Loose Thread: (Unedited): 06 July 2010:

Tugging on or playing with any thread within the fabric of time and space is usually not a good thing unless your the seamstress.

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Our histories are woven into today's reality. So if your one of those unfortunate souls who had to endure a history full of traumatic bad and sad. You may want to change your past as much as I do. You must know to change or alter your past in any way, will fundamentally change who you are now. One thing is for certain. You will not be the strong and determined person you are now. Those who are survivors of intense bad and sad events, are fundamentally different souls then those who had a life with much fluff. All of those bad and sad memories of your past is very similar to the memories of warriors who return home.
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It doesn't matter if you were born into an awful family or like me adopted into one. I've resolved myself into thinking this. Better for me to have been adopted by them, then for someone else. If this gives you any comfort, then use it. Because, you survived as I have. Your abuse and torture may have been much worse than mine. You survived it all. many of those who are like us do not survive. So, be thankful with your heart of compassion.
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Accepted Entry: (Unedited): 16 Jan 2013:

Your identity and your net worth rating shall be approved and accepted before entry into a shopping mall or any specific store. C.J.MacKechnie

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I saw in this vision 3 things jumbled together in a confusing scene across time and places. The vision was in reverse. I saw a few people in a mall. Modernly dressed may have been a cool day. I saw pairs of people standing in their designated positions with phony smiles. I saw this as a security measure. Employees for each mall store were standing in their door ways. Almost in parade rest or a position of attention. Two people at the door front indicated to security that no one was inside.
Then time flowed backwards.  I saw a series of three things. All mixed together and all flowing backwards in time.
1). Loiters.
                           I saw a great many of saddened and depressed people wandering inside of the malls. Not buying anything and only inside the malls to stay out of the weather. I saw some buying sodas, but there were many filling up bottles at the water fountain. I saw fights break out over who took to much of the cold water.

2). Mob robbers. (Flash Mob Crime).
                                          I saw gangs of people using the technology for their own selfish desires to rob stores in coordinated attacks. There is an evolution to this new crime wave. In which the sophistication also evolves as well as the cruelty. What has already begun as the robbing of convenience stores evolves into the use of weapons, beatings, murders and absolute destruction. Threats and murders of business owners.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bHyug2PvpB8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wNSTSrfQgc8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ayu8bQdZx8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MpJeIMAe9YQ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vuzBYaWpjc

