Erasers End: (Unedited): 02 Dec 2015:

The end of your eraser doesn't mean your pencil is no longer of good use. It does mean however for you to stop making the same old mistakes and depending on your eraser for continually correcting all of your ongoing errors. 

C.J.MacKechnie 

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Can you handle the mind set of not making mistakes, of doing whatever it is you do correctly and perfectly the first time. Well, I write with a pen. I made that decision a long time ago.
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Back to pencils.
I saw it as a way for me to begin bettering myself even before I knew the concept or even phrasing of it even existed. It was a deep emotional need. I saw the pen as a tool for the process of betterment. The pen became that which changed the way I think. No longer did I give myself permission to make mistakes and when I did make mistakes. I figured it out instead of just erasing the error and giving myself the permission that it was OK.
Yet today, The new struggles which vexes me only manifest more and more physical errors.
Today in this modern age we have new digital erasers. They are called "backspace" and "Delete" buttons.
The perfecting of you begins when you think about how you consider mistakes. Do you just erase and forget or do you analyze your mistakes in order not to repeat them. This is a path to perfection.

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Effects of abuse: (Unedited): 19 Feb 2014:

The children and adults who were in the foster care system. Do, have a life of trials ahead of them. It is not so easy to escape the abuses and tortures of their past. Psychologically there can be healing, growth and evolution within each person. Thus, becoming a more profound human being than if they had been raised in a normal family. (Please do not look deeper into that comment). This type of person is rare.

A person who has been so abused and tortured by their own blood family and yet by some kind of focused determination. They become positively more than they themselves ever even thought was possible or plausible for themselves.

The old physical wounds of the past may even begin to show their ugly heads int the future present. Thus, becomes a new fight for their resolve and character. Even if the physical fight may be lost. There will still be much to learn and much to teach.

For myself. I have endured much physical trauma to my brain as a child. I have left trucking because of those lingering effects in which I could no longer manage safely. Especially when driving an 80,000 pound vehicle. So, today, I am no longer a CDL (Commercial Drivers License) holder.

An event occurred the other day in which is having an impact upon my being.

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Leonard Nimoy Respect LLAP: (Unedited): 20 Nov 2014:

I just awoke from a dream of Leonard Nimoy's passing. Of course all I saw was a physical newspaper article that states. "Spock dies or Spock is dead". The iconic actor will most likely be remembered for his Star Trek Portrayal of his legendary character Spock.
This is meant with respect and honor. Mr. Nimoy is my favorite Star Trek related actor's. 
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Lenard Nimoy is sick with COPD
http://www.cnn.com/2014/02/07/health/nimoy-copd/
 
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There is a rumor. That Mr. Nimoy has passed away yesterday 19 Nov 2014. There is zero news about that. The name Lenard Nimoy isn't even trending on twitter. Idiots.
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There is a rumor of he and his partner have split up. There is only one story from an observation of Mr. Nimoy walking alone on his driveway. Sounds like one of those stupid stories.
 http://en.mediamass.net/people/leonard-nimoy/break-up.html

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On 17 Nov 2014: The Nimoy Foundation Junior Board Gives a grant to a foster family and adoption agency. That's cool. I'm a former foster kid twice from two different states and I was adopted.
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LLAP= Live Long And Prosper.
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With respect and honor. I hope Mr. Nimoy's passing is/will be peaceful and surrounded by family members.
I do hope that Mr. Nimoy and the rest of his family and close friends say to one another all of those important things which should be spoken before Mr. Nemoy does pass into that greater and better spiritual life in which we know not of.
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Living Funeral's
are For Everyone

What I call the living funeral is so much more important than the after death funerals.

A living funeral is your last opportunity for you to have that last moment with your loved ones and close friends. This is where you apologize and forgive in a most gentle of ways. This is where you express your appreciation and deep felt "logic" for the one who is about to pass.

In those moments you can express those happy and funny memories/stories so that the elder one can pass with a smile. Express much gratitude.

The living funeral is also for the one who is about to pass. This is your last opportunity for you to ease the minds of those who shall remain. By your own forgiveness and apologies. After all wouldn't be nice to leave this physical world to those who may feel bad and sad at your attitudes for them? Tell funny stories and express funny memories. Especially those things with deep meaning and wisdom. Express your hopes and dreams for those who shall remain. Give permission to those to follow their own dreams and make it a gentle expectation.  Express all manor of love and peace. To do so would mean you shall have a good passing and that those who experience your passing. They shall not be so sad for long. They shall have joy at knowing you and keep those good memories of you in the forefront. Express much gratitude.

Once the passing process is complete. You shall become more a live then you ever were and it can be wonderful.

For those who are suffering from those age related diseases of the mind. The living funeral takes place before the progression of those diseases robs your loved ones or friends ability to understand anything or to even recognize anyone.  So, this living funeral should take place at the or near the time of diagnosis. With respect and honor. You must be delicate. But, for you to say those important things with deep and profound meaning may very well be crucial to decrease the time of your loved ones suffering.
Some people are so spiritually and mentally stubborn. That virtually no disease or even it's progression can limit their stubbornness. Really, People will actually force themselves to live. Until that long lost loved one has arrived at their bedside for that one last moment. For compassion's sake. Soften your heart and make that visit while your loved one is still coherent enough to make a reasonable agreement of forgiveness or apology or even to express their love to you one last time. You should also express your own forgiveness, apology and love as well.
But, this is not only about yours or theirs misdeed. This is also about celebration of a life lived. So celebrate with memories retelling.
If I'm repeating myself. It is because this is important.

