WW ME: Unedited: 28 Aug 2014:

Happiness can begin when you realize that all of the harsh abuses that you have endured have ceased. Thus, it's time to celebrate. You have won your own World War of ME.
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I know the abuses suffered and endured are awful. I do not and am not making light of any of it. But, after any great struggle in your life no matter the outcome. You should celebrate. This is healthy. Even if in your own mind at this moment in time you are at a loss as to why or even how you were victorious.
It is simple and yet so very difficult to explain. All of the abuses you have ever had to endure was never about you. It was always about the abuser. You were just the body present. If it was not you then it would have been someone else. Maybe, someone else who would not have been as strong and as determined to survive as you were.
You survived! Isn't that enough! Can't that be enough! Well it should be enough. Go forth and begin your life, this new life of your emergence from suffering, darkness and loneliness.

You survived and your survival is evidence of your abusers failure. Your successful life to come if you choose to make that effort without cessation. Will be those nails in your abusers coffin of absolute failure. Make sure there are many, many nails. Do so without a vengeful heart but out of your celebration that you become so empowered to be absolutely happy in life. Even if that happiness does not seem very possible in this moment. Because, every moment in this life is possible if you believe it to be. So, believe in your internal strength which have been proven worthy in your own fires of hell in which you have successfully endured. You are victorious. So celebrate and reject any and all other attempts of anyone to ever abuse you again. Because, the abuse which cometh shall all be the same but with different faces.

During the World Wars on this planet. Many peoples experienced much hardship and many kinds of hells. Yet, after each war. The signs of victory went up. The celebrations began. You the one who has been so greatly abused for so very long. Put out your signs of victory. No matter your immediate outcome. Because, either way all of the abuse will end via your own decision to end it all now.
Celebrate, celebrate, celebrate. It is OK and acceptable to do so. Because, tomorrow begins the rebuilding of you and rebuild yourself in a most grand way. Your now worthy of this and deserving of it. Your rebuilding shall not be easy but is very necessary. See this essential truth , Know this essential truth and become the architect of a great new you without all of the pride which can become a part of your re-building.  
Never ever and do not ever put into the new building of you, any of your abuses suffered endured in order to remember them forever. Let them all die like the unknown criminals they all were. Happiness shall be found by you in the time of your happy awareness.
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Apparently there are 24 hours of Happy
this is just one hour.
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Time shall go by in your life of victory and over that time you may eve doubt your victory and battles which you seem you  did not actually win. The monsters which had been in your life and who have done many terrible things to you. Tried and tried to end the person of your most basic essence. They failed and failed miserably. Yes, and yes all of those terrible things that have been done to you, you were absolutely powerless against their onslaught. You must see the battles against you was only done through your body and mind to get to your spirit. Can you see this truth? This was spiritual warfare against your spiritual essence. Yet, your here reading this. Which means you have won your victory as hard and difficult as it had been.  So be Happy and make that journey to actually be happy. The only thing holding you back from now until then is --YOU.
So free yourself from the burden of your traumatic history and stand tall in the light and walk out of the hell of your own mind. There before you is your own gates of hell. Can you see where I am pointing. Those gates have been busted open by a brother long ago and all you have to do is walk through them under your own power. You may feel weak and you may be weary. You are very strong still and just walk out of this mental prison and never return. Now walk. Now run. Never look back and take nothing with you.
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Perfect Complete: (Unedited): Years Ago:

"Possible Repeat posting"

I Am now and always completely healed and perfectly healthy. 

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This is the most perfect and complete prayer, meditation and affirmation. Which has ever come to me.
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Lets break it down.

"I Am"
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/I_Am_that_I_Am

"now and always"

This is time based. Meaning past, present and future.

"Completely Healed"
The healing process is complete.
Does not identify the ailment, disease, abuse, torture, source of suffering or misery. To mentally repeat which causes you harm also reinforces your ownership of it. So stop saying to yourself and to other "I HAVE a headache, MY disease is treatable. Even the word treatable is not a healing. You must change how you think and communicate. Within yourself and outside of yourself.

"perfectly healthy"
The healthy lifestyle is always maintained.
End of ailment, end of disease, end of suffering, end of misery. No aspect of that which has afflicted you is identified or remembered. From here on and moving forward. Do not even address anything negative, bad or sad as what I had or any variation of ownership. It matters not if it is inward or outward ownership. Ending your torment means forgetting it and releasing it from your possession. This is not just about sickness, it is also about abuse, torture and any other mistreatment you have survived and endured.