3). Terrorism.
                                   I saw terrorism. The evils of the Tet Offensive manifests it's evolution upon innocent mall goers and shoppers everywhere. The millions of enemy combatants which have lived in quiet peace among you. Have been ordered to go in their own chosen way to kill and to destroy as they see fit. The end of civilized society begins. But, if civilian forced disarmament begins within the USA. That is the first real day. As the forces of the world and the UN will be invited into The USA to aid and assist in policing activities. Since, the majority of America's forces are abroad. The military take over of the USA will happen with minor destruction to the primary infrastructures.
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Flash Mob Robbers. 18 Jan 2013
What do you expect from the young of today. When they are taught that there is no GOD. Then all of the laws of GOD no longer apply. Which means all of the laws of your country which is based on God's law no longer is valid. When there is no GOD then the customs of any civilized society ends and the law of nature is renewed. Which means the strong is right. The meek shall become prey and are consumed in a violent fashion. All concepts of right and wrong become like vapor and the law of what is right for me is the dominant law of all. The whole of your country shall become extinct. The wealth of your country shall leave quickly. The genetics of your superior intellect shall devolve down to a feral animals impulse. But, GOD shall replace the people with those who will become HIS next great people. A people who will be Godly and Righteous.
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Loiters. 18 Jan 2013
The loiters were the homeless, the jobless, the hopeless. All they wanted to do is get out of the weather. Unable to afford water, electricity. They search for refuge. A place to just go to the bathroom. Some do have enough for a single meager meal or a soda to be shared. Just a place to go. After all the churches doors are only open on Wednesday night and twice on Sunday.
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Terrorism. 18 Jan 2013. (this part is a re-peat.)
It's all a part of some plan. The primary infrastructures of the USA is untouched. The industry, The transportation, The utilities and related all seems to be untouched. While the Tet offensive is directed towards the civilian population. The shopping centers, The churches, Entertainment centers, Sporting events, schools, businesses, hospitals, and homes. All in one day and then continues on. millions dead in a single day. Those who are the most helpless or unsuspecting seems to be the individual targets. Such as a law enforcement person parked in their police car out of view. A medical nurse wearing her uniform away from the medical centers. A military family with a military parking decal on their vehicle.
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19 Jan 2013:
Between now and the time of these extreme security measures to take in effect. Malls and shopping centers shall become dangerous places. The danger and threat level will progress into events of beatings, murders and then destruction. This is an open ended comment in which all of these dangerous events is dependent on human choices. There will be a ratcheting up. To become the YouTube extreme.  Evolution and one up man-ship will be quick via video outlets such as YouTube.
The only slow evolution will be those terrorist who are affiliated with the Tet offensive order. The terrorists will be begin to separate and disappear from one another. Some will even move their entire families to what is deemed safe locations. During the time when the terrorists have separated from one another. Then will begin to be easily seen in places, where they have not been in regularity. They will hang out in all of the various kinds of perimeters. They will not be customers, but just sit in community places and just observe.
A documented empath can and will feel their hatred and heart for murder coupled with an excitement. This contradiction of intentional emotion is a key for an empath to focus on. For Instance and for the empath, this will be like walking outside of a zoo caged animal and then walking by another and discovering a cage is open. A law enforcement agency and politicians need to enact laws for security officers to carry audio and video recording devices on their shirts. To be paid for by the security agency. To be stored information at the end of each shift for a time of about 2 weeks. Why, Because during any terrorist attack. The poor helpless security guys will probably be killed first. Then the recording devices can and may have pertinent information for investigating law enforcement agencies to use. To ascertain who are or is the bad guys. This is really important. The helpless security officer will lose their life. But, the information which may be intact upon their corpse. May still be of use to save innocent lives and be used in a courtroom. This is about saving innocent lives at the cost of losing one.
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Added on 06 Aug 2019:
Two mass shootings in less than a day and all in public places. The shootings will pickup and the people will begin to see exactly who these people are. These extremists on the right and on the left are exactly who they are. They are nut jobs who have lost the ability to reason. The delusion that these people suffer from is from God as God even said He was going to send a strong delusion and I believe He has. 2 Thessalonians 2:11. Link below. I tell you the truth that both the red side and the blue side all spread lies and deceptions about the other. To the point that those who are not stable or strong minded lose control and deeply desire to take matters into their own hands. So is Fox news and their ilk responsible? So is CNN and their ilk responsible? No, because they each have the same owners. Go and follow the money yourself. Fox News is like Pepsi and CNN is like Coke or are those color schemes backward?. Then believing that your gonna lose weight by drinking a diet soda. That is the lie and deception. You know it is a lie and yet you freely choose to believe the ongoing deception.
Corporations like Walmart must be able to protect their customer base or the customer base will disappear. But, this is what will happen. Corporations like Amazon will eventually take the retail market lead. The civilian population will hide themselves in their own homes more and more as more and more fear takes control over their minds, hearts and spirits. Who is the author of fear? satan. Link below.
Did you read the above content. I'm about to go read it myself once again. So what I write now is about now and not about six years ago.
I see metal detectors in place and then unused. I see hidden security people literally buried into the walls. Yet, come out when a threat is presented. I see homeless people making problems for all manner of retail establishments. New anti homeless laws enacted.
Then comes the DNA Identification Process laws. Because, to many people are taking advantage of the system. To many families have multiple identities and receiving multiple social entitlement monies. To many poor people going into stores to cause thefts. So in order to gain entry. You must prove your identity and net worth. 
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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2019_El_Paso_shooting
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2019_Dayton_shooting
https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=2+Thessalonians+2&version=KJV https://www.openbible.info/topics/satan_causing_fear 

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Added on 26 June 2023: 

Retail thefts and retail violence seem like they are becoming a common occurrence. 

As the evolution of these crime sprees continue to grow and evolve. Physical brick and mortar retail stores will be forced to take more and more drastic actions. Such as restricting entry or exit from retail establishment which is just now beginning to occurring. Eventually, retail stores will move out of the highest crime ridden areas and they will most likely walk out on their real estate mortgages and rental leases. As fewer and fewer retail stores remain open in the worst of areas. Their crime problem will only get worse as they are the last ones to be still open. With the exit of retail stores. There will be a lack of jobs and a lack of those necessity items which we all need everyday. A migration of people will happen out of those areas and many of them will be the bad people as they move to those places which will seem like easy pickens for crime. I wrote the original part in 2013. Even back then I did not keep up with the news and had to do research on what I thought I was seeing. 

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I still do see a continued evolution of the retail space. I see that the bulk of each retail store customers will buy what they want on line and pay for them. Then they will have the option of pick up or delivery. The pick up option will become the new place for robberies and vehicle thefts. As people leave with their products this is when they will be robbed of their newly purchased items assaulted and sometimes killed. Once your outside you will be fully responsible for anything which happens to you. The bad people will follow the retail store delivery drivers and rob, assault and maybe kill them as well. The customers who do receive deliveries they will become targets of home invasions which will involve assaults, rapes and killings.