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I do hope that all of the media outlets as well as bloggers everywhere. Have and give respect and honor. You have mine.
If you or your group is a fan to Mr. Lenard Nimoy. Then I would highly suggest that you begin to celebrate/award Mr. Nimoy's legacy while he is still living. 
Do you have that important memory of how Mr. Nimoy has done in some unknown way which has changed your life for the better. No matter how goofy or silly you think it is. I invite you to only send your wonderful stories to the official website of Mr. Lenard Nimoy.
Oh yea, Don't go to his house or make any kind of unsolicited personal contact. That's just weird if not a little wacked, psycho, loco, crazy, insane. If you do, I really hope some cop lays those all important knots of logical understanding across your illogical forehead.

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Star Trek

I'm A fan and I married a Vulcan. Yea, I'm Klingon. LLAP sir.

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Early Morning flashback: (Unedited): 17 June 2014:

About  (7A.M.) this morning. Adults Discovered two young children (3-4Yr. old's) walking alone in their night clothes. Rowen/hwy 54 Dollar General parking lot area. The woman from the dry cleaners took responsibility. Another woman was able to get the little girl before she could approach Hwy 54. Saving their lives. An outstanding Pasco deputy already at the dry cleaners next to the Pasco Sheriff's substation.Please pray for these children. It was obvious to me that the little girl was angry. Not scared and not upset. The little boy was scared and remained with the dry cleaning lady as the little girl walked away from adults as she was going towards Hwy 54. She almost made it past the CVS Pharmacy. That is how close she was from the main HWY.

New Port Richey, Florida. 34655
Pasco Square
https://www.google.com/maps/@28.2175402,-82.6936344,227m/data=!3m1!1e3
There have been many deaths along this stretch of Hwy 54 in the last many months.
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This is how a flash back can begin as it has done with me this morning. I immediately remembered and almost being a young child again. Both adoptive parents hung over from a night of drinking and fighting and I often times awoke to the silence of the morning. It is amazing how loud the silence can be. The strangeness of silence, almost unnaturally disturbing. No one to see to my needs or fix me breakfast. Unable to wake them up. So, outside I go as often was the case. Although much older than the two children of this morning. Maybe 6 or 7 years old.  Not to be seen or heard from for hours. They never cared enough to inquired as to my whereabouts. I guess they knew I would be back eventually. This of course would lead to needing money for food and I would take some money out of dad's wallet. I did that when I could other times. I was eating out of trash cans behind the Burger king, Clearwater 4 movie theater and a pizza place down the road on Gulf to bay Blvd, in Clearwater. 
Sometimes i would go to my friends house a couple of doors down to sit with Jeff. Eat cereal and watch cartoons. That was if he was awake and they didn't go out on their boat. Yes, I was up that early and outside. riding my bike around and not seeing anyone awake or outside. I guess I was fortunate enough to live in a good neighborhood and being adopted my a dad who had a good job working with rockets. Dad always had cash. That is what defined our relationship. His cash. I never wanted his cash. Just his love and acceptance. Which i never have gotten. A guy as intelligent as he was to adopt a child for his wife. The paper work on my adoption even said at least a high IQ along with other lies about the biological parents. Those lies made for a good sell of a baby. Dad knew he was deceived in taking this baby with an IQ of about 70.
I remember we had wicker type of furniture for furniture as well as a green recliner chair for dad. I would hide their liquor bottles and beer under the furniture and in other places in the house. They never even realized until one day I saw dozens of liquor bottles on the cabinet counter. I guess this is the thinking of a child. If I hide the liquor and beer they will stop drinking. I even did that with the boxes of cigarettes.
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The early morning travels I went on with my bike. The freedom was exhilarating. Can you imagine a 6-8 year old kid riding a bike from the area around the Clearwater campus of St.Petersburg college to Clearwater Beach, Clearwater mall, Countryside mall, Safety Harbor, Dunedin. Hiding under the railroad tracks under US Hwy 19. Those were my stomping grounds.  I was never even aware of homeless people and some of the dangers that were around. But, I always had that spider sense which would stop me and cause me to alter course. Maybe, That spider sense was really an angel watching over me. When no one else was. I should not have survived my childhood. There is no logical way I should have. Especially, when The adoptive mother tried to kill me many times. But, That was several decades ago.
Today, I have a family with children.
It is never Gods fault for whatever bad and sad things have been done to you. It is always the fault of bad people doing bad things to you. It isn't even your fault. Just as it wasn't my fault. If they had not of adopted me. They would have adopted someone else and all of those bad things to that other unknown child.
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I've done a little research on my adopted dad. If he had accepted a senators invitation to go to a premier military academy after high school. Then he would have never met his insane wife. Yes, Dad was that intelligent. To be recognized as that intelligent by a state politician. He could instantly do any math in his head faster than you could pull out your calculator brains from your techno nerd shirt pocket.  I think when you are born with a profound gift. Maybe, you are supposed to use for the benefit of humanity. Even if your a pacifists.
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Get your hanky ready.
The National Problem with the Foster care system would end when 500,000 good Christian families become foster parents. If that were to happen. The national crime rates and gang populations would go down steadily.
This is not a problem in a few states. It is with every state in the USA and the world.
The pharmacology used against children is in itself a hells prison.
Even if you cant be a foster parent or even an adoptive parent. Mentor a foster kid and not treat them like they will be the Future Criminals of America (FCA). Kids tend to become what you expect of them to be.

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I was born to an unwed mother in 1965 Arizona. Before, I was born,. The birth father wanted my birth mother to go get the problem fixed. In which about a 45 minute drive south across the border and the problem would be solved.
I spent 5 months in the Arizona foster care system. Where I endured some kind of abuse. I assume it is related to the 20/900+ eye sight I had.
Then I was adopted by what appeared to be the perfect family.

I'll write more later. It late tonight.