25 Aug 2014 Flasback: (Unedited):

All of a sudden. There I am in many paces at a single moment of time. All of them based in my own sense of loneliness within this world of many. Even in those places where fun isn't supposed to be so lonely.
Walt Disney,  Busch Gardens.

My adopted dad took me to these two theme parks only once each. In each case. He refused to ride any rides with me. It seemed like I had to drag all through the parks and knew he really didn't want to be there or with me.  How is this important in the grand scheme of things? Just the sense of loneliness I have always felt in life. Not ever having anyone who truly wanted to share a positive childhood with. If you have read some of my other personal notes you may know the rest.

Flashbacks will come and go and it is of importance to deal with each one in a timely and safe manor with a strong and sober mind.
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Sometimes humor just works even if it is from a lizard.
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Sometimes your current life is a lot different then it was. Simply because I choose not to drink, smoke, drug or medicate. In which all of those things would have taken from me the ability to heal from those woes of long ago. Those decisions were that important. To do those things would have inhibited in some way the happiness that I wanted.

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Sometimes you have to just change the way things are to the best you can. Even if your best may not be good enough for your own children and wife. Because, deep down you know they all deserved much more then you could ever provide for them. Such is one of the reason for all of my writings. It is all for them and for the next new generations.
When you have nothing and no one. You just have to do all you can without rest and just hope with all of the hope you can muster that your efforts will eventually work. Even if those efforts are only realized through your adult children and Grand Children.
This is how you combat, confront, conquer any PTSD related events. You must endure them with a sober mind. Is it fun to be drug and or medication free. Nope. It is the best choice for eventual freedom from the bad and sad of your former life. That is also another key. You must choose to make all of the bad and sad, your former life.

So, if that means you need to obtain an education. Then go and get it. Beyond that which you think you need today. Just to prove a point to yourself. That your greater than any minimum standard. After all, You have already survived what truly a bad and sad situation really was. Aren't you that much stronger than the average and normal. So, do not fall into that trap or box of wanting to be average or normal. Your much much more than that. The average and normal may not have the strength or courage to endure or even survive what you have had to in this life. I the writer of this may not have been able to endure or survive your life of woes. So, seek and find solace in that.
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The difference between a spiritual attack and a PTSD. A PTSD is one created by your entire memory of the event. You experience everything. The sounds, The smells, The emotions, The actions, The visions and much more. Sometimes the PTSD can be so intense that somehow you believe you are actually there even though you know you are not. Which brings logical conflict and confusion to your own mind.  You may even confuse others as those who wanted to harm you and take action upon them. The intensity is very high.
The spiritual attack is somewhat different. The demonic spirits which begin an attack upon you are not perfect and thorough in their attack. The simulated PTSD or spiritual attack seems to be much less in the use of complete memories. The entire experience of a spiritual attack is lacking in the sounds, the smells, the emotions, the actions,the visions and much more. The spiritual attack occurs because you have began some sort of righteous journey in life or maybe you are about to decide to begin a righteous journey. So the spiritual attack pieces together all of your memories. In the hopes that you believe these inserted false memories are your own. If you believe, your own brain will or should fill in the rest of the information of their attack upon you. The logical part of your own brain, if you choose to listen to that part will send up warnings that something is odd in some way. That is when you should take the time to just stop, to just pray and to just meditate. Just by doing so. The spirits who are attacking you become embroiled and know of their failure. Because, their attack upon you was purposed to prevent you from continuing on the righteous path and yet you logically resorted to being righteous right then and right now. The essence of a spiritual failure on the fallen ones part. Always know that many of these fallen ones are greatly superior to any human being. Yet, for all of their superiority they failed with you. Your victorious in that one attack.
Then repeat your righteous actions and live your righteous life.
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Free Memories: (Unedited): 25 Aug 2014:

The excitement of knowing the retail value of your families heirlooms is exactly what your willing to sell those memories for. Even if you just give them all away. 

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We have been watching antiques roadshow.  It is interesting how to watch people get really excited about the values of their own families heirlooms and the notion that a limited financial wealth an come from such things. I guess for me I see this as incredibly really insulting. To sell the memories of your own family for temporary wealth. Those ancient things give real tangible/physical meaning to your own families history especially when teaching the importance of what the ancestors had done in their own lives, long, long ago. Even if some of those memories are bad, sad and ugly. They still should be remembered in order to teach those important lessons to the new generations of your family. 
The wonderful successes in your family which have garnered substantial worldly wealth. Are more valuable remaining in the families possession and the stories of enduring hardships in order to achieve them. Is crucial for the young generation to know that achievement is more than possible. So as long as you continue to endure without cessation. After all it was achieved by your family members before you. So, you can to. Except now you can learn from the stories of their successes and failures. In order for you to more easily to achieve your own dreams as you define them.
Without any tangible memories within a families history. The young ones have no guide lines no ancient wisdom to work their own lives. Wisdom taught is often more essential than only knowledge learned. Wisdom brings with it an understanding gleaned. Thus, you have a compete circle for successes potential. That potential is tied directly to the intentions of your resolve and the desires of your heart. 
What does it mean "Even if you just give them away"? It seems like a lot of episodes of Antiques Roadshow. There is always that person who bought this or that from Goodwill or some other non profit thrift store. Some family gave away their family secrets either by willful choice after their family member had passed on. Or they knew not the stories behind those objects of importance. Which makes me sad.
Why? I'm one of those people who was born to a family and then was adopted. Growing up belonging to neither and not sharing or creating any useful memories for long term positive growth in adulthood. Memories are very important to young ones. Even if that distant uncle was captain of some unknown Naval ship. Yea, I saw that US Navy Award box with the absent guns in the display. Apparently the guns were of more importance than the official US Navy awards to those surviving family members. Those memories of achievement will probably never be known or taught to the next generation of that family. Important memories and achievements lost forever to that family. That box sat in a Goodwill Stores office for months. They were trying to figure out how to honorably and respectfully handle it properly.
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Exclusive Persecution: (Unedited): 21 Aug 2014:

Christians and other Christian related businesses will become privately exclusive. 

