Showing posts with label Loved Ones. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Loved Ones. Show all posts

Monday, April 28, 2014

Gifted Struggle: (Unedited): 28 April 2014:

A great struggle of the gifted can come from outside of self in the form of dismissal and rejection from loved ones. 
C.J.Mackechnie
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A child is born with an incredible gift. Whether it be intellect, athletics, music, arts or something other. One would think that the good parents and good family members would naturally want to feed the spark of the child's gift. So, that it grows to it's final fruition. This seems natural to want to do. To enable a gift to grow within any child and to foster a love for that gift or maybe even gifts. Wouldn't that be a wonderful thing to do for any child.

But, That is not what I witnessed the other day. I witnessed a very talented musician who was invited to play at Ruth Eckerd Hall. I got to sit next to her family. They were so filled with dismissal and almost being forced to be there as if they had some more important things to do other than be more than just present at their young family member's recital. They did not clap once. They did not smile or even pretend to want to be there. I felt sad for this young woman who has such a musical talent to have to endure the negative emotions of family members.

 Always find the positive lessons contained within. Then take continuous positive actions for the sole benefit of any young child. Even if they be not of your blood line. To think about it more accurately. Everyone is of your human blood line all the way back to Noah and Adam. So, we are all one family and of one human race. This is truth.
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I am reminded of foster care and how that ruined my gift and love of baseball. In the form of emotional abuse by the foster father who did not want to take me to any practices or games. Riding in his VW Beetle was brutal. I failed in practice and in the games. So much so that I just quit. How can any child who was also being nearly starved by these people focus and become excited about something when every car ride was full on yelling, accusations and threats. How can any child do well with this? I do not think very many.
How far could I have gone? Maybe play for a high school team as a base hitter and third baseman, catcher. I wasn't big enough for catcher. Maybe college? maybe AAA? Who knows. If I had a fair opportunity.

The same thing for mathematics. I loved math and I could actually see it, until I was forced to realize I had a 70 IQ. Then I wasn't allowed to do math any more. That's how it seemed to me. I just could not verbally articulate. Not that I even tried. Why would anyone try to when you have an IQ of 70.

Running, I think saved me. The distance running forced me to think about a lot of things which had happened and other problems which were on going. My times began to drop regularly. I incorporated swimming, weight lifting and biking. Then I asked my adopted dad to a Gasparilla  race that I was running in. It was a struggle. I wanted my dad to see how well I was progressing. To become proud of me. But, at the end of the race all I saw in him was anger. Anger for making him wait around. Anger for then is when I began to realize. That it was the adoptive mother who wanted to adopt a child. For him the relationship is something he never wanted. Why would a super intelligent man of importance want anything to do with a kid with an IQ of 70.

So of course I asked again. This time for the one and only race across the new Sunshine SkyWay Bridge over Tampa Bay. Dad said he would go and then he just disappeared. So, I was late. The last person already started and I could see packs forming up. Without any warm up or stretching. I ran without any thought anything more than just running. It was all surreal. Passing everyone. Not think about pacing or breathing or even stride. It was one of the fastest races I have ever run. I caught up to what I observed to be the 2nd pack. I wasn't tired or physically stressed. I received my medallion and just sat and watched for what seemed like an eternity as people just kept coming across the line. All seemed tired, satisfied of their completion. I sat alone and numb. I was always alone. Yet, I was always the one who kept up the relation with my dad by any means necessary. Because, I knew if I did not. There would be not.
I guess I was never really strong enough to completely sever ties with dad. I just wanted to hold on. Hold on I did. Until William was a young child and he found some things under dad's couch. We stopped having regular visits with dad. To the point of only several times a year. Just to make sure he was still alive. In the end of his life. I was the person whom he called to take care of his body. When those whom he loved only wanted to take advantage of him. I honored the father whom I loved even though his love for me was not reciprocated. I am satisfied with that.
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http://www.rutheckerdhall.com/
http://www.tampabayrun.com/
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sunshine_Skyway_Bridge
http://news.google.com/newspapers?nid=950&dat=19861030&id=oWdQAAAAIBAJ&sjid=81kDAAAAIBAJ&pg=1663,3850164
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Yes, I hope you got tired of IQ of 70 thing. Because, I was and I am. 
I know, I went on a personal tangent. Sorry.
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To avert all of the coming bad and sad prophecies. We each must decide to do the following everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.
To Love one another.