BEING perfectly healthy means living a life which is healthy. This includes foods, social decisions, cultural decisions,  religious affiliations, political affiliations and lifestyle choices.
If it is not right and correct as defined by the old ways. Then it is not healthy for your physical body and is not healthy for your spiritual body. 
This also includes anything which chemically alters your mind. It matters not the legality, cultural acceptance or social practices. To chemically alter your mind also weakens your physical and spiritual connections for protection of the whole self. So do not take, inhale or consume any mind altering substance.


http://www.esotericonline.net/profiles/blogs/drugs-alcohol-and-the-aura
http://www.assatashakur.org/forum/spirituality-connect-your-center/22204-how-drugs-damage-aura.html
http://www.abovetopsecret.com/forum/thread436704/pg1

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The partial phrasing can proceed anything positive you want or need to express.

"I AM now and always_____________________________________."
You fill in the blank. So as long as you do not add anything negative or harmful. Change the way you think and act. Become positive and hopeful. You can do it. When you begin this new process of thinking. It will be difficult and hard. Especially, when there is so much pain and hurt. Especially, when you may have no memory of ever feeling anything good, ever. The bad and sad may be all you have ever known. Ownership of all of your bad and sad maybe all you have ever had and to put it all behind may cause you much fear and trepidations. It is all OK and so are you OK. This is a spiritual make over of your new spiritual home. Your new spiritual home does not need for you to bring in the trash from your past. The broken and infested furniture of the old. Or anything else which perpetuates any of the sadness you have ever felt.
Most people who have purchased a new home. Become excited of obtaining new and better things for their new home. So it can be for you. When you begin to feel empty and alone inside of your new spiritual home. This is a very good opportunity a positive one. because, now all of the negativity is absent. All of the bad and sad is gone. That emptiness of your new spiritual home is a new and wonderful opportunity. Everything is new and fresh. A wonderful time for your new beginning to begin.

A new line to this. Although these tend to be absent of GOD.
"I can now and always_______________________________________."
"I will now and always________________________________________."
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Devout Journey: (Unedited): 21 April 2014:

The devout and selected will leave the church within the USA. In the beginning of their journey for their new church home. They shall find none. Coming to a point that their church is both within themselves and in their own homes.
Technology shall be used until the government begins to abusively interfere. They shall find one another and become a church with no name, no wealth and no power in the world view. They will worship as they should and live their lives by their free choice to live legalistically. To choose to live legalistically is different than being forced to live under the thumb of laws and being cursed with fires damnation.
All manor of lies and deceptions will be scrubbed from their lives by each of their free choice. The false teachings of religion will also be known to them and rejected. They will become the holy people that GOD always wanted us to be.
A new sign shall be created just for them. A sign which is not real in this physicality.

All of this shall happen just before the great reprobation begins.
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Rain Dance: (Unedited): 27 Feb 2014:

From time to time the rains fall.

This is the perfect time to sing and dance with joy in your heart. 

That this to shall pass. 

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Being a person of abuse. It seemed like I knew when the rains would come or that darkness may occur. Rain meaning torment and darkness meaning unconsciousness. Just as the storm fronts begin to come through I always knew it was about to rain. So did everyone else. This is life and how things generally occur. Then there are those sudden out of nowhere storms that just rush in and they are gone. Like a  surprise death of a loved one. You think everything is OK and then the accident or sudden illness which ends not the way you ever wanted.
In every case most of us continue onward. Some stay with their abuser or dead loved one. Some never come to realize that in reality the abuser is already dead and the dead loved one is more alive than ever. Weird, but seems very true to me. The abuser is doing their best to make the one they abuse as dead as they already are.

It has taken me a long time to realize the truth of being joyful over suffering. Because, Just like the storm shall pass over so to will the suffering. No matter the outcome. I wish I could explain the extreme of that. No matter the outcome there can be great joy. Either way you are victorious. So celebrate in your victory even while you still suffer.

Did you know that being rendered unconscious is the same as dying? Dozens of times and maybe even hundreds of times I have felt this. It is the same to me, although a doctor might disagree with me. As you wake up from unconsciousness while you do not when your dead. or do you? The doctor would be wrong. When your body dies you become more alive than your physical body can handle. As a matter of fact even going to sleep for me is just like dying. Weird.

A new storm of forgetfulness approaches. I can see it coming in slowly. Building in intensity and strength. I sing and dance to the coming storm with joy in my heart. My victory is assured and my legacy is nearly complete. All except for the editing and publishing of the third. It seems I may have been released from writing quotes and only do so because I choose to. I'm thankful and grateful.