I still see that eventually the customer will not be allowed past the pick up area or what is known as the check out area of today. The big box stores will just close up their stores before possibly reopening them back up under their own new self defined retail models.

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What do you think which happens to a nation when you forbid the teaching on how to live a good life. This is what happens when you make the teachings of The Holy Bible illegal. 

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Expectant Reply: (Unedited): 29 Dec 2012:

Your spiritual awakening begins. When you take the time to simply greet GOD and wait for an expectant reply. 

C.J.MacKechnie

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 It is not enough to only pray. To only say what you want to say to GOD and then end your communication with Amen Amen. I have met many Christians who have had no direct contact with GOD or any real knowing of any communication from GOD in any manor, for decades of being in the faith. Even with faithful daily prayers, meal prayers and group prayers.
 I ask you this and it is this simple. How do you greet your parent, sibling and/or friend? Assuming your relationships are healthy, with honor and with mutual respect. This is the same way you begin to speak with GOD. Just say hello and wait. Actively listen with a quiet mind. This is respect. The same kind of respect you give to your family member or friend when they are speaking to you. You don't think of other more important things like the sporting event or shopping or getting a hair cut or shoveling snow in Florida. OR DO YOU? (I'm still working on that one). If you disrespect your own family and friends in favor of the big game or any other trivial reason. Then you may already have your answer as to why you have had no real contact with GOD, No real direction from GOD, No real signs from GOD and no real miracles from GOD.
Prayer is you speaking to GOD.
Meditation is you listening to GOD.
This is critically important to understand. The entire Christian faith must fundamentally change in this regard. Because, Prayer without meditation is disrespectful just as you talking to your spouse and then refusing to take the time to listen to their response. Even if it is only a hello. 
A Christian is supposed to be like Jesus, walk like Jesus and perform miracles like Jesus. In today's world there is virtually none of it. Why? Well, It is the very first thing we all have been taught and it is prayer. But, We have only been taught a part of the communication process with GOD. Just as Jesus spoke directly with GOD. So can you when you become the son or daughter of GOD and brother or sister to Jesus. You do not need an intermediary. 
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:WARNING: If you begin a complete prayer life. You begin to learn how to silence your mind and patiently wait. You will have a knowing of GOD and everything else (scary part). Then the sins you enjoy in secret will become realized by you and that they were never ever secret. Including the sins of your own thinking.
:WARNING2: The gifts of Jesus will begin to manifest in you as intended by GOD and without warning. If you do not learn the disciplines necessary to work the gifts chosen for you. Then they will become like curses to you. Because, In the truth of the gifts. They are not meant for you. They are meant for those who are in need. You are just the holder of the gifts and are responsible for them, even though those gifts are NOT YOURS.
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Fires midst: (Unedited): 14 Oct 2012:

When in the midst of fires fury. The sparks origin isn't important at this time.
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When your surrounded and engulfed by the fires torment. This is not time to assign blame or guilt. This is not the time to self create a string of excuses. This is also not the time to curl up and die, or cry, or quit, or surrender, or just give up or give in.

"Be your own Hero and save yourself"

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Wait not for a hero, a rescuer or any other life saver.
Stand up. Stand firm. Face the fires fury. Confront and conquer all that which troubles you. Adapt and overcome all that which binds you. Assume no other option. Do so like Gandhi, like Jesus.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mohandas_Karamchand_Gandhi

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Go and sin no more.

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To avert all of the coming bad and sad prophecies. We each must decide to do the following everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.

To Love one another.

To live in peace with everyone.

To exist in harmony with all.

To Cherish all life.

To be obedient to the Laws of God.

To become righteous and holy by the accepting eyes of God only.

All without any pride, ego, arrogance, supremacy and entitlements.
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Neither Zero: (Unedited): 21 Dec 2011:

