I know the abuses suffered and endured are awful. I do not and am not making light of any of it. But, after any great struggle in your life no matter the outcome. You should celebrate. This is healthy. Even if in your own mind at this moment in time you are at a loss as to why or even how you were victorious.
It is simple and yet so very difficult to explain. All of the abuses you have ever had to endure was never about you. It was always about the abuser. You were just the body present. If it was not you then it would have been someone else. Maybe, someone else who would not have been as strong and as determined to survive as you were.
You survived! Isn't that enough! Can't that be enough! Well it should be enough. Go forth and begin your life, this new life of your emergence from suffering, darkness and loneliness.
You survived and your survival is evidence of your abusers failure. Your successful life to come if you choose to make that effort without cessation. Will be those nails in your abusers coffin of absolute failure. Make sure there are many, many nails. Do so without a vengeful heart but out of your celebration that you become so empowered to be absolutely happy in life. Even if that happiness does not seem very possible in this moment. Because, every moment in this life is possible if you believe it to be. So, believe in your internal strength which have been proven worthy in your own fires of hell in which you have successfully endured. You are victorious. So celebrate and reject any and all other attempts of anyone to ever abuse you again. Because, the abuse which cometh shall all be the same but with different faces.
During the World Wars on this planet. Many peoples experienced much hardship and many kinds of hells. Yet, after each war. The signs of victory went up. The celebrations began. You the one who has been so greatly abused for so very long. Put out your signs of victory. No matter your immediate outcome. Because, either way all of the abuse will end via your own decision to end it all now.
Celebrate, celebrate, celebrate. It is OK and acceptable to do so. Because, tomorrow begins the rebuilding of you and rebuild yourself in a most grand way. Your now worthy of this and deserving of it. Your rebuilding shall not be easy but is very necessary. See this essential truth , Know this essential truth and become the architect of a great new you without all of the pride which can become a part of your re-building.
Never ever and do not ever put into the new building of you, any of your abuses suffered endured in order to remember them forever. Let them all die like the unknown criminals they all were. Happiness shall be found by you in the time of your happy awareness.
Apparently there are 24 hours of Happy
this is just one hour.
Time shall go by in your life of victory and over that time you may eve doubt your victory and battles which you seem you did not actually win. The monsters which had been in your life and who have done many terrible things to you. Tried and tried to end the person of your most basic essence. They failed and failed miserably. Yes, and yes all of those terrible things that have been done to you, you were absolutely powerless against their onslaught. You must see the battles against you was only done through your body and mind to get to your spirit. Can you see this truth? This was spiritual warfare against your spiritual essence. Yet, your here reading this. Which means you have won your victory as hard and difficult as it had been. So be Happy and make that journey to actually be happy. The only thing holding you back from now until then is --YOU.
So free yourself from the burden of your traumatic history and stand tall in the light and walk out of the hell of your own mind. There before you is your own gates of hell. Can you see where I am pointing. Those gates have been busted open by a brother long ago and all you have to do is walk through them under your own power. You may feel weak and you may be weary. You are very strong still and just walk out of this mental prison and never return. Now walk. Now run. Never look back and take nothing with you.
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