I remember a long time ago. A black woman from Abbeville, AL. Sitting on a street corner singing songs of praise to God. No one knew what I knew. She has been with the Angels. While only the religious saw a crazy black woman who maybe drank to much holy water. That is the way it is. Angels can be very powerful. Some angels have the power to turn you on or off, easier than you can turn on and off a light switch. They can even alter your memories. And of course etc. Up close and personal contact with some of these angels can physically destroy your physical body, including your mind. To the lesser degree of not being able to live of the world while living in the world. Such as this woman.
While delivering the ashes of my adoptive father to Abbeville, AL. I saw this woman again. This time she was just a dull buzzing of a medicated shell of a human being. I guess she is now as normal as they can make her. Someone probably thought her praises to GOD were to disturbing to the public. Most likely her safety and well being was a priority. What was the message of those angels? I wonder if anyone actually asked her. Or did they thought she was just plain ole crazy? Would you risk your life right now to be in the presence of an angel? Moses with all of his faults and failings was willing to risk everything just to see God. God saw through Moses ignorance. What gift was given to this woman? or would you call it a curse. Would you have let her die of thirst or starve while praising God? or would you possibly curse her with mind dulling medications as has been done for her own safety and well being? Which is or was more merciful?

I do find it suspect that if someone has been in the physical presence of some of the more powerful angels and yet they can still cope with this blinded reality of this world. I'm not so certain of their truth. There is that whole Moses thing and how God only allowed a small portion of Himself to Show to Moses and how just that tiny sliver affected him. Angels are of course less powerful than God but they still have a similar effect upon the physical state of human beings.
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Expressing love to everyone and everything is a key to a good life.
Being peaceful, both internally and externally is a key to a good life.
Creating and Maintaining harmony within and everywhere is a key to a good life.
By doing all three things by your own free logical choice. Without threats or fears.
Brings about wisdom and holiness. I believe this is something that God wanted for us from the beginning. The purple words below.
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No matter the outcome
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Go and sin no more.

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To avert all of the coming bad and sad prophecies. We each must decide to do the following everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.

To Love one another.

To live in peace with everyone.

To exist in harmony with all.

To Cherish all life.

To be obedient to the Laws of God.

To become righteous and holy by the accepting eyes of God only.

All without any pride, ego, arrogance, supremacy and entitlements.
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Abused Abuser: (Unedited): 25 Dec 2013:

The abuser is solely responsible for all of the anger, ridicule and violence expressed unto the abused. The abused has never been at fault for causing a bad person to act violently to them in any way. C.J.MacKechnie
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Rudolph Meaning: (Unedited): 27 Dec 2013.

This is something which has been revealed to me. It's odd just how I can or we all can sing a song and not even be aware of the meaning. Below is the lyrics from this website.

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/billygilman/rudolphtherednosedreindeer.html




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This is the fictional story and introduction of the Reindeer.This song is all about the conditioning of the peoples minds into blindly following the established authority. The authority can be one or many that which currently exists. The religious, The political, The cultural and societal authorities can all exert their influence upon a single person.

Mind control exerted upon everyone. Because everyone celebrates Christmas or the holidays. So, every child will be tuned in and listening to this song everywhere. Even on Christian media outlets. 
Mind control is most effective on those who are unaware. I hope you become aware. Although acceptance of my stated opinion may be hard for you.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mind_control

You know Dasher and Dancer
And Prancer and Vixen,
Comet and Cupid
And Donner and Blitzen.
But do you recall
The most famous reindeer of all?

You are introduced to the upcoming fictional star of the song. A Reindeer with an obvious difference to his being.

Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer
Had a very shiny nose
And if you ever saw it
You would even say it glows

When Rudolph is introduced to all of the other reindeer. The ridicule, abuse and neglect begins. It seems it is alright to act in this manor with anyone who is different. Even in the cartoon the adult reindeer coach seems  even reject poor Rudolph.

All of the other reindeer
Used to laugh and call him names
They never let poor Rudolph
Join in any reindeer games

 Then and only when the established authority finds a use for Rudolph. Do all of the other reindeer begin to accept and love Rudolph. This only happens after the authority has a use. So in order to be accepted by the authority and by other people. You must be of use to the authority.

Who is the defined authority is in accordance to your own belief system. The political or religious authority. Either way it works for a child to learn and for adults to mindlessly pass along this Rudolph to their own children.

The public proclamation from the authority to Rudolph. An invitation to use your odd gifts and different abilities for the benefit of the authority.

Then one foggy Christmas Eve
Santa came to say
Rudolph with your nose so bright
Won't you guide my sleigh tonight?

Once accepted and invited by the authority. Only then does Rudolph become happy and the other reindeer begin to love and accept Rudolph. All of this can only happen through those who are in the established authority.