Zero resides in that place which is neither positive or negative.
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 This is also a place and a non-place. Where all of the logical supporting mathematical structure exists for all of the real and not real universe and universes. Do you get this. Because it is all flowing with stagnancy and frozen with movement. All at the same time. Weird. Then it responds and not responds to your intellectual attention.
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Random Note form of thinking. I may edit and add and delete as i think more on it. Which may take years. 
The word use of zero is that something which I cannot perceive as something to be. So out of the nothingness of my own mind. I call it zero. A common thing, place, state in which all is expressed into something from that we/I can only perceive as nothing..
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Added on 25 Oct 2015: Zero Point notes.
The energy release of sub-atomic level objects may/will have enough luminosity to be faintly reflected by zero point structures. Which may be seen. Originally declared of some kind of anomalous artifact/errors within the sensing equipment. It will be disregarded for a time. The distorted images will need to be stabilized with an eye in regards to time.
Since all things are intellectual representations of the zero point structure. All of the information is in constant, ebbs and movements. While the zero point structure is unmoving and is unaltered by any time related artifacts.
For Instance:
The Earth rotates on an axis at it's own speed. The Earth revolves around it's own central star at it's own speed. The solar system revolves in a descending orbit around a black hole powered galaxy. The galaxy moves and is influenced by another galaxy in which they are both moving in their respective mutually confused directions within specific ebbs and flows of the unknown and not discerned dark matter fluid state. What ever that is. Which may just be unintelligenialized matter. or matter without specific energies of specific frequencies or intelligence.
So every zero point structure only appears to be speeding by all that there is represented. Never to be seen again. In fact it is us which is speeding by the motionless zero point structures.
All the while the zero point structures remain motionless, timeless, matter-less, gravity-less, and many other lesses that I know not about. Except for apparent contractions and stretchings of every individual zero point.
Since all things are representations of the perfect dimensional math of all zero points. The power which can be tapped into may not be available as mentioned in many different science fiction shows like Star-Gate SG1. Because to tap into and take something out of it changes all of the math and zero will no longer be an answer. So, I do not think there is infinite power available.
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Stretching and compressablity is a capability of the zero point structure. This occurs in all dimensions, possibilities and times. Every zero point is interconnected with every other zero point any where, every where, every dimension, every times.
Everything perceived within this dimension of what we call space time is a fluid and flowing expression of intelligent information.
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A certain energetic particle which encounters an energetic wave in which the certain particle shares zero/no" energetic or vibratory identity/relationship with. Both the wave and particle will act as if nothing was encountered. If that singular particle was associated with it's own wave. Then the two distinctly different waves would simply pass through one another without every having any kind of reaction.
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Added on 26 Oct 2015: Zero Math Time Notes:
The formula for linear time must be fluid within all things. Time can be both compressed and stretched.Which may feel like within the human mind as time has been quickened or slowed. Of which those perceptions may also be a simple bored or excited mind.
A generalized time related formula should/must be included in every other formula. The passage of linear time can be perceived by living beings. In the form of growth, age and antiquity.
The mathematical representations of time must of should be incorporated within every 2 dimensional formula. Which is to be merged with other directly related formulas. Within a certain exact space.
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Everything which has a specific motive force in a defined direction. Shall have both a forward pressure front and a receding negative pressure wake.
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The connectivity of all math formulas must evolve out of flat two dimensional representations and into multi-dimensional representations which is fluid in time.
Every known and unknown formula shall be interconnected in a mutually agreed point in exact space. in which the absolute answer should always be zero.
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The human mind cannot quantify the finite number of zero points in all of dimensional space. For there is a very specific point for every dimension. Within 1 square inch of space can be A number infinitely greater than the grains of minute sand in a great desert.
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The interconnected formulas remain unmoved. While the quantifiable intelligent information is what moves.
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Just as a star continuously emits an incalculable number of photons of light every microsecond. So to is the similarities as to the number of math formulas connected to every single point in any dimensional space.
The variables within every single math formula which are all connected to the structure of zero point foundation. Shall always be in agreement and equal to zero.
As quickly as all of the individual photons of light exits the star. So do the variables change. This can be seen as waves within every individual formula.
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Every star in it's own vastness. is very similar to the mathematical singular point of zero. Where as every photon of light is an individual mathematical formula.
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Oreo Time: (Unedited): 01 Oct 2012:

All that a common person needs to know about time and how time works is in an Oreo cookie-double stuff. Really...
Imagine for a moment that you are outside of space time. All that is, was and still is, is occurring all at once.
All of Space time is contained within a single package of Oreo cookies. Multiple universes are just like Oreo packages placed in cardboard boxes used in shipping and transportation. All of space seems to be dark and cold. So, to is the refrigerated trailers used in hauling Oreo Cookies. This is all very logical.
Our universe is like a single package of Oreo Cookies. Where space and time happens in a linear manner. Upon opening the package of Oreo's the first thing you notice is the wonderful aroma of the collapsing Oreo Universe and scores of life being extinguished. Then you see all of the Oreo's arranged in separate individual rows. Thus, you can see all of the different galaxies that is all neatly and organized in harmony.
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Boring Scientific Information that gets in the way of serious Oreo Science. 

