Negative Fruits: (Unedited): 04 May 2013:

The growth of negativity within ones own mind bears the fruits of self doubts and low self esteem. C.J.MacKechnie

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Negativity can be a shared thought and emotional process. A person who is negative and happens to be a parent or other person of respect. Can teach their negative thinking and emotional process with anyone who believes in their authority. The negative way of thinking can be passed down to the younger generation. Almost until organization is dissolved. This includes the organization of family, clan or tribe, national unity and world unity.
If you are a gifted person, it matters not if you are aware or believe of/in your gifts or not. You the negative elder can and possible will have a greater impact of transmitting your inherent negativity into anyone whom you have the briefest of contact with. You are unknowingly causing harm to anyone whom you come into contact with. It is of the greatest of importance for you to realize your inherent negative thinking and emotions. Then understand that negative thinking and emotional expression is not healthy, good or right. You can be that sole source which is disrupting your own family and you are unknowingly teaching the younger generation to further disrupt the rest of your family. The younger generation will then teach their siblings and friends. Thus causing further harm to the family and into the rest of the tribe/clan. The spread of negative thinking and emotional outburst must end as it has begun with you.
You must realize that the negative thinking and negative emotions which you have unknowingly taught to your own family. May be something which each individual will have to unlearn. This new positive way of thinking and feeling can be difficult, especially if the younger ones have already attained the age of self decision.
Your individual change from a negative thinking process into a positive thinking process. Can literally change the world. At least the world which surrounds you. Then as those individuals who have been taught to think positively as you now do go out into the world. They will becomes those perpetual lights in the foggy darkness as opposed to the further spread of more shadows deep into the foreboding darkness.

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Will be included in future volumes of “Musings of an American Truck Driver”:

 http://www.amazon.com/books/dp/0985310308

 http://www.amazon.com/books/dp/1477629769

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Self Correcting: (Unedited): 01 April 2013:

Self correcting bad behaviors and overcoming poor decisions in judgement, Can be easily seen by others as a growth in your character. C.J.MacKechnie

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Surviving the after effects of bad behavior and the results of making poor decisions. Can be difficult and overwhelming. Enduring through the trials and tribulations of your own actions and choices is necessary in your learning and self correcting process. What you DO NOW. Will be seen by others as you developing good character or you acting unwisely. What and how others see you is of importance. But, how you see yourself is of greater importance. Do you want to be a good person or do you just want to be good at all of the bad you desire to do? 
There is a phrase in the trucking industry. "If you can't be good, then be good at it." The word can't is your choice. From your choice you will always receive your just rewards or the conviction of curses. 
The rewards may not be easily seen like gold, silver, lands or jewel's. Respect, honor, honesty, righteousness, holiness is all apart of your good reputation. A good reputation can be re-created after you have fought hard to recover from the conviction of your created curses. 
 The curse of trials and tribulations is a direct logical response to the poor choices in your life. Some of these curses can last an entire lifetime in prison. Some curses may last only a decade or two, then you die. Some curses may require you to remain in the perpetual care of a medical team. 
Some self generated curses are generational. The lovers who partake of the drugs and alcohol. Will have babies with diminished capacities. Is that a curse from God? No, It is your own self generated curse. You are solely responsible for your child being born addicted to your drugs and becoming genetically defective. Don't blame God for your choices and actions in life. 

SO, What do you do now? Since you now realize that some curses of your own creation and not the fault of God.
You do more than endure through your curse or curses. You make a life out of your trials and tribulations. You create that positive and life changing message. So, that hopefully other people won't make your same mistakes. It doesn't matter if your confined in a wheel chair, rotting in some prison cell or the parent of a FASD/PCE kid. You can still change your  life life and pursue enlightenment. Despite/In-spite your current disadvantage. Be positive, Live positive, become the positive life message for all. 
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http://www.ncadd.org/index.php/programs-a-services/alcoholdrugs-related-birth-defects-awareness/191-ncadd-alcohol-a-other-drug-related-birth-defects-awareness-week
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fetal_alcohol_spectrum_disorder
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prenatal_cocaine_exposure
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Curse
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Karma
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 Yep, this is a hint for someone. Not my family.
 The extreme unwise choice or decision. Can be seen in the story of Jacob
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jacob
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