Then all the reindeer loved him
And they shouted out with glee
Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer
You'll go down in history!

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Thankful Present: (Unedited): 28 Nov 2013:

Being thankful for what is present now. Is more important than the bad and sad memories of the past you survived. 

C.J.MacKechnie

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 My childhood story may sound bad and sad. But, there are a large number of children who have survived more abuses and tortures than I have. Then there are those children who died at the hands of their evil parents and relatives.
If you are reading this now. You have survived your awful past and stand victorious. Be thankful. Yes, thankful for your past. Because, your enduring strength is proven. Even though you may feel like the damaged victim. You survived it all and hopefully you are now in a safe place.

I am today, very thankful for what I have endured. I am very thankful for my wife and children. I am thankful for the life I have and had. I have experienced much and evolved from all of those negative experiences. This is important. So is the life you have had and will have. I hope you can find the positive in your whole life. Even if it does seem like that golden needle in a sea of golden hay. Your search for the positives in your life is well worth it.All of the abuse and tortures you have had to endure. Was never about you. It was always them, those who did those terrible things to you. You were just the body present.

Everyday is a Thanksgiving. I hope everyone can live everyday of their lives in a joyful celebration.
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Freedom Bound: (Unedited): 22 Nov 2013:

It is impossible for you to experience your freedom, when you continue to refuse to release your broken chains of enslavement, which had bound you. 

C.J.MacKechnie

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To be free. What does it truly mean? If you look below. The definition seems to be only about physical restraint. But, what about mental restraint or spiritual restraint? or coming soon to a life zone near you, genetic restraint?
We have today, mental restraint through legal and illegal chemicals. Restraints through various addictions. Drugs and addictions are restraints and are not something which enhances or magnifies your awareness.
There are also, those people who have been so psychologically traumatized by their past, they continue to live in it. Thus are uncontrollably enslaved by it. Psychologist and psychiatrists of this modern day often time replaced minimize one form of enslavement with a chemical enslavement. Now that person has two and then eventually more form of chemical enslavement. This of course assuming the patient has zero forms of any brain damage which can be seen in a variety of active brain scans.
It seems the old tried and true method of logical reasoning is no longer a useful tool when it is so easy to prescribe a mind altering medication and thus keeping a patient forever. This is an evil marriage. Til death do you part and if you the patient happen to commit suicide. The doctors can claim that they were right all along, you were insane. No one ever questions the doctors and the pills they hand out. Of course assuming there is no conclusive medical test to prove any brain damage. Those doctors should be held accountable for all of the suicides and heart attacks of children who are medicated.
 
Your freedom is your to have right now. You just have to let go of that which is keeping you down. The lies of racism. The abuse and tortures of your past. The failures in your life. No matter what ever it may be. Just let it go. This has been a hard lesson for me to do. To just let it go. Even if it is all I had or all you have. You just have to let it all go. I have done that.
 It was after the realization that all of the abuses, the tortures and etc. They were not my fault or even about me. I was just the body. If my bio-mother had that abortion in Mexico. My adoptive parents would have adopted someone else and that innocent child would have had to endure what I did.
It was also after the realization that all that I had endured was in fact not God's fault. The fault solely lies in the hands of my adoptive parents, certain foster parents, certain shelter home parents, counselors and etc. There lies the blame. This led to the further realization that all of the problems we have on earth are all the faults of the humans who reside on this planet, throughout it's long histories.
God is a wise and loving God. However you name him within your own culture. He will not strike you dead if you commit a sin. Why is that? To be fundamentally brief and very fundamentally basic. So, that we can learn from our own personal experience and to choose correctly next time. So, that we all can learn from our collective history as human beings. So, that we do not become slaves but a spiritually wise people whom the great Holy Father (NOT A CATHOLIC TERM) can be proud of.
It was also another realization. Do i continue to live with all of that finger point or just get on with my life and the lives of my wife and children? Blame was stealing a life worth living from me.

After you let go of all that is and has been holding you back or holding you down. Sit and quietly think about what it is you truly want out of this very short life we live. You must do this away from everything that you know. Find that peaceful and quiet place. A place of harmonious solitude. Just be with yourself. No music either. No books. Just you and you and you. What do you want? Allow that to be your new focus. Hold onto it. Work smart. Work hard. Work without cessation. Never ever go back to that place or those places which enslaved you or harmed you. Look forward to the new life you will earn for yourself and maybe your new family as well. Become both the end of the old and the beginning of the new. Allow you own children to only know first hand what continuation of the new ways of life are from you. Uphold love, peace and harmony. If you do and your children can see the wisdom, knowledge and understanding of those truths. You will truly become the father or mother of nations.
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free

frē/

adjective

adjective: free; comparative adjective: freer; superlative adjective: freest

1. 1.

   not under the control or in the power of another; able to act or be done as one wishes.

