to be done repeatedly. Until, you are left a shell of a human animal. 
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Thoughts and emotions need not have originated within your own being. This can be difficult to believe. Especially, when you have been conditioned to think and believe a certain way in regards to the physical laws or in the strict confines of certain religions. The absolute control of your mind is necessary to control you or to keep you as a slave, who thinks they are free. To create and project limitations onto you, keeps you corralled intellectually and spiritually. When the intellect and spirit is controlled. There will no need to have restraints or prison camps. Although, the controllers may want re-education camps. 
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To avert all of the coming bad and sad prophecies. We each must decide to do the following everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.

To Love one another.

To live in peace with everyone.

To exist in harmony with all.

To Cherish all life.

To be obedient to the Laws of God.

To become righteous and holy by the accepting eyes of God only.

All without any pride, ego, arrogance, supremacy and entitlements.
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Invading Empath: (Unedited): 11 Jan 2013:

The wolf in sheep's clothing can easily hide amongst the good sheep. The undisciplined mind of the empath can become clouded by the quantity of good thoughts and emotions, which surrounds the empath. So much so the one or few bad minds can be dismissed as some kind of back ground residual clutter. C.J.MacKechnie
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Being an Empath is one of the Christs gifts from GOD. God doesn't hand out instruction manuals with any of the gifts. So, one must learn as you pray, as you meditate and  as you go. Learning as you go is the real world lessons to be learned. Learning these real world lessons should be all that it is supposed to be and without any negative emotional tags applied. The logical approach is to ask those questions of where you are lacking and where your were accurate. Then apply the necessary actions to achieve whole development.
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:Warning: Actively Invading and trespassing into other peoples minds is wrong. At this point in time just focusing upon an individuals mind in a passive receptive mode is probably the best. Because the individual is actively transmitting their own thoughts and emotions constantly out in the open. This is not trespassing.
But focusing upon another persons mind to actively retrieve thoughts, emotions and intentions is wrong.
But, what about looking into the minds of a suspected bad person?
What if the suspected bad person turns out to be good? Then you became the bad person who trespassed.

Transmitting is just like receiving any signal from any source.
Receiving is just like listening to any radio signal from any transmitted source.
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Timed Emotions: (Unedited): 27 May 2010:

Your feelings will always lag your thinking and your thinking will always lead your emotional state. No matter if the thought is current or a memory. C.J.MacKechnie 

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This can be difficult to understand as it involves those who are normal minded, Mentally Ill and gifted. To simply sum this up. That which you are thinking always precedes your emotions, every single time. Those who have been factually proven to be mentally ill via various brain scans which determine brain defects and brain damage. The signals could become mixed up as in no emotional response to any thinking process. A continuous flood of emotions which are unrelated to a particular and specific thought. This also includes other responses in various degrees, orders and timings.
For the gifted person who are the natural em-paths. Without any factual proven diagnostics tests. The natural empath can be declared to be of a various mental disorders such as bipolar. Then these gifted persons are drugged into emotional oblivion and their brains electrocuted until they feel nothing anymore. Most often then not these persons who have been deemed to be bipolar may in fact be naturally empathic and not even be aware of it.
It needs to be known that being empathic is one of the first Christ gifts. The gift of knowing another persons feelings in order to express love, compassion, Kindness and mercy is essential to the teachings of Jesus. When the Christian person or any other person whom GOD chooses is gifted with this gift of being empathic. It is often time accompanied by zero information from GOD and denounced by the church as witchcraft. Which neither is helpful. But, for whichever reason for God's part is something I am not going to question outwardly.
This is where active and continuous prayer and meditation is necessary in order to learn about all of the gifts from GOD by GOD and taught by GOD.
Being empathic is not a disability, defect and it is not proof that something is wrong with you. On the contrary. There is something very right with you and GOD has chosen to give you this gift and others.
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The evidence of being an empath is varied.
You strongly feel the emotions of your loved ones and close friends before any normal means of communications has been made.
When traveling through crowded places. You feel a myriad of whispering and fleeting emotions flow through you. While thinking about a specific task.
When going to an away game of your favorite team. You feel like you want to cheer for the other team and may even get caught up in the emotions of a score made over your team.
Getting distance from people is peaceful for you. Such as fishing or hunting. You may not even want to hunt or fish as you may be so sensitive. That you even feel their death.
You may get childishly happy by driving close to a school or any place which has many children playing.
When driving by a hospital, jail or any other place where sadness is prevalent, you feel it all as well.
You feel adventurous when driving by an airport.
When everyone is asleep. You awaken to the peace and quiet. You may even stay awake while everyone sleeps. just to start clearing your own brain. 

These are all normal. and there is more. To learn how to control them. You need to actively and continuously practice prayer and meditation on a regular basis.
Simply put.
Prayer is you talking. To God.
Meditation is you listening. To God.
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Apathy's Cure: (Unedited): 23 Dec 2012:

Apathy's cure means, your humanities re-emergence. C.J.MacKechnie

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When you begin to care again. You become reacquainted with your humanity. Even if  the strongest emotions is anger and hatred. From there you can evolve into those more healing and calming emotions of love, compassion, mercy and forgiveness.  
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When you begin to care about the self. This will also evolve into caring about other peoples needs as well. You will eventually begin to lose the desire to hurt and harm other people. This is assuming you allow yourself to think and believe that love, caring, mercy and compassion is not weak but a strong emotion. Strong enough to prevent extinction. Where as the disease of apathy spreads itself throughout the entire population of a planet and then the extinction process begins. The whole people are unaware and cares not. They just have the thirst for more anger, more hatred and more violence. maybe even welcome death as a preferred event.