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Time
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Time_complexity
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spacetime
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Universe
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Parallel_universe_%28fiction%29
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Multiverse
http://www.manage-time.com/linear.html
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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oreo
 http://youtu.be/rJ8JZMtsqtk
http://youtu.be/qhyK8Ru5y88
http://youtu.be/x9S-2hR1wdM
http://youtu.be/J6BHD0myL14

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Time is very interesting. When you do more than live in the present moment. All of the present moments of time become interconnected. When all of the present moments of time become interconnected. Time becomes two dimensionally nonlinear.

We as human exist in linear time. We each have our individual beginning and ending. As we focus on the only aspect of time that we exist in. We can connect all aspects of our existence with a very present time mindset. So just like how we can know what has happened in our past. We can know about our future. If you do not like your future change your present into what you want your future to become.
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Tolerated Funerals: (Edited): 23 Sept 2012:

The family who only tolerates one another during family funerals will all be together forever in the afterlife.
C.J.MacKechnie

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The family who can't stand to have any sort of daily relationship with one another will run to the side of a deceased loved one. This confuses me to no end.  How is it suddenly important to say goodbye, or to apologize for all of your misdeeds now? Those things were of absolute importance when they were still living. It is important to have daily living funerals with all of your loved ones so that way if a tragedy happens everyone will be at peace. Go and apologize right now to all of your family members whom you have offended and make active and continuing amends. Forgive your family member in your own privacy and re-establish communication with them. Your family is supposed to be the ones on your team. If your lifestyle is in error, repent and flee from your wicked ways. If you're under the thumb of addictions, tell everyone and seek help.
If your sins have already destroyed your family, do not seek and do not have any other lovers until you have unsolicited permission from your adult children and only if there is no hope of returning to your "X". If one child or the "X" says "no" forever, you will then know the degree of pain and suffering you have caused them. C.J.MacKechnie
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:THE LIVING FUNERAL:

A loved one is about to physically die and transition into the afterlife. This is the final time to celebrate their life. So declare the joyful and somber toasts. This is the time for the telling of remembered stories of old. This is the time to laugh and cry. The time to proclaim your love. The time to ask for forgiveness and to say you're sorry for ALL of your misdeeds, even if they were many decades ago. Offer your loved one your blanket forgiveness.

Let them know it is alright to go and to freely go without any reservations. 

It will be the duty of the responsible and wise family member to get all of the relatives to practice the living funeral. Each one offers an outward verbal prayer, all holding hands together. All hugging and all crying. All together as a whole and united family.

There may be fears. This is very understandable. This may be difficult to understand. Even though you are living in the here and now, and you may even still live for a few more decades more, it is possible for you to be with your loved one in the afterlife at the exact moment they pass from this time. Remember this? I'm paraphrasing. Everything which has been created, has already begun and has already ended and is already continuing on. This is a simplified version of how time works in the third Heaven. In other words, we each are being born and are living and have died, right now. In this very basic understanding of the perception of time, you can be with your loved one as they pass and yet still be alive in this here and now. Prior to their passing let them know you may appear to be older than you are now, so do not be confused. Then offer your hand to them and walk into heaven together.

When the time gets very close, your loved one may begin to see and hear things. It is OK. It is either real or not or both. Ease their mind. Tell them it's OK to confide in you with what they are seeing or hearing, so as to logically ascertain the reality of his/her body's ending. Tell them they will be OK. Reassure them always even when it is tough for you. Your loved one may not be able to speak of what they hear or see. This is because of the drugs or it is not for you to know. This too is OK and is not intended to offend you. The "not for you to know" is for your overall protection. That is OK as well. What is important is to be loving, comforting and present in this sacred gift of life's transition and continuation.

When the body becomes quiet, the heat of the hands gone, each of you verbally say your farewell, your love, instructions for them to continue into heaven through the light. They can see and hear you. They will not be sickly, weak or tired. Their aches and pains will be gone. They will be with you. In case they have some confusion, your verbal instructions will hopefully set them straight on course to their continuation of life.
C.J.MacKechnie

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To avert all of the coming bad and sad prophecies. We each must decide to do the following everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.

To Love one another.

To live in peace with everyone.

To exist in harmony with all.

To Cherish all life.

To be obedient to the Laws of God.

To become righteous and holy by the accepting eyes of God only.

All without pride, ego, arrogance, supremacy or entitlements.
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Continued Evidence: (Unedited): 15 May 2010:

After every darkness there will be light. The life cycle of all of creation is evidence of the perpetual continuance of all. 