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This is prophetic. Just as the United States local, county and state police forces becomes more and more militarized as well as the attitudes of those officers becoming more and more aggressively authoritarian in their actions. The American citizenry will begin to isolate themselves from the rest of a very threatening society.
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The overtly evil doers and outright sinner who seeks their right to offend everyone else. They are at this moment and have been for some time. Searching for those very public Christian related business and attempting to do business with them.  All in their efforts to obtain any form of denial in order to publicly humiliate the Christian business and to sue them into societal conformity. This is currently an on going process.
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Can a Christian do business with an overt evil doer and sinner? This is a very important question. Isn't a Christian supposed to offer the path to salvation and then expect a response. If the response to the road of salvation is denied. Then the Christian is supposed to go about their own life and business while excluding those active sinners. Even if those evil doers are their own children and other family members.
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The effects of this. Assuming there are actually enough devout Christians. If the numbers of the Righteous Remnant are large enough. Which seems incorrect especially the word remnant is used.
A form of  "Angie's list" shall be created exclusively for the Christian related businesses and families. They all will begin to come together and form their own communities and restricted business agreements. No person outside of their group will be permitted to do business with them.
They will also form exclusive retail and business clubs in which they only sell to established members. No one who is on the outside will be permitted entry.
This is and will be crucial for the Mormons, Baptists and other Christian sects as they witness the fall of Catholicism and other Christian based religious groups.
Survival is paramount to the Christian. The only way to survive in this age of absolute hatred for the Jew and Christian is for each of them to form up into their own private and exclusive societies. While refusing to participate within any public sector.
It is the Christian monies which is driving the evil doers. The essence of Christian survival is to stop doing business with anyone who offends their religious practice.  The Christians must stop supporting anyone in political offices who are not affiliated with their religious group. When the Christian numbers become greater. Laws must be changed in accordance to Biblical standards.
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Earth Dream: (Unedited): 19 Aug 2014:

If the Earth had a bad dream. Would it be us? 

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Just think about this for a moment. There are ancient unaccepted religious texts that say the Earth, waters and our star pray to God and tells Him what we are doing and have done. And God answers them all back.  So, why not dream.

How can we each cause our Earth to have good dreams? If that is even possible. 
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Animalistic De-evolution: (Unedited): 19 Aug 2014:

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Absolute apathy de-evolves your humanity down to it's most basic animalistic state. 

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This is original.

How far can apathy take humanity to its most basic mammal state of existence? To the point that you live like a pig, exist like a pig and become very pig like. Can you imagine humans becoming like this? Probably not, because an animal who is pig like is no longer a human being.

Cows, pigs, chickens and most other farm animals. Do not really care how and where they eat there basic foods or even how clean it is or if it is even dirty from being on the ground.
Animals do not really care if they walk in their own excrement all of the time.
This is exactly how far humanity can and will fall if the disease of apathy continues on within your own heart.  You become so uncaring that you will not even be aware that you have become a basic animal. Only wanting for food, water and fornication. To get whatever you can get is of the most supreme importance than anything else. Even if you can steal or murder and if you profit from it and you have deemed it right for you then it is right no matter what societal law says. This kind of flawed apathetic logic is becoming more pervasive in society.
Apathy makes you blind and deaf to anything of importance of what is happening in the world which surrounds you. To the point that you become reactionary. Animals are reactionary and do not plan for future emergencies. Such is what happens when any being who has been functioning higher than the basic animals as apathy invades the heart and mind. You de-evolve. You lose your higher state of being. You lose your civility. You lose the bonds of family. You lose your individual identity. Until, you become comparable to that of being just a smarter monkey. Even then, you lose wisdom, you lose understanding, you lose knowledge. Then with each generation of humanity. Their ability to effectively speak becomes diminished to the point when speech is no longer possible.
But, before humanity loses the ability of speech. They will lose their arts, their creativity, their culture, their modernism, their forward thinking.
This is what will happen if apathy pervades all of humanity.
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This is the prophecy of apathy.

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Go and sin no more.

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To avert all of the coming bad and sad prophecies. We each must decide to do the following everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.

To Love one another.

To live in peace with everyone.

To exist in harmony with all.

To Cherish all life.

To be obedient to the Laws of God.

To become righteous and holy by the accepting eyes of God only.

All without any pride, ego, arrogance, supremacy and entitlements.
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Deceiving Creators: (Unedited): 19 Aug 2014:

Creators of war hide close enough to the veils of peace to deceive many.

Creators of hate hide close enough to the veils of love to deceive many.

Creators of chaos hide close enough to the veils of harmony to deceive many. 

Creators of lies hide close to the veils of truth to deceive many. 

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The truth is.
There can never be peace when your in conflict of any kind and in any way.
There can never be love when you hate anyone and anything, no matter who or what it is.
There can never be harmony when your life is full of chaos everywhere even through cause and effect.
The lies and deceptions you believe as truths can never be discovered if you know not to look.
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From Light: (Unedited): 19 Aug 2014:

Beings of the light and from the light. Exude the light from their soul out into the darkness with love, compassion and mercy. 

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Added on 29 Aug 2014.
Beings who are not of the light and from the light must absorb from the light. In which their presence is externally illuminated and deep within the core of their being is a great darkness. C.J.MacKechnie
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