   "I have no ambitions other than to have a happy life and be free"

   • (of a state or its citizens or institutions) subject neither to foreign domination nor to despotic government.

     "a free press"

     synonyms:

     independent, self-governing, self-governed, self-ruling, self-determining, nonaligned, sovereign, autonomous; More democratic "a citizen of a free nation"

     antonyms:

     dependent

   • not or no longer confined or imprisoned.

     "the researchers set the birds free"

     synonyms:

     on the loose, at liberty, at large; More loose, unconfined, unbound, untied, unchained, untethered, unshackled, unfettered, unrestrained "the killer is still free"

     antonyms:

     captive

   • historical

     not a slave.
   • able or permitted to take a specified action.

     "you are free to leave"

     synonyms:

     allowed, permitted; More able, in a position to "you are free to leave"

     antonyms:

     unable

   • denoting an ethnic or political group actively opposing an occupying or invading force, in particular the groups that continued resisting the Germans in World War II after the fall of their countries.
2. 2.

   not physically restrained, obstructed, or fixed; unimpeded.

   "she lifted the cat free"

   synonyms:

   unimpeded, unobstructed, unrestricted, unhampered, clear, open, unblocked More

verb

verb: free; 3rd person present: frees; past tense: freed; past participle: freed; gerund or present participle: freeing

1. 1.

   release from captivity, confinement, or slavery.

   "they were freed from jail"

   synonyms:

   release, set free, let go, liberate, discharge, deliver; More set loose, let loose, turn loose, untie, unchain, unfetter, unshackle, unleash; literarydisenthrall "three of the hostages were freed"

   antonyms:

   confine, lock up

   • release from physical obstruction, restraint, or entanglement.

     "I had to tug hard and at last freed him"

     synonyms:

     extricate, release, get out, pull out, pull free; More rescue, set free "the victims were freed by firefighters"

     antonyms:

     trap

   • remove something undesirable or restrictive from.

     "his inheritance freed him from financial constraints"

     synonyms:

     exempt, except, excuse, relieve, unburden, disburden More "they wish to be freed from all legal ties"

   • make available for a particular purpose.

     "this will free up funds for development elsewhere

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Posted: June-21-2005 at 2:37am | IP Logged Mental freedom, by definition, means you are a clearer expression of the constructive qualities of mind. Therefore a mentally free person should be more individual, more diplomatic, more self-expressive, more patient, more analytical, more responsible, more placid, more objective, and more understanding of others. Greater mental freedom does allow for a greater freedom of dealing with people without judging them. One can learn from every experience. If people see things differently, it is either an opportunity to understand why and learn from them, or try and explain your own perspective. A logical perspective should elicit reasonable responses from most people. In association, the great lesson is to learn to merge ideas without loosing one's own clarity of concept. Mental individuality is a higher level of mental freedom, and represents a state of complete self-mastery where the mind is an individualized instrument with a free expression of the inner potential. This generates a greater power of logic and analysis, because emotion is under the constructive control of the mind. Many people suffer the consequences of a lack of mental individuality, being swayed by propaganda and mass-minded influences. Therefore, in theory a person with a degree of mental individuality is a more controlled and positive mind. No one is perfect, and we recognize that mental freedom is a growing and evolving attainment that comes in steps based upon effort. There is no magic involved...just a study of mathematics and an application to evolve the mind to be a more balanced instrument. Edited by Daken on January-29-2008 at 6:32pm __________________ Regards, Daken "Make your life a constructive effort." Alfred J. Parker, Founder Kabalarian Philosophy

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Life Quality: (Unedited): 19 May 2013:

The quality in how you live your life after traumatic events. Is evident in the unbelievers eyes. When your history has been revealed. C.J.MacKechnie

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When your friends discover that your history has been less than desirable. They're unbelief in the story of your ugly life is the proof that you have made the right and correct decisions in your life. 

Just smile and express gratitude.

Re-assure them that it is OK. Because some who may hear may not be able to handle with this new information about your past. You may have to help them through with the living with those old memories of yours. Keeping your history of abuse, torture and abandonment a secret may be a wise thing to keep in order to protect the innocent from re-living your life.
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Life Storms: (Unedited): 11 June 2010:

Even during the rain storms of life. Something good and positive can be found if searched. 