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The darkness of death can be very disheartening. You the survivor may even feel much despair and have thoughts that somehow you could have or should have done more. Please know. That how everything is in your here and now is as it must be. You are who you are because of all of the things which happened in your life's history. Take nothing away and remain who you are now. Become who you should be through your decisions and actions today.
From the pains of death is similar to the pains of birth. After of which is continuation. There is always continuation even in after death. Which is the beginning of the after life. There is always continuation. Can you find solace in this? Probably not right now. Maybe eventually?
I can only tell you and relay to you what I know to be true. From the darkness of death there is always a transition into the light of renewed life. The darkness should not be feared. Especially when you are already clothed in light.
Think about this.
Even though your loved one has gone from this linear time line. You can still be the one to welcome them into the heavens. How? This is the science of time. In the Heavens. All that is-is beginning, is on going and has already ended. So, when you pass from this life. You can then go to any time of this worlds life. So, this means that you can be there when your loved ones passes from this life or when they were born into it. Why and how? Because you are already there. Just as you were already there before you were born and will be there again after your bodies death.
Just know they are OK. You are OK and its always going to be OK.
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Logically Incomplete: (Unedited): 21 Aug 2012

All of the logical and scientific formulas known to man are incomplete. 

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The famous E=MC^2 is in fact a working partial formula. The rest of this base formula is also a part of other formulas. All of the logical and scientific formulas known and not known to man are individual components of the grand universal formula. The most common of all logical universal symbols is a symbol which attaches all other formulas to one another in a logical fashion. The symbol also prevents the placement of a non related formula in a wrong position at the wrong time. 
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Loser: (Unedited): 17 Feb 2007:

A man may be born who spends his entire life never winning anything, never finding success, and never tasting greatness. Then in a single moment in time which will never repeat itself. He has to make a choice, that really isn't a choice. Sacrifice the self so that another may be saved. Whether he survives or not. That split second will transcend all time. He will be remembered far longer than any gold medalist winner or world record holders. 

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Time Compressions Waves: (unedited): 29 March 2007

Although we as humans would like to believe that time is uniformly constant. It is not. There are periods when time seems to pass slowly and other periods when time passes rather quickly. When a planet, solar system, galaxy passes through a period when time seems to go by slowly. There will be a tendency for calm and relaxation. When a planet, solar system, galaxy passes through a period when time passes by very fast. The life on that planet will become stressed. When life, animals or people become stressed, they act irrationally. The passing of time can be artificially manipulated on purpose or by accident. 

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 NOTE: The word "period" is a non descriptive word about natural or artificial events which can alter or change the speed of time. Since we as humans are in time. The change in time speed is not seen by humans. Although the emotional human response may be a human warning device. Much like a warning light in your car.

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Fogs Freedom (R-Edited) 25 march 2012

In the darkest times of your life, when danger's death surrounds you, keep your head and do not fear the fog as it envelopes you like a protective blanket. For the fog will confuse that which lurks for you, enabling you to find the light of freedom and safety.
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As a child I was often locked in a closet. This was usually after getting beaten, sometimes knocked out. This went on for about 5 years. Then I was thrown into the small closet near the front door of our Clearwater home. I can still remember in the beginning where I would go into an absolute hysterical  panic in the darkness with those unknown things touching me everywhere. I would pass out on the floor with my face close to the door trying to breathe air. Over time, I came to realize that it was a place where no one was hurting me. I came to realize this was a safe place. Once my adoptive mother realized that there wasn't any psychological effect in locking me in the closet anymore, she stopped the practice and began other, more subtle psychological attacks. 

Any where you are or any place you are there may be fog. That fog may be easily seen with your eyes or may be from the absence of reasonable and logical thinking processes. Just stop for a moment and get your brain back in order. Start thinking reasonably, logically and objectively. Yes, those three words are similar but they are also very different. Either way, become sensibly aware of the inherent truth around you. Am I damaged? Am I still being hurt? Free yourself with proactive objective logic and get help. Immediately. As in right now. ASAP.  

I remember my tree. Yep, it's my camphor tree. I discovered it late one night. It had all of these tentacles and I knew it was a place of great danger. Well, I was the Bat-man on my black Webco bike. So, I proceeded into the darkness and fog of mind to investigate the thing. I knew I was fast and quick. After all, the mom hadn't killed me yet, really. So I protected the bike by setting it down a safe distance away and began a perimeter search to gain a safe entry through the long hairs (tall grass) of this monstrous beast, apparently sleeping. It will never know what hit him. Noiselessly I move through the tall grass and break through the hidden inside perimeter. There it is, a huge hulking creature which in that moment I knew could easily defeat the evil Godzilla-the destroyer of Japan. 