Controling Emotions: (Unedited): 25 Dec 2011:

As long as you believe  you are helpless in controlling your own emotions, you will be. C.J.MacKechnie

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From this negativity which may seem true in your life. Search for that which is positive and empowering. Go forth in your life towards self improvement and betterment.
Empower yourself and conquer your own mind. This quote is a self realization for you if you falsely believe that you cannot control your own thoughts or emotions. If you are empathic in any way. The controlling of your own thoughts and emotions is mandatory if you wish to have a sane life, non medicated life. Because, If you do not know your own thoughts and emotions. Then how can you know if someone Else thoughts and emotions which you naturally pick up on is actually yours or some unknown person.
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Controlling your logical thinking is the very first step in controlling your emotions. This can happen over time through the continual effective practice of meditation. Just the act of meditation fundamentally teaches you how to control your thought processes.
Just so you know. Meditative time build up is essential an is defined by you. So, do not feel guilty if you do not meditate for many hours a day as those who are way smarter an wiser than you or me. What you do, do and for that amount of time dedicated, You should be satisfied. If you are not satisfied. Then search within your own self as to why. Upon discovery, no matter what it may be, Know that it is still OK.
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 I have heard and read from many with PhD's. That it is impossible for any person to control their own thoughts and emotions. Even, those with the PhD's may very well believe what they say as truth or they may not. I do not know. It is a lie and a deception in order to sell legal drugs and to keep and maintain patients forever. Especially, When in our (USA) state of technology their is no absolute provable evidence of any brain defect or brain damage or brain trauma. The absence of evidence is in itself evidence of possible normalcy.  With the lack of any conclusive evidence. Normalcy must be assumed and the teaching of self empowerment begins as the primary treatment. Which means the professional PHD will have a revolving door of new sick patients and departing healed patients. As opposed to the patients that never leave as is the current state of practice in all of psychology today.
It is this state of current psychology which contributed to the death of my mother.
Which also contributes to the death of anyone who has a history of taking these powerful mind altering medications for any time. Which is interesting because every psychological professional can easily lay blame solely on their patients suicide on the patient. How odd but convenient.
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Rain Salt (unedited). 26 March 2012

God's raptured or chosen remnant who are the salt of the Earth. Must still always be concerned with the rain of their own personal choices. C.J.MacKechnie

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The consequences of your thoughts, emotions and actions will be experienced by those who are to endure to the end or who are raptured. Genesis 19: Stay focused upon God and cleave to HIM.

Even while being saved and protected by the Hand of GOD. One still must choose to obey the word of God. You must fight and struggle with your own desires for the world. It is easy to live in the world and by the rules of the world. But, you have been called and directed to live in the world and not of the world.

Negative Fail (unedited). 16 March 2012

To question: How much is to much are your doubts. Those doubts of negative logic always leads to doubts into negative emotions. Which then leads to a fail in the heat of any battle. C.J.MacKechnie

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Learning how to control your every thought and emotion is very possible. Even though some psychologists and psychiatrists claim otherwise. In which some have to claim the falsehood of being able to to learn the skills to control your own thoughts and emotions. These are evil people and only want you to remain helpless to their pharmacology prescriptions forever. How else can these kinds of evil people make a growing and continuing income if they enable and empower you to heal your own self. Which is possible for you. Through positive belief systems. 

Meditation is the very beginning to learning how to control your thoughts and emotions. Meditation only works when you can control your thoughts and emotions. As the length of time evolves in your meditations duration so to the over all effect upon your life in a positive way. Just don't stop. Just don't give up. Fight the negativity with absolute rejection of any negative word usage. Stop thinking any negative word or thought, right now. Every success you have will also end the corresponding negative emotion. Unless of course your an Empath. Then you may be receiving emotions from other people. Then that presents other problems. 

I'm a believer in GOD. So, to me prayer is you talking to GOD and meditation is you listening to GOD. This is followed by contemplating what GOD has revealed to you. 

So, you say you have never prayed or meditated before. I declare upon you this. Yes, You have both prayed and meditated before. 

Have you expressed communication in any outgoing format?

 yes, you have. This is an over simplified definition of prayer. You speaking to others in your way is prayer. 

Have you ever taken in any kind of communication into any of your senses?

 Yes, you have.  You listening and reading is an over simplified definition of meditation.

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If you have a provable brain defect or brain damage. Then absolutely follow your doctors orders everyday with out any argument, complaint or excuse. This does not include the diagnosis of ADHD or Bipolar disorders in which there is no conclusive medical test today,which proves the existence of either. If you have been on the medications which controls behaviors associated with false observations. You are now severely addicted to these powerful mind altering medications. You may even now have chemical brain damage as any other person who has taken illegal drugs for some time. You must ask for treatment as any other addicted person would. Then learn the thinking skills necessary to live a normal life as defined by your own being. This process can take decades. Yes, It is possible.  

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