C.J.MacKechnie
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If you are reading this and your life has been hell. Then know right this very moment. Your a survivor. Your a conqueror. Your victorious. Yes, You do not feel like one. Neither did I. But, never the less you are. Yes, the abuses and tortures you have endured were evil, bad and terrible. Yet, here you are reading this goofy quote.  Of all of the hell you have had to endure. Your strength and will defeated those who tried to end you. Your strength and will to live is proof that you won. I do understand, what I am trying to prove to you. I did not feel strong let alone a winner. I felt very much the opposite.
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No matter what you have already endured in this life. Even if you think and believe that all this life has ever been is Hell on Earth. There always is something positive to learn. Even if it is a simple positive thing that people can smile at in a weird way. Such as for me. "It is not good to try and kill your adopted son (me)". I know that was probably a failed attempt at humor. That is a basic lesson to learn. It is not good to kill your children, to abuse your children, to torture your children and etc.
There are about 500,00 kids in foster care every single year in the USA and the majority of those kids have parents who did not know that one simple truth and still don't. 
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Search for those positive good things which are within you. You are of great value and importance. 

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You are worthy of the life you know you should have. You can give to your own children the life you always ever wanted. make the effort and make it happen.

childrensrights.org

Get your hanky ready.
The National Problem with the Foster care system would end when 500,000 good Christian families become foster parents. If that were to happen. The national crime rates and gang populations would go down steadily.
This is not a problem in a few states. It is with every state in the USA and the world.
The pharmacology used against children is in itself a hells prison.
Even if you cant be a foster parent or even an adoptive parent. Mentor a foster kid and not treat them like they will be the Future Criminals of America (FCA). Kids tend to become what you expect of them to be.

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I was born to an unwed mother in 1965 Arizona. Before, I was born,. The birth father wanted my birth mother to go get the problem fixed. In which about a 45 minute drive south across the border and the problem would be solved.
I spent 5 months in the Arizona foster care system. Where I endured some kind of abuse. I assume it is related to the 20/900+ eye sight I had.
Then I was adopted by what appeared to be the perfect family.

I'll write more later. It late tonight.

Blood Blindfold: (Unedited): 25 Feb 2012:

Leaving the blood red blindfold on from the abuses and tortures of your life. Will always prevent you from looking forward and ahead to the wondrous possibilities before you. C.J.MacKechnie 

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 Yes, unfortunately a life time obstacle for others to overcome if they ever do. Some people seem to become to destroyed and just give up. Fully embrace apathy.
I've only met a relatively few people who have overcome the abuse and tortures of their childhood. While the overwhelming majority seem to become prisoners, mentally ill, homeless, Alcoholics, Drug addicts or pursuers of death.  
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 Remove the blood red blindfold of your abuses and tortures. Begin to live a life worth living. In the here and now. The possibilities for your success in life is better than most who have never had to endure the kind of difficult hardships you have had to. You are strong. Stronger than most and like a sharp blade which must survive the fire. The strength of which cannot be understood until it is cool. You have been tempered in the fires of the life's misery and torment. Yet, you are here breathing and existing. Know that there is more. Just take off that Blood Red Blindfold. Become an inspiration to someone who is newly safe from torment and suffering. Be a hero to someone else. Stand firm and point the way out of their own self created hell. You are OK and so are they OK.
You are strong and powerful. You were to strong and to powerful for even your abusers to destroy. Your very existence is the very real evidence of their failure. Your ability to thrive in a life worth living only makes your abusers a worthless failure in all things.
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First Hero: (Unedited): 19 Dec 2011:

You cannot be a hero to many. Until, you are first a hero to yourself. C.J.MacKechnie

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 First be your own hero and save yourself. Then through your own personal historical actions. Will then others, can become inspired enough to achieve more than the life in which they were born into.
No matter what has been done unto you. No matter how much abuse and torture you have had to endure. Save yourself by becoming your own hero. Stand up, Stand firm, Confront and conquer all of your internal demons, Adapt and overcome all of your deficiencies.
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This song is Bjork "An Army of Me"  I think it is a bit difficult to listen to. Never the less the message is strong and empowering. This song is a part of the sound track to the Movie " Sucker Punch". This is the most profound Psychological movie I've ever seen. Not for kids and not for any male person who cannot see beyond the women. You gotta see beyond to get it. It is a movie about abuses, tortures and on going rape, empowerment and of course saving yourself. Sometimes saving yourself means saving others or losing yourself is saving yourself while saving others. A perfect victory.