I am so close I could touch it. I stop to listen and heard absolutely nothing. Then I swiftly attack the heart of this great tentacled beast. The maw at the heart of the beast was closed. I sat quietly and fell into a rarely experienced deep sleep. The morning was old and my bike easily seen in the already warm sun. 

I visited my camphor tree often. Slept in it when it was too dangerous for me to be home. I took my last girlfriend there for our first kiss. Nothing ever happened to me at that tree. It is almost like GOD put that tree there as my personal safe place. I recently visited my tree. Many of the branches have been cut away. The cradle in the center of the tree is still there. If you ever visit please pray for my tree and thank it for keeping at least one child safe. 

John
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We were going to the Pinellas County fair in the early 1970's. WooHoo. Excitedly my mom said I didn't need anything to eat or drink. I was hungry and thirsty. I remember that part. I should have been suspicious. But, Dad was going too. I should have been suspicious because he never wanted to do anything with me, or was that be seen with me? Either way is true. I just wanted to be with them. To be together. Mom declared all of her threats, which were going to be real regardless. Going to the fair and riding the rides was worth it.
We got there in downtown Largo, FL. All of the rides could be easily seen. There were happy people everywhere. I remember it was a hot day. They walked and walked fast. I was telling them I wanted a Coke many times. For some odd reason I just could not keep up. Then they were in the crowd ignoring my cries. Then they were gone and I was lost.  It was the whole world who could not keep up with me. Then I could see myself grab a hold of a hand. Instant darkness.
I started to wake up inside of a tent. The nurses were there and needles were in my arm. It was foggy and blurry. My mom and dad came into the tent and the nurses were really angry. We went home and I laid down in the back seat. End of memory.
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I came home from school. Snuck into the house and found my mother passed out in her chair. Her Scotch and water was nearly empty. The ice was still intact, which meant I could watch a little T.V. Channel 44 WTOG in their bedroom. I knew I would be trapped if she woke up angry. I didn't hear her get up. The show must have been really good. Maybe it was Batman. Then there she was in the door. She lunged at me with that absolute look of evil on her face. It was time to run or just fall out of the chair. Headed toward the wrong end of the bedroom, I ran into her walk-in closet. This was not smart as I closed her folding doors behind me and dove into a back corner of the closet. She came in - in a rage. She search and yelled. Moved and kicked boxes. Then began to calm down as she could not find me. I remained perfectly still. She walked out in search of me. I could hear her get very worried. But it was a different kind of worry which did not involve me. I could hear her call for me everywhere in the house, saying all of the doors are chain locked. She made anther drink and went to her pill cabinet. I waited until it was quiet and made my escape to the outdoors. 