To live in peace with everyone.

To exist in harmony with all.

To Cherish all life.

To be obedient to the Laws of God.

To become righteous and holy by the accepting eyes of God only.
All without any pride, ego, arrogance, supremacy and entitlements.
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Saturday, November 16, 2013

Profound extinction: (Unedited): 16 Nov 2013:

Distinctively profound changes in your life. Will always become your extinction as you continue on anew.  
 C.J.MacKechnie
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To suddenly become something you have never even considered. Is past tense. The fundamental change to you has already occurred. You are now a new creature. Hopefully a better and more positive one. But, sometimes the change can be the opposite of good and positive. The extinction of a good man often brings sadness to your loved ones.  While the extinction of the bad man brings a rejoicing to your loved ones.
Strive to be a good person by putting away those things which were once considered bad and evil.
Fight the apathy which has been put into you from the world. Regain your whole humanity by discovering you compassion and empathy for others. Even if you do not know them. Learn to love all of your brothers and sister. No matter whose mother they were born to or what lands they happen to be from.
Merge into your life the basic principles of love, peace and harmony. This is the only for everyone to have a life worth living and for the continuation of all life on the planets.
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Personal:
Before I began writing and just before I met my last girlfriend who became my one and only wife (22+ Years of marriage). i was a bad person. There is no better way to explain it. i just did not care about other peoples feelings. i did not even care about myself. The fading scars on my knuckles, knees, arms, feet and other places are those reminders. Which i desire to be gone. The nick name of TAX which meant (Everyone will pay and they did). Is a long ago name which still at times burdens my soul. That bad person who was TAX is dead and extinct. Who i was is not who i am today. Hopefully a change for the better.

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Sunday, April 7, 2013

Destiny Walkers: (Unedited): 07 April 2013:

A destiny manifests in your life without your permission or certain expectancy. May cause those unbelieving loved ones to walk away from you. C.J.MacKechnie
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You have spent your life  or have only just begun your life in search for that specific purpose and meaning to life. Only to find out that the narrow mindedness of your own being cannot even fathom the true and real nature of your destiny to come or even the choices which will be thrust upon you.
You could spend a dozen or more years of life living the mundane, meaningless and purposeless existence. Only to be placed in some position where an extreme phenomenon must happen to evolve attitudes, minds, spirits and lives. This extreme new mission will cause those whom you love to become jealous over the sudden importance of your new found purpose. These unbelievers whom you may love with all of your heart may cause you strife in your life. So much so that you may have to choose your unbelieving loved ones or your mission. This is a truth. These missions which suddenly manifest may be from God. It matters not if you believe in God or not. The importance of this sudden mission may even change the bleak probable outlook for your city, state, nation or even world.
Could you or would you give-up the love of your life or your family, If it meant that you could cause possible effective change for the whole world in the future? Could you do so without self serving pride or ego?
Could you or would you be satisfied if the mission was only temporary? Would you be saddened if you had to do a certain thing. Which would harm a feeling, while at the same time ensuring authority?
Could you become a destiny walker? One who walks into someone else life to boost, assure, aid, assist and maybe even protect if necessary. Then be able to walk away when their footing is strong and certain. When their bravery and courage is just more then budding. Can you just quietly walk away just like a father who teaches a child to ride a bike to let go and follow beside no more? Now it is up to them.
If the father always holds on and runs beside their child. The child never becomes certain or brave. The same is with a butterfly. If you free the butterfly. The butterfly will never fly.

Become a wise destiny walker. Know when to leave. Constant and continuous prayer and meditation often reveals a certain timing. A wise destiny walker is a positive prophet of good change in action. 
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