Warning a few (More than a few!) images may (Will!) be questionable. The message is what is important.
http://youtu.be/lQ7bBeIqWr4

Just so you know. I do not support Bjork as I do not know her music. The message of this one particular song is what is important. A song of self empowerment.

 http://www.lyricsdepot.com/bjork/army-of-me.html
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Here is a new video of a homeless man who is and has saved himself. He potentially saved a police officer as well. 45 Year old former gang member. This is real life make over.
http://youtu.be/Dw0VxGZehwA

Human Animal: (Unedited): 19 April 2010:

The caged and entrapped human may become a dehumanized animal. C.J.MacKechnie 

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It matters not if you have been Imprisoned, Alone, Forgotten and abandoned. You may become a dehumanized animal. It matters not if you have endured much time of severe abuse and torture. You may become a dehumanized animal. There is always hope for you and within you. Even though the word hope may have been long forgotten or is an alien concept to you. The feral De-humanistic animal in which you have become is what was needed for you to survive your horrors. Once in the place of safety. Once in the environment of love, peace, harmony and life. You can now remember who you are supposed to be. Who you were supposed to become. You can now remember that you are more than an Earth animal.
Even if right at this very moment your in a prison or a cage. You do not have to become the animal the prison keepers think you are. If you are that animal. You do not have to be anymore. Search for your own spirit. Reach for that pure and holy light deep within you. That is where you will find your peace, your love, your belonging, your joy and the forgiveness of your Heavenly Father to be.
 From the depth of you. You must endure the full memory and emotion of all of your evil. From there a hard and true wisdom will grow. The kind of wisdom that incinerates the old you. Leaving behind an empty lifeless shell. This too must happen. Now begins the birth of the new wise you. A new you which can now live with your memories and a full knowledge of the terrible emotional damage you have caused. Yes, you are guilty. Yes, You must admit to all of your crimes. Yes, You are forgiven.
Now is your time to become the wise teacher. To become the soft humble destroyer or hardened prideful hearts. This is your repayment. This is your duty to freely walk the wrong way through the open gates of Hell and point the way for the souls to exit. It was Jesus who burst open the gates to free all of us. There are still those who are so entrapped by guilt that they know not the way.


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Free Bird: (Unedited): 19 April 2010:

The caged jail bird can be more free than the human owner who is locked within his own home. 

C.J.MacKechnie 

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While in Foster care. I just needed to be free. Free from the foster care abuses. Free from the abuses from my adoptive parents. Free from being unwanted and unloved. Free from being deemed a waste of effort from the free educational system. Free from Ritalin and Cylert. Free from any mind altering contaminant. Free from being labeled a bad man.
I've studied all aspects of ADD/ADHD as well as the old medical terminology of Hyper-Kinetic. There is absolutely to physical proof that this disability exists. There is absolutely to medical test proving the existence of the disabilities. The scientists who search for a sign of a problem will accept anything. Even a diminished blood flow through certain parts of the brain. While never even thinking or considering of an increase in efficiency of the brain. A brain which thinks faster than normal or average brains is not a possible indication of a disability. On the contrary a faster brain process may be an indication of continuous incremental evolution. 
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Free Bird. Gotta love it. There was much feeling I felt when listening to this song. This is the good long version.
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No quitters: (Unedited): 24 March 2008:

The strength, courage and determination that has brought you to this exact point in your life today. Will see you into tomorrow only if you continue to take the first steps and never give up.
C.J. MacKechnie

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For some of you who have endured abuses and tortures in your life. Find solace and be thankful in your survival. Pray and cry for those who have not.  It is OK. But, now is the time for you to transition from survival mode and into living a good life as defined by your own dreams. Dedicate yourself in the establishment of creating the foundation necessary to build the life of your desires. Its OK and your OK and your safe. Go forth and forward in your life. Your most deserving to see the sweet fruits of today's and tomorrows efforts.The creation of your new foundation is no where as difficult or trying as that which you have had to endure. the creation of this new foundation may be very alien to you. It is OK. Do not fear it or flee from it. Confront and conquer. Adapt and overcome with the same determination of your past.