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On another day I was yet again in her room watching T.V. I had become so brazen that I knew I could escape her clutches and beatings. She caught me again. This time I ran toward the closet and she was close. I ran across her bed and dove like a quick cat behind the wicker framed couch in the livingroom. It was the kind of couch with four pillows tied to the frame for the back and four to sit on. There is nothing else. Just a frame and pillows a yucky brown and gold with flowery flowers of some kind. I made the quick right hand turn and dove behind the couch and into the frame. She saw me and picked up the entire couch and easily moved it to the side. All the while screaming her very real threats. She didn't see me and thrust the end of the couch forward and dropped it. Proclaiming she had me. She moved to the other wall to get me and I was not there. She got worried when she could not find me. She looked all around for me and still could not find me. I could hear her in the kitchen, making her drink and getting her pills. Then she went into her bedroom and closed the door. I waited a minute and quietly came out of the couch and outside into the daylight.
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Those two escape are just a few that I remember. The majority of the time I was beaten and knocked out. in the beginning I would just come to her for the beatings, then just figured out it doesn't matter.
I remember I had set up my quick exits and opened the doors and windows. It was a beautiful day. Mom was angry for some reason and as usual dad was not around, because when dad was around she would beat on him. I was in the guest room. This was an off-limits room. We had a custom-made bar which was built by my dad and the stereo was there too. I just wanted to listen to the radio (WLCY). Well, I got myself trapped and made it to the hallway. I was at a run when I approached the sliding glass door I had opened earlier. It wasn't open. Well, I woke up in the small closet.
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The Birthday parties. Christmas. Easter and even a Family wedding. They were all very traumatic events for me. Why would I say that. It is because before the each event I was always threatened. Which every time was followed up with beatings and more very bad words. I always did something wrong. I could never do anything right. Ever.
I remember my last birthday party. We were all sitting around a table bout to eat tomato soup. My mom had given everyone their soup and I was last. She was telling everyone how hot it was as she accidentally spilled the hot soup onto my arm. My skin began to roll up into what looked like a bracelet. I vaguely remember some whispered choice words for my mom from the other adults.  I had a cast on my arm for a long time. Was it my fault? Was it her fault? To much time has passed for me to remember correctly. Although, the faded scar still remains on my arm to this day.
When you teach a child about Santa Claus. What is the worst thing you can tell a kid? Think for a minute about the Christmas build-up. For me it was always the threat build-up. Then the beatings prior to Christmas seemed to also ramp up a bit. After Christmas, Everything changed. It was almost like the day was unimportant. Mom and dad seemed uninterested in the openings of gifts. The only gift I got for my Birthday was my black Webco Bike. With it. I had my freedom of escape. I could always get onto my bike which I left under my bedroom window and just be gone into the darkness. Which when it was to dangerous for me to be at home. I was gone, until that fateful day when the Clearwater Police finally caught me. They were never really after me as much as they wanted to make sure I was alive and unharmed. For a kid who did not understand that. The cops were after me.
There I was watching to horrible horror movies at the old drive in theater. I had two speakers on my handle bars. Listening in stereo. Yea, It was cool. The last movie got really gross. Something about eating people with your underarm pits. So, I put up the speakers and Went zooming out of the exit as fast as possible. Across the street was sitting Clearwater police. They never paid me no mind before, But this time. His lights went on. The chase was on. I knew he had no chance in catching me. Because, If I could make it to the woods. I was gone and I made it to the woods. Got into my neighborhood. Very quiet. Made the quick stop to observe the pointed cross of Clearwater Christian Church and then glided down hill to my street. It is very late at night. As I made the silent Left hand turn onto my street. There they were. Several Police cars in my front yard. The K9 dog in one squad car barked and scared me. I began to approach the house and an officer asked if I was me. I said yes. Then he told me to put my bike away and come with him. I sat in his front seat. He showed me his light buttons and tried to impart some wisdom. That today, I wish I could remember. All I knew and was thinking. I was going to jail and all of those bad awful things my mom had told me was absolutely true. It had to be. They didn't go to jail. Only me. That was my first night in Florida Foster Care. Spending part of the night in Pinellas County Juvenile Detention Center in isolation. The isolation room was for my protection. But, no one told me. All see through glass and it was cold.
The very first shelter home was the next morning after court. No one spoke to me that I remember. I guess everyone just agreed that I was to dumb to understand and I didn't. I spent about 3 months in a shelter home. Told to always be quiet. No school. Just silent and alone with another 10 or so kids who were also being silent and alone.
They had a trampoline and we took turns in pairs. So as long as we were quiet as in silent. I received a gift from my dad. An Am/FM radio in which I could listen to WLCY radio. The radio was stolen after about a week and the shelter parents didn't seem to care about it. 
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This section is supposed to be positive and inspiring.
This will grow as I remember other stories of my childhood. They are not very pleasant. No matter what the fog is in your life, the trials and tribulations, there is an end to it all. There always is. For former foster kids, they seem to just exist or live as though all of the abuse and tortures endured are still happening or are about to. Once you are free of your abusers, you are free. Do not go back to those places where you endured all of that, not even within your own mind. Just know that all of the abuse and torture you have endured and survived was never about what you did or did not do. It was never even about you. It was about them, your parents or other family members. It was about those foster parents who did terrible things to you and then blamed it all on you. Yep, even the counselors blamed you. You were always the guilty one. All of that is done and gone. Now, just look up into the sky and know the whole of it is now yours. You are free. You are free. You are free.
Now is the time to plan your future. A good future. Not a future as statistically predicted by the FBI. A future that you plan by your own free choices. I know you probably do not have as much of an education as you should have gotten. But that is alright. Start to get your education right now. Then go to college and get your degrees. Yes, plural. Do not allow your own mind to tell you that you are too far behind and it is impossible or too hard, which is absolutely wrong. You're not going to risk dying just by going to college. Going to school for you will just be mildly difficult to tedious. The hard part is behind you. The impossible is behind you and you conquered it already. You are the victor. As the victor you get to march off in victory. Typically former foster kids become homeless, imprisoned or become a member in the unaccepted cultures of society. You do not have to be any of those things that are a part of those negative cultures. Yes, they will accept you, but you will continue to witness a great variety of negativeness and harmful living, which usually results in poor quality of life and a short life span.
Now is your time to create and make your own future of which you can be proud, a future which will further define to your tormentors just how much they failed in life. You can achieve all according to your own will and intentions. Go forth. Work hard and work smart without cessation. Then maybe you can have that home of your own with a family of your own. When you do, I bet your very own children won't become abused or tortured as you have been.
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