It is to bad. That not everyone chooses to become stronger. Even after surviving great horrors of abuse and torture. Others choose to maintain their misery, sadness, Suffering or to just completely give up.
Just the fact that you did survive is evidence of your enduring strength. A strength which you may not even see or even accept. You are strong and stronger than most. Do not give up now, not ever. Do not give in to the negativity of your own minds creation. Fight, Fight, Fight.
It is always nice to discover that solid rock. When you are pulling yourself out of the mud that your drowning in.
Drowning in a river of sadness and misery. It does not matter who or what the solid rock is. Grab a hold of it and pull yourself free of the deadly torrents of negativity. You can do it. Become your own hero and free yourself. Your already strong enough. You have already proven it by simply surviving your life's horrors. Pull yourself up and pull yourself free. I will be standing upon the rock cheering you on.