True Responsibility: (Unedited): 24 march 2008:

Once you realize and accept that the quality of your childhood is not your fault. The quality of your life today and tomorrow is your fault.
C.J. MacKechnie

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I got caught up in all of that. Blaming everyone and everything for the misery of my life. Then it occurred to me. What now? and whats next? And who is exactly responsible for my failures in life today and tomorrow? The hard answer was ME?
So, You had been abused and tortured in your childhood and here you are now. You are now safe and free of the abuse and torture from your very own flesh and blood family. What now? Continue to be angry? Continue to hate? Continue to not care for anyone or anything? To do these things means your awful and terrible parents was right about you and they win. Don't let them be right and don't let them win. But, Then again it isn't about winning is it? Its about you right now. Its about your future that you can have. A good future worth living. A good life worth having. You survived the worst and may have almost been killed by them numerous times. This is the evidence that you are stronger than they ever were. So, Stop being stupid. Be your own hero and save yourself. Suck it up and stand firm. Go forth and achieve your dreams. Yes, it is OK to have your own dreams now. Build with your own hands the foundation of the education needed to build your dreams. To do allow the thinking of being years or decades behind your age group to hinder you, to stop you or to prevent you from achieving.
I guarantee when you begin to move forward slowly people will notice that your moving and take minimal notice. But, when you get up to speed like a massive freight train. People will move out of your way and maybe even hop aboard for your wonderful ride to come.
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Alter Conditioning: (Unedited): 23 Aug 2012

A child who endures and survives great cruelties put into or upon them. Can find awareness within the self and an urging to alter ones own cruel conditioning. In the internal hope of becoming a better human being.
C.J.MacKechnie

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The internal hope is key. Some children become so destroyed that they lose all knowledge of hope. Some children have been tormented and abused from such a young age. That they have no concept of what anything good is. Let alone the existence of hope, love, compassion, kindness and charity. Happiness, acceptance and satisfaction is as alien to them as real and genuine space aliens are unknown or unreal to you.  The good ending to any story is not for the abused child as they are undeserving of anything good. Fairness and equality is not fair for them either as the good people seem to shun and reject them as well. Like we/they are some kind of disease which must be avoided. The police and counselors seem to treat them as the future criminals they are to become. Can you feel the misery and hopelessness of an abused child. These are some of the things in which I experienced in my childhood. Some foster children were much more braver than I ever was. As they made that unwise logical connection that it would be safer for them to live on the streets then it would to remain in the foster care system.
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Abandoned children.
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Can you imagine a child who has this as their only expectation in life.
My first night in the foster care system for the second time. Was spent in the juvenile detention Center. My only crime was being adopted by bad parents. 
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Foster Care Child Abuse News:

http://youtu.be/7VcB0o252Ls ------ http://youtu.be/GDwJSWje1co

http://youtu.be/S0E0QOxsGIY ---- http://youtu.be/yJjigE2KD5s

http://youtu.be/s6molQ2VXas -------- http://youtu.be/ZiD7p1irHCY

http://youtu.be/KOXuEOSvv78 ------ http://youtu.be/jK6QDJHM2E0

http://youtu.be/Mc55Ev5Sj7k ------- http://youtu.be/oUYpvTDXnH4

I can go on with the videos. The problem isn't entirely in the foster care system. It is also with the original parents or in my case the adoptive parents. Those parents who have done terrible things to their own children. All of the abuses, tortures that a child endures can all be altered with love, kindness, compassion and acceptance. The conditioning of abuse can be altered. There is hope. There is always hope.

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Added on 07 Feb 2016:
My story was an impossible one to endure and yet not as impossible as the millions who have endured far more than I could have ever endured. Yet, In this day there are hundreds of thousands of children who will be abused by their own parents, step parents or by the boyfriend. Some will die, disappear and forgotten.
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Foster care abuse just in the last month. Just one month of research in a few minutes.
http://www.cincinnati.com/story/news/2016/02/04/nky-church-youth-leader-accused-rape/79808012/
http://www.wtvm.com/story/31144279/exclusive-lee-co-couple-indicted-for-child-abuse-of-foster-child
http://www.pe.com/articles/foster-791879-case-child.html
http://www.courant.com/news/connecticut/hc-watertown-adopt-abuse-0130-20160129-story.html
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YouTube videos. Some videos a couple of years old.
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 To avert all of the coming bad and sad prophecies. We each must decide to do the following everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.

To Love one another.

To live in peace with everyone.

To exist in harmony with all.

To Cherish all life.

To be obedient to the Laws of God.

To become righteous and holy by the accepting eyes of God only.

All without any pride, ego, arrogance, supremacy and entitlements.
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Righteous Man: (Unedited): 29 Dec 2006

A righteous man seeks holiness and not religion. A righteous man pursues the right path, the right action and right thinking. C.J.MacKechnie

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Acceptance from the Religious authority or from the social cultures within any religion will not be the motivational factors when following the traditions within the religion. The laws and rules for living a life of GOD/ALLAH/GRANDFATHER are followed by logical choice without any threat or fear applied. There is no self flogging, self abuse, self torture or struggle. By his or her choice and without any outside conditional manipulation on anyone's or anythings part. The person decides to live a life in accordance to GOD/ALLAH/GRANDFATHER will.

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