There isn't anything wrong with you. There is only what is right with you. You have been blessed with great gifts from GOD. You must learn how to recognize them, use them and develop skill with them. It takes time, effort and energy. Your very first steps is learning how to pray, meditate and contemplate. Turn down all of the noises, musics, games, Televisions. Turn your attention and intention inward. Find GOD, Find Allah, Find your Heavenly Father, Find the Source of all, Find the Creator inside the quiet of you. This is the first step amongst many. The total number of steps you will be required to take is up to you and the God of your understanding. No matter how many steps you take. It will be absolutely OK for you to take only that many steps. It is OK and your OK.
It is understandable to listen to loud music when you do not know why you have so many different thoughts, ideas and emotions. Having no control over something unknown and alien to you can be very distressing. Your repeated thoughts of something is wrong with me. You may even scream it continuously "What is wrong with me?!?!?"... In which if you do nothing more a helpless hopelessness may develop within you. You begin to seek out help from professionals and become diagnosed with ADHD or Bi-Polar. With zero physical evidence to prove any real physical defect you believe them anyway and take their powerful mind altering medications. Your roller coaster ride begins. Taking the medications only work for a while, then they don't. So, the doctor changes them and then the drugs work again, until they don't. You choose to help the legal drugs with cigarettes and alcohol. That helps for a while. But, not really. Because now, your body is not only adapting to and over coming the medications. Your body has also become addicted to all of the foreign chemical substances. The doctors begin to tell you that Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) will help. It does in the short term and the medium term and the long term. You will never be the same. If you are one of those human beings that has been gifted with great abilities from GOD. Then the Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) will need to be done repeatedly. Until, you are left a shell of a human animal.
Thoughts and emotions need not have originated within your own being. This can be difficult to believe. Especially, when you have been conditioned to think and believe a certain way in regards to the physical laws or in the strict confines of certain religions. The absolute control of your mind is necessary to control you or to keep you as a slave, who thinks they are free. To create and project limitations onto you, keeps you corralled intellectually and spiritually. When the intellect and spirit is controlled. There will no need to have restraints or prison camps. Although, the controllers may want re-education camps.
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